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Yum, boiled eggs... I love 'em... What makes me so sad about split up families is the fact that the kids have whole other families that they don't even know about sometimes. My mother comes from a large family. 9 sisters and 2 brothers. All of them have kids, my cousins. The two men in the family have had three sets of kids with three different women, each. It makes me sad because I loved those kids and got to know them and then the adults would split up and the ex-wife wouldn't allow our family to see the kids anymore. So out there in this world I have, let's see... 13 cousins that probably don't remember that I exist, and that don't know that I love them, even now. I worry that some of my younger cousins might even date their own cousin because they have no idea who anyone is... I'm sure it's happened to someone the way that famillies are all disconnected nowadays...

Okay Suzie, you can't go to bed without letting us know what the heck you're talking about... I guess 49,498,093,480,911... Was that your number?? he he he... (((Jenn))) take care of yourself... Everyone have a good night...

bye crazy

No, sliming just means that you produce alot of saliva and you can't swallow it because whatever you just ate is stuck. So then your body produces alot of saliva in an effort to lubricate the food and to have it move through on down to your stomach. I've had that happen to me from time to time. It's usually with fluffly bread type stuff. Pancakes are bad bad bad.

oh same here... and the worse part about it is that I don't even try to stay away. I have no will power over it... it puts me in a trance...

i'll give you a HELL yeah when you tell me what that means...

all you had to eat today was taco meat and cheese?? Oh my... i'm a bad bad bandster today... I won't even list what I've eaten so far and it's only 4pm...

YAY for your hubby!! and for you too... cuz anything that's his is yours and anything that's yours is yours...

he he he, i thought the same thing earlier!! We are wacko sometimes though... and we come up with the weirdest topics to discuss...

Roses - if you're looking to drop weight quickly, then don't do as I do... The reason I am ok with my diet is because I am okay with being a slow loser. If you look around at some of the other members that are losing quickly, it's usually because they count calories or are doing low-carb or something similar... And yes, I can drink OJ, no problem...

I just think you're missing Wheet's point... but that's okay...

Carrabas - Mezzaluna (I can eat like three) Outback Steakhouse - Ribeye (about a third of it) A Chinese Restaurant - General Tso with brocoli (about three chunks of chicken) Applebees - never been there macaroni Grill - Shrimp diablo with Pasta (about three shrimp with a few bites of the angel hair pasta) Red Robin - Any of the burgers (I can eat about half with half of one of the buns) Ruby Tuesday - Crabcakes Wendy's - chili McDonalds - fish burger with only one bun Chick F La - small order of chicken nuggets Panera's - Soup Atlanta Bread Company - never been there Subway - tuna salad in a bowl Can you Eat pizza? NY Style - thin crust pizza is fine for me. I have yet to try any pan, or thick style pizza. I can eat about 1 and a half slices, no crust... I'm like Kat, I don't diet. I stay around 1000 calories a day even while eating like a normal person. I have butter on my veggies, full calorie dressing on my salad. I'm not eating huge quantities of food so I like stuff to taste good. This is of course my own way of living and have no desire to change anyones mind about what course of action you should take.

Yes, please Tracy, send your DH my way for a little while... Well, Juan is absolutely the most kind hearted, spiritual man that I've ever known. He never has a bad thing to say about anyone, shares all that God has blessed him with and always has God as the center of his life. He's also my best friend and the one that I can share all my dreams and my fears with. That I am grateful for... he's not really as bad as I make him sound... I just get frustrated and I need to vent...

LAURA! We must, at all times, be modest... Tracy, a few strategically placed squirts of cool whip will do the trick...

Hi Jane!! Bye Jane! We're doing our Easter egg decorating on Friday. We save up the shells of the eggs for months, then fill them with confetti and decorate the outside. The kids go crazy cracking them on Easter. Hope it's warm this year. We've had balmy Easters for years now... I'm wearing a pair of size 18 capris today and they are cutting off my circulation. Ugh, my gut hurts so much... I don't know why I put them on this morning...

Jane, I have shorts that'll fit you. I'll bring them with you and it'll be up to you if you want to wear them. That way you don't have to buy anything you won't ever wear.

TracyKS - can I ask you a favor? Can I email you my insurance benefits package so that you can see if there is even a glimmer of a chance for me to get a tummy tuck? It would be the very simple one of just removing excess skin. I don't want to repair muscle or do a body lift until after I have kids but my gut does get in the way of everything...

Well Lunasa, you'll just have to come to Houston so that you can see me and Juan in action. And yes, he is a bit controlling. BUT, the background on that is that for 10 years of our relashionship I did all the controlling. Until one day he told me that he wasn't going to let me treat him like that anymore. Thank the Lord. I hated feeling like I was the only adult in the relationship...

Morning everyone... Suzie, I hear ya. I see myself in your post. I'm stalling big time but I'm not fooling myself into thinking that I'm doing all the right things and not losing. I KNOW exactly why I'm not losing. I am snacking all the time and not moving enough. Like you, my band accepts anything that I shove down my gullet. Sometimes painfully but it goes down. I think most of us here in our group are honest with ourselves about what challenges we face. Whether it be sweets, ice cream, lack of excercise... For me it's all three! Where is the motivation that I had a year ago? Where is the motivation that I would get when I would see other people losing? Dunno... Glad you posted this though... TracyK - sorry you won't be able to go!! No begging or pleading but we will miss you so much! Off to get my coffee...

I had eggs for dinner. I got home exhausted and didn't feel like cooking anything. I'm gonna go to bed now too. Night all....

