zenoosh

I'm kinda going head first into this sh*t, but Im getting REALLY excited about it. I've been overweight most of my adult life: lost, gained, lost, gained more....now here I am, heavier than Ive ever been. I went to a concert this weekend, and it one of those shows where people are standing, jumping, waving their hands the entire time....It was the first time I have really felt like my weight is seriously holding me back. I was tired, my feet hurt like hell, and I felt like if I had sat down, people would've been like,"why is this chick sitting?" Because Im f***ing FAT!!! :huh:

I'm 34, and I was widowed in Sept of 2011. Yep, widowed at 33. My husband/longterm partner died in our garden from an accidental overdose of anxiety meds. He was also an alcoholic, but not the kind that goes on drunk rampages and gets in fights. We had been together for 10 years, and Christmas 2011 would have been our anniversary.

It has been a rough time, obviously, but I'm not a dweller. I prefer to just push everything down and deny, deny, deny. Not the best way to deal, but whatevs---that's how I roll.

I have been considering WLS for a few years, but eversince learning about the sleeve, I've been really interested. I always had too much going on and never sat down and researched it, but lately,I've had a bit more time to myself. I never knew how much time and energy I put into our relationship until he was gone.

Now, I've scoured the internet, and thankfully found this site.

Can't wait to see what's next... B)