Texas201233

Hi

I'm 33 and now looking at my second knee surgery in under two years. In two years, I've gone from no health problems to several issues or impending issues. I have been overweight to severely overweight since about age 20. Before then, I was the town athlete. In pristine shape, I still had to restrict my diet most times not to lose weight, but to keep from gaining. Having children and being careless with my weight and then going through some pretty hard years, I find myself here today. I don't really know what else to say other than I'm to the point where even if I had every thing in line and perfect to enable me to be determined, I can't even move around without pain or difficulties. I gained 60 pounds in a year a half since my first knee surgery. I went from being very active, even at being obese, to basically sedentary. I'm afraid of what is to come after this second knee surgery. I'm beyond overweight. I'm morbid and "must have a death wish" as my doctor told me. I dont really know how much the band surgery would help me because I don't think I overeat. I eat once maybe twice a day. It's not healthy usually since I stay extremely tired this past year on this new work schedule, and I eat at very odd hours as I work night shift work. I'm looking into it though after my doctor hounding me about this procedure for about two years. The yo-yo dieting over the years yo-yo for a reason. Weight Watchers is great, but I'm having trouble just walking to the car now.

This was really hard to write. I guess I've been in denial for some time now...I'm hearing it even as I type this out...

I have two wonderful children who need me. Plain and simple. It's time to do something different.