DeLarla

I'm not sure if I ever said this, but I've always said I would go blonde just once in my life. Last month I went totally blonde in front, but left the underside dark brown. I'm having my roots done tonight. I said I'd go blonde once in my life and stay blonde for one year. It took me 42 years to do the whole front blonde. Everyone says they LOVE the new Blonde DeLarla. I personally don't like like it because it makes makes my face look weird (maybe the wrong skin tones?) WHAT SHOULD I DO TONIGHT? 1. Match dark roots to already blonde hair and keep underside dark. 2. Go fully blonde one time only? 3. Change immediately and go darker? 4. Opt of a darker shade of blonde? 5. Shave my head 6. Keep it short 7. Go shorter 8. Grow it out By the way, we can start a whole thread for all of us. I suck at picking out my own clothes and hair styles. This could be our own On-Line Makeover page.

Okay, I'm feeling better after a long, long talk with Sandy from Ortiz's office. Long story how I connected with her, but what a wonderful gal. She really helped me out, and tomorrow I'll start hunting down an endo, just to be on the safe side. But all the talk of "loss of restriction" had me panic so I decided to test my band. I was feeling good, and damn hungry, so I ate some real food. 1/2 cup mashed Beans and 2 ounces meat. Made me full, but felt so good that I added 1 slice rye bread. Now I feel normal, and restricted. Yes, I know I'm supposed to stay on liquids, but I'm obsesses with food, ergo the band. Yikes, I'll never learn. We think I got something stuck based on the way liquid stuck up top, then added irritation. So tomorrow I start my Quest for a local endo, or at least a fluoro for starters.

Girl, get a mirror, get at toy, and reconnect with your best friend, fast!

Thanks Nyk, but I'm swallowing better. Yesterday all my normal band rumbly and grumbling stopped, and I couldn't burp. But today the gurgles are letting liquids pass. I don't think I was ever as bad as even one of your hours though. I just had bad band pain and was choking every couple hours. Today most of the pain is gone. Thanks everyone for your help & concern & calls & PMs & e-mails & chats, and Kel, I'm sorry I missed you! I can't get an unfill because I don't have a port. I'd have to get my entire band removed. I just don't have many options (or I have a million too many?)

Sorry, no red for me. It washes out in 2 weeks and looks like rusty pink. I was red for many years, but my old lady hair turned to horse hair that refuses to hold pigment. I've challenged many hairstylists who swear they can make me red, but it never lasts. Phooey.

OMG, black olives, green olives - any olives! I could live on them! I'm on liquids for a few days, and it sucks. As far as hating me loving me hating me loving me, hell, it's my badass friends that get me through the toughest times. This isn't a time for cooing or coddles, this is serious. I'm afraid to drink a Coke now! Time to go Water down some water for a lovely treat.

Even low sodium broth brought the stuck glob back. I think it's a dense form of PB slime that can't go down and won't come up, so it glues to the back of your throat. It chokes in your sleep so you wake up coughing. Add that to regular allergies and it's a miserable night's sleep. Sipping warm liquid is soothing, but it doesn't get rid of it. The best comfort is a steamy shower or bath. Ice pops and cold feel good too, but nothing really gets rid of it. In the past, after a day or so, suddenly I'll sneeze or cough and dislodge the thing. Nice, huh?

Maggie, I think most of us (at least me) feel the same way about our bodies. Girl, I've been through decades of therapy over the exact same destructive behavior as you, including being addicted to speed, in many forms, many times in my life. I was hospitized countless times. You have to come to terms with your body though and realize you will never, ever have an 18 year old's rock hard body with perfect hips and boobs. You are a woman now, so instead of hiding, begin to embrace your sexuality. Look at the world around you - who is perfect? Should we be sentenced to a life of imprisonment because we were plagued by unexplainable disorders? Would you hide a cancer victum in long sleeves in the summer? Love yourself now, and amazing things will start happening. The world can F off if they don't like my bare arms!

