Well, I've made up my mind about the lapband surgery. I'm very excited. My biggest fear is that I won't do well on it and/or have complications. I'm so tired of hurting. I'm so tired of just being fat and having no will power. I wish I knew what I weigh. I'm too afraid to find out actually. My goal is to just get healthy and feel better. I quit smoking and that was tough! I can surely do the same mind set and work on losing weight.