(***Scared and unsure... Don't know how to edit the title haha)
Hi everyone! I am fairly new to these boards but have been learning a great deal of information! I guess I am just posting to get a little feedback and perhaps some advice. To start, like many people on here, I have been fat since I was a little girl and have always been the "you would be so pretty if you lost weight" girl, constantly insecure about my weight and my body, and always struggling with emotional eating. I just turned 30 this year and have been really re-evaluating myself, both mentally and physically. I have also really been struggling with my weight recently, feeling like I've just given up on myself, still with that nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that I haven't been successful because I haven't worked hard enough or haven't tried for long enough.
So at this point, I am conflicted with what seems like similar questions that many people have had of "Why can't I just do it on my own? If I have to work so hard with the band, why not save my money and do it without?" At this point I know that I must make a HUGE change but I am not sure what the best path for me is. First off I am scared like crazy because I have never had surgery in my life and have always been healthy despite my weight. If I choose the lap band, I would be self-pay and would basically be doing it all on my own. I live in South Korea at the moment and I don't plan on telling anyone about the surgery. Mostly because I don't want everyone to know my personal business, but also because it would scare my mother to death hahaha. But, this also makes me nervous about not having any kind of support (other than perhaps discussion boards like these) and that scares me to think it will be one more reason for possible failure with the band.
Anyway, I know that this is a big rambling post, but I guess my biggest questions are these - because I am mostly an emotional eater, is the lap band a viable option to consider? Also, what kind of mental process did you all go through before making the final decision to get banded?