Friends, I'm in a bad, bad situation. I've consumed more sugar in the past 3 months than all my life combined. What the heck happened to me? I never drank Coke. EVER. I had no desire for Coke or Pepsi because I was addicted to Diet Pepsi. Several months back I had a real Coke. Then another. I saw other Bandsters drinking Dr. Pepper and Coke, so I started. Now I can't stop. I'm actually being serious for a change. Yesterday I went all day with no soda. Then I actually popped a Pepsi open at 9:30 p.m. IN BED. ANOTHER CONFESSION: I picked up a new habit of eating in bed, then going right to sleep. I almost called Michelle last night, but the phone was too far away. I need to confess this because I'm really scared. I've gained about 10 pounds, and I want to stop the insanity. It's 2pm. I switched back to Diet Pepsi today, and I ate plain Protein for lunch. All I need is one day. I need to make it past one night without opening a Coke. Why did this happen? How the hell can someone my age come up with new bad habits this late in the game. And yes, I said HELL because that's what it's like.

Alex, an unfill is not an option. I'm not closed completely, so there's nothing I can do but baby it. If it shut down completely, I'd have to go to ER and explain that the only band surgeon in town is Barry Fisher, who would have to remove the band. Heaven only knows where that would lead or how they'd treat me, so my only choice is to baby it. Kim, yes, I do have bad allgergies today, which is compounding the problem. I can tell the difference between allergies though, because I had them prior to banding. Allergies will cause flem, but they never choked me like good old band flem does!

I went to the amazing International Lingerie Convention, so here's the list of all the companies that carry plus size pretties. I carry lots of plus size items from some of these companies, but I buy with a blindfold on so I never know what I'll get, which is why I'm still hunting for panties. If you do internet searches, please share links. I'm especially interested in plus size thongs. Thanks! And your welcome! NOTE, I won't sell my lingerie unless you try it on first, and since you can't try on clothes over the internet, this isn't a marketing thread. I'm sharing info on plus size women's wear. A.T. Design Allure Leather Ascension Lingerie & Swimsuit LLC Comme-Ci Comme-Ca Apparel Coquette Int'l Inc. Delicate Illusions Dreamgirl, International Electric Lingerie Elegant Moments, Inc. Empire/The Farel Corp. Escante, Inc. Fantasy Lingrie, Inc. Faris Lingerie Fashion Designers, Intl'. Inc. Future Form Glroia's Dreams Grupo Espiral/Espiral Linterie Hoss International Infimax corp JH design Group Kaia Designs Kookie Int'l Leg Avenue, Inc. Magic Silk Mailini/Taj Minor Creations Moonlight Serenade Morganza Brazil Intimates Paradise Lingerie, Inc. - honeydew Intimates Secret Mirror/Sex symbol Shame Lingerie Sharron Leslie Designss Shirley of Hollywood Simply Thongs Squeem Coporation Stormy Leather Tony Shoes/Tony's Wear Triangle Lingerie Copr Versatile Fasions Vx Intimate Studio, Inc. XTC Leather Of NY, LTD

Michelle, I didn't make it home till 5am the next morning because I went dancing with my Slumber sisters and burned 9 billion calories; then we went to Breakfast at 3:00 a.m. so I walked away and drank ice tea (can you believe that?) However, the next night I went too long without eating, then had some cocktails at the show, then at midnight was starving. I walked through the casino looking for a bag of popcorn or anything to fill my pouch and ended up at a Mexican counter. So I had chips and salsa with an appetizer that was sooooooo good. That's when I overdid it, and woke up in the middle of the night hurting. Today I'm not sure yet. I had a rough night trying to cough the clog out of my throat. I took today off work. First thing I did was drink a small bottle of Water to see what happened. Normally I hear the gurgle of the water going through within a minute, but yesterday I never gurgled at all. Today it took about 15 minutes for the water to go through. Most of the pain and burn was gone, but the water just brought a hint of the burn back. I think if I stay on liquids then I might heal, but I'm calling Dr. Billy later. I called yesterday but nobody called back. I have the clogged throat really bad, too. Like flem glued to the back of my throat that chokes me. The good news is that yesterday my belly wasn't making and noise, and today it's talking up a storm. I'll keep you updated. Thanks everyone for being here. Alex, if I lose a pound over this, I'm holding you accountable! Kare, keep kicking my ass. I want a Coke so bad, but I won't give in. But my symptoms are positively physical this time. I have a headache and I'm lethargic because of quitting the addiciton, but this band problem is real. Rene, keep kicking my butt. I need it! Thanks for keeping me of Coke yesterday. Pam, call your doc. If I have to, you have to! Everyone else, thanks so much. I couldn't wait to see if you were all here, makes me feel a little better.

