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My decision to get the lap band is one of desperation and am tired of my weight controlling my life. What led to my weight gain? I used to be thin and in love. I lost my love which led to depresssion and hard drug use. Drugs kept me thin but more depressed. A year and a half later I stopped and decided to get my life together but the damage was done. I began to blow up fast. Then i got pregnant had a baby then got pregnant again. I want to lose 60 pounds which might sound like alot to others but this wieght is distroying me. I don't go out because I'm afraid of running in to anyone I used to know when i was thin. all my friends are skinny so seeing then makes me feel worse. I don't have the energy to be the best mom I can be. I don't have the self-esteem to be the best wife i can be. Like others, I'm tired of the yo-yo diet. I'm ready for a new challenge in my life which can hopefully lead to a permanent fullfilling change.