Thanks Laura. I do come on here to vent but to also get advice and input. I am the same as you, I read everything but if I don't have any insight I don't comment. I didn't wear any green today!! And I didn't get pinched once!! I'm gonna run home and put on a green pin or something before I go to my mom's because I know my dad will get me if he doesn't see green! Anyone know what I can do for an infected hang nail? It's on my middle index finger and it's a little swollen, red and hot. It hurts like crazy. I've tried trimming it away from the nail but it's really hard to get my clippers all the way down to where it is.

First let me start off by saying how wonderful everyone's signature looks. I need to go find a good picture of me so Laura can make me mine. Also Happy Birthday to Denise and to Jenn. Sorry I missed it girls, hope you had a great time!! Second - yes Juan's family is messed up and I've always known that because of what his parents went through and what he's seen happen in his family that he will be very cautious about marriage. I on the other hand come from a very very loving family and my parents have been together for 32 years and I just always expected to fall into that same pattern. Hasn't quite turned out like that... Thanks for your input girls. It's one thing to turn this around and around in your own head and then to actually get other people's insights. And yes Michelle, I pray for clarity and peace every night. I have put myself in this position and I know that I choose to stay with him. I either have to make a choice to stay and to quit whining about it or to leave him and just start all over. TracyK - I know exactly what you mean. His insecurities do affect me. He makes me feel like I'm not enough. When I know damn well that more than enough for others! You got some unexpected surprises in your life that nudged Charles to make a committment. I hope I get my own surprises too. And not necessarily some that pushe Juan towards marrying me, it might just be the push that I need to finally just leave.

Thanks Trace, and yes, I hope he does realize what he has before it's too late. And no he didn't go with me to granma's. It was just me. I needed time to think about what he was saying. One the one hand I agree with him about us working on our issues. I have alot of issues but I feel like even if I work on myself for the rest of my life I will never be perfect. And I don't want to be perfect! So then that's where we get hung up. I want to get married NOW and start a family NOW even though I am conscious of the fact that we have our hang ups. He wants to wait until God knows when... We love each other and we have been together for so long that it's hard for us to even consider being apart but that's just a major issue with us and we've been going around and around this same thing for years now and I just don't know what to do. Leave him and then what?? Seriously, I know that anyone I talk to about this their first reaction is "leave him". But what if I do, I have to start all over??? I have to dig through piles and piles of men to try to find one that I am compatible with? I love Juan very very much, he loves me too. He spoils me, he listens to me, he is a good partner in every way. So there is my dilemma and what I struggle with.

Hi girls! How's everyone?? Sorry I just left abruptly but I was going through alot of stuff a couple of weeks ago and I literally felt like I couldn't breathe. So I ran away. So mature of me, huh? I ran away to my grandmother's house, like a freaking 6 year old. No wonder things don't work in my life if this is how I handle problems. It started like two weekends ago... with a huge fight with Juan. The problem is that he's all about self help and bettering himself and he's always trying to "help" me. He feels that we shouldn't enter into marriage without us being.... i don't know how to say this... "fixed"?? I don't know how to explain but he feels like we need to work on ourselves and to try to get all the kinks out of our relashionship. I feel like love is enough and that as long as we truly love each other then the sometimes friction that we have we can live with. So anyways, long story short, i ran away from my problems because I was getting so damn frustrated and guess what, your problems are still here when you return! Oh and then my work situation is getting worse too. I am really not happy there and I don't want to just abruptlly quit without knowing what I really really want to do. When I last posted this Pamela asked me what is it that I trully love doing? Well in all honesty the thing that I've been able to come up with is that I like helping people. Whether it be helping them plan a perfect vacation or helping them fill out appropriate paperwork to file for child support, it doesn't matter. I always feel my best after I've helped someone in some way. So anyways, all this came to a head around Wednesday of two weeks ago and since I was already starting my vacation the following Monday I just called in and started a few days early. I packed up my bags and drove down to Mexico. My grandparents were very supportive and I always feel so loved when I'm there. I stayed there until Thursday evening and then drove home. Friday morning my aunts called and said everyone was going camping and we decided to join them. So we packed up my car again and drove over to Columbus, TX and we camped out for a few days. We got back in late last night with three very tired and very muddy little dogs. We all got hot baths and went to bed. I'm so glad to be back, I missed ya'll so much. I've got loads of work to catch up on and loads of Violet reading to do. I'll be back a little later...

Terry - I feel like your body will tell you how far it will go. I put a number on my ticker just so I can use it as a reference. If I get down to 200 and I feel good there and my body feels good there then that's where I'm staying. It's different for everyone and none of us should feel guilty for changing our numbers as we get closer to being satisfied with ourselves. Tracy - that sucks that that dang boil keeps coming back. He's probaly not extracting it thoroughly. Hopefully you get relief soon. Jenn - Hope you start to feel better soon. It won't be fun riding down the river if you're congested, LOL! (((hugs))) Kat - Sorry you're in so much pain!!! Does ice help? I remember my mom putting a pack of frozen peas on my jaw when I had a tooth extraction. Gina! Good to see you! What do you do that you have to travel so much?? I've seriously been thinking of completely changing careers. I haven't been happy doing what I do for about a year now and I figure now is the time to change. I have no kids, I'm not married, not tied down. I just struggle with what I would like to do. I don't know what my passion is. I don't know what direction I should head.... Sigh... yes it's one of those weeks. Introspective, reflective, moody... huge fight with Juan on Monday. I'm off to get my coffee... So glad it's Wednesday...