sassygirl1068

Betsy_1990....we should be bariatric buddies for this journey!

Thank you guys so much! It REALLY helps knowing we're not alone on this crazy roller coaster! I can't wait to have the surgery because I think it's the tool I've always needed to permanently get to where I need to be. But knowing have so much time before getting there, I'm afraid I'll have gained 30lbs before I start my pre-op testing and diet in August. I'm not too worried about the pre-op diet as I did and meal replacement plan earlier this year and LOVED it. However, it was very expensive and I just couldn't keep paying $300+/mo for their products. But, I do think gonna use the products pre and post op! They were THAT good!

With having all this "time" before starting, I'm WAY worse than I think I've ever been. The beginning of this year, I managed to lose about 20lbs but I've found those and then some. Even with being pregnant, I believe I'm at my all time high. I don't even want to get on scale. Most of my "fat" clothes are super tight on me or don't fit at all. I know what I need to do but it's like I can't control myself at all. At the same time, I'm so mad at myself and down for not being able to "pull it together." August can't get here soon enough!

My surgery is scheduled for September 1st. It would've been July 14th, but we have a beach trip/family reunion scheduled July 25-August 1. With the 9/1 date, it gives me enough time to have my last couple of appoint nets and do my pre-op diet. My question is this: since my new beginning is still a little ways off, I feel like I am completely out of control when it comes to food. I'm doing my best to change my mindset, but right now, I feel "like the end is near". It doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not, if I'm craving something or not, it's all being consumed. Have any of you ever experienced anything like this?