Molly1978

At this moment, I am so happy. Happy to be loosing weight so fast! For the first time in my life! Ok, I know it wont be this easy always but, I'm gonna take this happy and run with it!
 
 
If I loose 3 more lbs by Monday, I'll have lost 10lbs. this week! And I think I might actually loose a few more lbs. if I keep going the way I'm going. Its fun to get on the scale now. ha ha ha
 
 
What I want now is one of those fit bit thingys and the new scale that goes with it (the aria I think its called?) I think that weight loss centers should offer them at a discount to their patients. For achieving goals or something, or just 10% off.
 
 
I have a feeling that I wont get one for my birthday so, I'll have to buy it for myself. Boo hoo, where's that violin noise coming from?
 
 
I pooped today for the first time in 6 days. It was almost the worst poop I've ever had. I was sweaty and had to lie down afterwards. Baby Jesus it was painful. Obviously I've been constipated.
 
 
After my horrific 20 minutes on the pot, I layed down for 10 minutes, got up and drove for the first time in 5 days. It really wore me out. No driving after fighting with the poopy again for a while. Hopefully there will be no constipation like that again. I don't wanna be holding on to the sink and towel rack again praying for a miracle while sweat is dripping from my forehead. Blech.
 
 
I briefly talked to my cousins wife on facebook today. I told her I had gastric bypass. She said, "Ohh noo!" and "So Sad!" I'm thinking to myself, sad? Seriously? Ummm, I'm huge and trying to loose weight is sad? What a psycho! That makes me so mad! But, I calmly said (typed) "Don't be sad, I'm not. I really like everything thats happened so far."
 
Sad? Why would some people automatically say sad? Don't you understand lady that I've been miserable and basically SAD for a really really long time??? This is the opposite of sad idiot! Jealousy? She thinks I'm not going to get enough nutrients or something? That's by far the weirdest reaction Ive gotten so far.

Yup! You heard right! Weight loss surgery. Gastric Bypass to be exact! Am I excited? More than ever. Am I ashamed? Not in the least.
 
If there's anything you should know about me, you should know I can't keep a secret. I can't keep things to myself, especially exciting things. Everyone in my life knows not to tell me anything, because I always end up spilling the beans sooner or later. It always starts out this way. I'll tell one person one thing and then think to myself, well, I already told one person, so why not tell another? One person becomes two, two becomes three, and so on and so forth. This is how it happened over the weekend while traveling by bus to NYC for my first day of graduate classes with my long time classmates. These are girls I've been in the same intense undergrad program with for two years. We're also potential social workers, so they're used to hearing about life transitions and making big decisions, etc. so I kind of felt comfortable with them knowing my "secret". Plus, I figure they're going to be wondering why I'm absent from classes for a week, and wtf is going on with me when I start shedding the weight.
 
So, I told them! I told them all! It kind of just slipped out. I finally got to the NYC campus for my first day of grad classes, and noticed the desks were unbearably tiny (despite paying $30k a year, guys) and decided why panic? This will all be over soon!
I'm proud of my decision to get the surgery. I have nothing to hide. I *have* tried every diet, been successful, unsuccessful, gained, lost, gained, etc. I know myself well enough to know this is something I want and need. Plus, I think by telling people rather than keeping it a secret, it helps to reduce the stigma attached to weight loss surgery and being obese in general.
 
Typical bullshit responses I've gotten so far:

Oh, well, my father's friend's mother's aunt got the surgery, lost a TON of weight, but regained everything back after like...3 years!
Oh, gastric bypass? So you'll never eat again and be on a strict diet for the rest of your life? Oh, I see.
They do WHAT to your stomach??
I hear you're going to spend the rest of your life throwing up...you don't want that
One of my co-workers gained all the weight back and more. She eats McDonalds every day on her lunch break...and gained all the weight back...you don't want that, do you?
You'll never be able to eat pizza again and all that good stuff.
Maybe you should try another diet? I hear the FDA is approving a new weight loss pill this fall!
You know..maybe if you just try exercising you may be able to lose some of the weight
You're going to be needing iron infusions for the REST of your life

 
So I have a few answers for this people...
 
I'm NOT your father's friend's mother's aunt's sister's boyfriend's uncle...I'm ME
Yes, I know what I'm doing
No, you can't change my mind
Yes, I've researched
And YES, I'm ready to begin a new life!