TheDissh

Hope .... Read my blog ... I'm starting over as well... I was banded in 2009 and had one fill. You had the surgery for a reason... A tool The hardest part is making the doctor appointment..and you did that !!! Just like an journey ... There will be ups and down... Just hang in there !!! Dissh

Another week down ... But for whatever reason I had a hard time with cravings ? .... Stop... Rewind... During my recent fill... The PA suggested I go down to 1200 calories a day to jump start my metabolism and go on a liquid diet for a week or two :/ Well I was pretty good, but the last few days I feel like a bear !!! I have been cravings the worst things like chocolate and greasy stuff But I refuse to eat fast food ... So to get my "grease fix", I fried an egg in Pam ...but lost control twice this week and had 2 peanut butter cups (1 pkg) and a small bag of M&Ms. Ugh !!! I'm also having issues with soup.... I never realized how much sodium they have :/ If I personally have soup once a day, I'm going to balloon up. So, I've decided to cut down on soup. On the bright side of things ... I'm down another 2 lbs. I felt it should have been more ...but I'll take it. Also, I am actually get full on smaller amounts of food. Goals: Hit the dance studio 4 x a week Drink more water And decide if I need a fiber supplement for the plumbing lol

They might ... But keep your fingers crossed !!! Just remember to eat your proteins first before anything else on your plate That should help you feel full... Cause this is my current struggle :/ Yesterday was really hard being on just liquids, and smelling what everyone around me was eating... I was grieving over foods I can't have But this too shall pass ... I have to get off the piggy train !!!

Well I am checking in a day early ... But I just had to share that I had a really good experience with my fill today. Last night I couldn't sleep... I just keep ting thinking ... "Please god, I did this surgery for a reason and give me the strength to get over my fill experience". What a difference three years makes. My doctor no longer does fills at his office, but instead are now done at the hospital. Once I got there, I talked with the staff and expressed my anxiety. They assured me everything would be okay, and even offered to hold my hand during the procedure. Well I met a female PA and she was very kind and went over my history. She said my chart was very confusing, and needed to pull the fluid from my band, but would add 1cc. Before i knew it, she did the procedure in one shot. I was shocked :0 As it turns out I have a 12cc band with 7cc's of fluid, but with the 1cc added, I am sporting 8cc's. She suggested I stay on a liquid diet for two days and that I should think about staying on it for two weeks to jump start my weight loss. Then she said I need to reduce my calories to 1200 a day, and only use protein drinks as a meal substitute. I think I can handle the 1200 calories, but two weeks of liquids might take me over the edge. LoL I hope sharing this helps someone else in my shoes Remember ... this is a journey .... And there will be ups and downs... But we have each other for support

Another week down... Well I finally called my doctor this week after getting my approval letter for a fill. Its so strange ... I'm excited, but so nervous at the same time Its been three years since my last fill... and if you read my profile ... you know why this is a little nerve racking. I scheduled my appointment for Thursday afternoon, but I hope this will be a better experience On the bright side this week... I am down another 3 lbs.. but I really had to work for it. I really enjoy zumba and hip hop ... with the aid of my sweat belt. I worked out three times this week. I would like to increase it ... pending everyday life crisises. Things I still need to work on: - drinking more water - increase protein - less carbs - monitor sodium (makes me balloon up) Thought for the week ... Rather than aiming for being perfect, just aim to be little bit better today than you were yesterday.

Okay ... 2 weeks in ... And it's been all me. The first week wasn't too bad ... But week two was a little harder. I really paid attention to my food ...and myfitnesspal is a good tool. I am trying to stay around 1500 calories, but noticed I'm not always getting in all my protein, so I need to pay a little more attention to that. On the upside, hula hooping is my quick workout while watching t.v. I do cheat and wear a neoprene waist band for extra sweating lol. I know some may think I should go lower than 1500 calories, but if I get my fitness on, I get to have more calories for the day. Also, I don't want to deprive myself, because if I do, I become a binge queen. Plus for the week... Got my letter to get a fill...and down another lbs !!! Log...fitness...and self love !!!! Who's with me ?

Morning Well I got to see my primary care physician this morning and she was good with me starting my fills again. Now I just have to wait for the approval in the mail from Cigna. I just hope my surgeon will be as kind as my primary care physician. Notes to self - log anything that touches my lips - dance at least three times a week - finish reading "Before and After" - check in with my band buddies - don't beat myself up if I screw up Plus side ... Down 3 more lbs

That's great ... I called my doctor today to get back on track !!! The doctor's office asked why its been so long since I've been back? I told them I made an appointment to see my doctor and they gave me a PA instead who stuck me three times trying to find my port ...then the area became bruised and sore following the appointment. I have to be honest ...that was my first and last time I ever got a fill. I feel like such a failure ... But that was the worst experience. I hope my primary doctor won't give me such a hard time and refer me so I can give it another chance