rachelmom

ok. so here it is my friends. i make myself pb b.c. i can't take the pain after i eat anything. i am not overfilled. it is just that this has been going on so long i think i am terribly irritated or something b.c. it is so hard to even eat small ammounts of food. i am in pain but here is where i feel like a sikko...the dr. told me i should drink only liquids for like a week so i can get things back to normal.... does anyone relate to this cycle of trying to eat something, getting sick.... waiting a few hours and once you feel a little better, you eat something again (!) and pb and on and on.... any it seems i am incapable of not eating (and following my dr. advice...) i know i am supposed to go to mushys etc. to get this stopped (i think that's right?) but instead i will try sucking on some cheese curls, or will try to eat 2 small pieces of sushi--and then i wind up in the sink feeling so miserable for hours.... it is driving my husband nuts but i keep compulsively not do what i know i should---go to liquids and mushies only.... has anyone had this problem for like weeks on end (so you can relate to the pain and insanity of it all?) obviously the people who will just drink Protein shakes and warm liquids after they pb once , won't be able to relate... i pb 4-5 a day (please don't yell!!) and this has been going on for a couple of months on and off..... and i'm just so hungry b.c. once i pb...i have nothing in my stomach so i always feel hungry!! can anyone relate and offer any adivce (besides see a shrink asap!!) has anyone ever been this irritated and knows this cycle i'm talking about??? please please write if so, because i feel all alone as no one knows what i'm going thru, and i never told anyone about my surgery..... god bless us all, rachel

guys thank you SO much from the bottom of my heart for all of your support. it means so much to me and is so helpful. i actually went in today to nyc to have a complete unfill... i already feel better...(i can take a deep breath without sharp pain etc...) wow. i was banded in jan. so yes i am new to this, but i learrned my lesson this time (finally... the hard way.) i need to follow the rules and stop fighting this band....although i'm the first to admit it's a lot harder than i thought it would be.... sign me up for when they have the "head" surgery to go with the band.... anyway. you guys are truly wonderful!!! thank you, rachel

thanks doddie for your advice. it's now 1 pm... was up all night and here we are and it is still so miserable. i'll burp every 15 min. or so and this acidy bile stuff comes to my mouth. i called my dr. yesteday, aside from chiding me for my insanity she suggested i come in for a slight unfill, but i'm only at .7 anyway so she doesn't think it's a restriction problem.... she told me what you all said...this is a dangerous game and i will end up having to have surgery again if i don't stop this....(consider that done! wow, this is so horrible, i definately learned my lesson....) but does anyone tell me how long this is going to be lasting... it's never lasted lasted this long and i am kinda scared to be honest. i am keeping down small sips of Water but like i said i get these horrible burps which just are driving me nuts.... i just want to be able to sleep a bit tonight and pray that this whole thing will end. (i haven't pb'd at all although part of me thinks it might help in the short run to not have this pain, but i'm too scared at this point....) this is insane!! oh and i am taking the prilosac stuff too but it doesn't seem to do much....(last nights dose came up 10 min. after i took it and it was awful....) ok. i'm whining now. i'm so sorry guys. i just don't know how much longer this could hurt.... my dr. said it probably hasn't slipped (yet!) if i can hold down water etc.... so this is just a terrible esphogus thing or something from being inflamed and irritated for so many days now-and not doing what i needed to do. has anyone had a smilar experience? (for your sake, i hope not.!) this just flat out sucks. and i can only be angry at myself, but wow. do i really really hurt. whew... big sigh..... i think i can..... i think i can.... thanks to you all!! rachel

thanks alexandra for your support. it is 2 a.m and i am still in terrible agony from tying this afternon to eat 2 teaspoons of tuna.... i am throwing up acidy bile stuff and the pain is just overwhelming.....i can't believe how long this episode is lasting.... well.... this is rock bottom for me. i pray i haven't already screwed myself up with this and will gladly stay on liquids or whatever if only this pain would stop.... this is just awful. thanks guys. rachel