I'm home sick and now I'm crying... you girls always make me cry Thank you. And I give Sachi and Voo hundreds of kisses every day. Thank you! Chris and I went blonde together, but I hated his and now his salt-n-pepper is growing back plus he's wearing glasses - I think he's HOT too! Why do you think I put up with him? He's an irresistable 9 year old!

Not only was my psychic accurate, but she gave time frames that have been precise. I'm going to listen to the tape again. She kept pointing at my throat "within 3 months" but she was confused because it related to scars around my sternum. So today I'm home sick because I'm pretty sure there's something wrong with my band. I stayed on liquids yesterday, but still had trouble sleeping due to the lumps in my throat (acid reflux.) This morning, plain water has me choking if I drink too much. I'm calling my band soon.

That's lots to be thrilled about Smooch. Little things all add up. Good going!

I was thinking of a blocked stoma, but liquids are passing slowly. I put a call into my doc but he didn't call back. I already know that any one of my 9 band surgeons will all say the same thing, which is what Alex said. Liquids for a few days, then we'll see. Though I did get lump-in-the-throat from 2 S/F ice pops. Let's see what tomorrow brings.

Rene, I could hurl my low sodium broth all over this thread right now. A damn Coke would make me feel great. I have a very ugly mean look on my face right now. I didn't get sick till I gave the crap up. My band misses goodies. I am very close to throwing a temper tantrum now, so I better go lay back down. I want a Coke (regular or Diet, I don't care) and a fat ASS burp! Yes, I cussed.

I gave up my goodies and soda and got sick. Band hurts today - bad enough that I'm on liquids. Haven't done all liquids since January. Had delicious low sodium broth for dinner, then 2 S/F Pops. That liquid filled me pretty tight. I'm most likely dying again (it's a joke, I'm still kicking.) So I'm still clean & need to upate my numbers.

Call my doctor? That statement hurts my head because they all flood through my brain at once - Lopez, Kuri, Teng, Lopez, Billy. I'll call Billy. Alex, THANK YOU! That's what I did (Soup, popsicles.) However, I cheated with pudding. No pudding? No smashed taters? Okay, I'm on liquids, so I need everyone to come over and hold me down, please. Hubby is off to the store for S/F popsicles, broth & soup. I also have lump in my throat that's choking me, which I'm attributing to acid reflux. The squeezing is kind of a warm burn. Does that sound right? Time to take mental inventory and stick to liquids. That's why I didn't rush to the doctor because I figured they'd say the same thing unless I wasn't getting liquids down or vomitting. Thanks everyone. Sure feels poopy. Time to take mental inventory. And the irony is that I gave up soda and goodies. See, my body NEEDS them!

A very reliable source (Mexican medical associate) warned me to stay far away from the Moulding Clinic. I personally don't consider it gossip considering the source. Does this surgeon work out of that facility?

No flu here, and it still hurts. I feel it squeezing hard. I'm on liquid & mushies, and pudding filled me up. I'm having a bad time trying to call Lopez with no luck. Poop.

I left work and came home. I don't like this squeezing me feeling. I also have some weird pain on the right in the gallbladderish region. Maybe a little UPSET STOMACH, IDIGESTION, ACID REFLUX, DIAREAH! (How does that Pepto song go?) Sorry, I won't be doing the Peptorena Dance, just off to bed.

Mine felt like a hard pea. It was the tube trying to poke out - and it eventually did. Don't moosh it around like I did!

"Would it not be better to be checked out now and maybe have your band replaced, rather than having it erode to a higher degree and have to have it removed without a replacement?" Wow, Mari, I would never have thought of that. But honestly, I'm exhausted. I'll probalby have my band removed, maybe for Christmas. It's a good idea, but I'm feeling really crappy today, plus since I'm a woman I have the right to change my mind in an hour Feeling poopy today.

I only ate 3 pretzles early this morning cause I didn't have any Saltines, and that didn't feel too good. Then I had a Soup-at-Hand, Creamy Broc. Feels like there's a grapefruit stuck in my pouch.