LadyNettie

Hi Everyone! My Name is Nettie and I am considering lap band surgery. I have been through all the preliminary steps and am meeting with the Surgeon for the first time this coming Wed. I am scared to death. I keep questioning my decision big time. I am in my early 40's and have type 2 diabetes, HTN and PCOS and have a family history of heart problems & cancer. I have had one major success in losing weight and keeping it off and that was in 1998 when I went from 280ish to 240. I have since then bounced around from 240 to 250 constantly. I have tried lots of ways to lose but I either don't give it my all or I don't get the desired results so I give up. I saw my Mother die this past summer from complications of not taking care of her diabetes. This has put unholy terror in my life. I am a "good" diabetic. I follow the rules and do what I am supposed to hence my 6.5 A1C! However the other issues that go along with it keep changing. My HTN has gotten bad this year and it never was before. So I am trying this as a means to rid myself of all these health issues. I want to live a long healthy life. I have a great support system if I do this but I am still scared. What will I do if I can't make it work? Am I setting myself up for failure? What will happen if I don't get in the required exercise? I am not lazy but I just have a really hard time making myself do the exercise. What if I lose weight but can't lose the flab and can't afford surgery to get rid of it? All of this keeps going through my head. My brain hurts because of this. I would appreciate any feedback or advice. Thank you.

@Floridays: Just took a look at your before & after pics! No one can tell that you require any surgical work! You have done fabulous! I will try to get hubby to help me post pics this week. I think that has a lot to do with success on these programs! And you are absolutely right about the heart attack, I don't want to think about it happening either! Thank you!

Thank you all for your replies! @Banding Mi : I am 5'7". @ Lovingthe NewMe:I was never told to see a physiologist-what do they do? A Nutritionist I believe is the next step after the surgeon they said. I am excited about seeing her! 20-30 minutes of walking is definately do-able! I walk with a Biggest Loser workout for a mile and it takes about 15-18 minutes so if I do two of them or get a Leslie Sansone dvd I think that is manageable! I was thinking like heavy aerobics everyday or something like that. I am glad I can start off with walking! I am glad to have found this forum and am thankful that you are all so very friendly! Thank you again! Nettie