I am still awaiting my final appointment for my dr supervised diet. I am a little stressed because they just had me continue doing weight watchers..which I have been up and down on and thats how each month is. The first month I lost...next gained...next lost..next gained..and we will see how it works this time. I am up and down like that with weight watchers which is why I want lap band to use as a tool. I know it's not a quick fix and I will have to work my ass off..like I do with weight watchers. I have PCOS and anyone who knows anything about it, knows it makes losing weight on your own a b*tch. I am limited on the amount of exercise I can do due to severe arthritis in my knee and needed knee surgery (no cartilage left..strictly bone on bone). I do what I can, but fail to see results. I hope this wont affect insurance accepting..On to my vent..
Last night was our weight watchers meeting...i LOVE my weight watchers leader..she is great. Well last night we were discussing celebs who have lost weight and how they have done it. One celeb was mentioned and someone said yeah well she had that weight loss surgery, she took the easy way out...and i got PISSED. From what I have read and researched,..that isnt a dang thing easy about this..its not an easy way out because i know i will have to work for it just as I am now..if not harder. People who think it's an easy way out irritate me. If I could do it on my own, if I wasnt 29 years old, 6'2 and 407 lbs and could do this on my own..the last place I would be would be in my doctor's office begging for weight loss surgery because if I stay this way all I will be looking at is the ground because I will die..plain and simple..I will die. This isnt an option..this wasnt an easy decision..i HAVE to do this..I have to live..I have to be able to sit in an airplane seat comfortably and not be all on the next person..i have to be able to ride a roller coaster because I never have..I can't fit...I have to be able to have a family and see them grow..None of this is easy..NONE of it. Anyone who thinks it is are just nuts.
Ok I feel better 13 Days til my last appointment.