thanks for writing back. the problem i have is that i am compulsive with food.. that's how i got to be so heavy.... i got banded in jan. (self pay!) and have lost over 50 lbs. which sounds great on paper, but in reality it's been a million times more difficult and frustating that i would have thought. so my problem is i get sick.... after the horrible feeling goes away in a 1/2 -3 hours (!) once i "feel" ok, i seem intent on trying to grab a dumb thing to eat instead of mushies or liquid.... (thinking i will eat just a bit, chew etc... and i'll be ok.... which i'm not... onto the next meal etc...) so i'm really really hungry because there is no food getting down and staying down.... i am jealous of all of you who are able to give up eating for the necessary time as when my dr. says i need to be on liquids for the next week, i nod my head but i know it's not realistic. i want this to work so badly. am really feeling down and just fed up with this thing.... it's not like i'm going out eating a plate of Pasta, i tried a few bites of tuna on a scooped out bagel today for lunch (literallly three small bites...) i've been sick all day. literally feeling like an acid or something all the way from my stomach up to my throat. it is a horrible feeling. i just can't seem to get on track here... thanks for writing back though as i know i must sound like a retard, but i'm really hurting and hungry and just feel overwhelmed now.... thank you so much for writing back and caring.... rachel

hi there everyone. just me still suffering with daily bouts of pbing and so am wondering just how tiny a bite is supposed to be (say a teaspoon, half a teaspoon?) how many times are you chewing before swallowing? could not eating slowly enough be the reason i am having problems? i mean, i do try to eat slow and little bites, but i know i could chew longer until it was absolute paste? in terms of portion sizes--can you eat a slice of pizza (no crust)? can you eat a hamburger? or have your eating habbits completely changed? pre-band i thought i would be able to eat my favorite foods, just in less quanity (so instead of an entire pizza i would eat say a slice,,,, but my frustration seems to be that i can't eat anything other than soft mushy food without pain. so i don't know if i need an unfill or if i am just doing something wrong, and not eating rediculously slow? do you eat REDICUOUSLY slow??? ugh. thanks. i'm at 1.5 cc fill now and debating having an unfull to 1.0 i don't know this is so much harder than i thought it would be..!!!! banded 1/16/07 preband 220 lbs. current weight 190 1bs.. yea, big surprise if you are not eating and barfing what you do eat, you WILL loose weight!! but it is not healthy and not sustainable long term. i need to figure this out sooner than later because i am getting so frustrated! thanks for reading my gripe story!!!! please don't write anything mean!!

hi there y'all. first, have been lurking on here for months, and want to thank you all for so much infomation!! you guys inspire me! here's my pathetic situation. was banded mid-january. had my first fill 1.2 cc five weeks after surgery then went back last week and she upped me to 1.5 cc. and now (well really even back at 1.2 to be honest) i'm having real problems, which is that i'm hungry all the time basically but i can't eat because it hurts too much. i eat and chew and swallow and then like 2-5 minutes later, bam. it's just painful. have pb, slimed the whole nine yards. i miss eating food!? but i don't understand why this is happening to me and the only food i've really been able to get down with no issue is ice cream (i know i know....) but everything i want to eat hurts, and i must be seriously psycho b.c. i keep trying to eat things that will end up causing so much discomfort?! are you guys able to eat without pain? do you chew your food the point of liquifying it??! (gross, sorry) do you stop eating because you are "full" or becuase you jsut get pain? my dr. was like, " if you feel pressure in your chest, that means it's time to stop eating."--but that's like after 3 bites??? this is so frustrating???? i know this must get easier because i know you all seem so satisfied with the band, so it must be me. but again, its only 1.5. cc and i'm talking i can't pb the Protein shake this morning, (well it was strawberry and kinda gross so that might not have helped?!) any advice would be amazing!! thanks, rachel p.s. how do you know if you need an unfill? i don't want an unfill becuase i'm afraid if i'm hungry now all the time, with less restriction i'll be ravenous and eat terribly. UGH!!!