Haydee

The camera was digital but it was on the freeway. If it didn't get run over by now there really is no chance of us actually getting to it... It was my 16 year old cousin, she cried and cried. Pammy - My aunt (cousins mom) took pics of us with the limo before we left so I'm waiting on her to email those to me! That list of drinks was scary! You sometimes don't even realize what you are sucking down... My weird dream from last night - I was at my high school reunion. Then it was over and they told us to congregate on the front lawn of the school so that we could take a group picture. It was pitch black outside when we start walking across the lawn. All of a sudden I take one more step and I'm in a mud pit. I start sinking very rapidly. Pretty soon I'm up to my chin in mud and then I'm barely able to keep my nose above the mud. Then I wake up. Do you think that has any signifiganse? Did I even come close to spelling signifigance correctly? Probably not...

Morning girls... I have the worst worst headache ever. Ugh. I should have taken today off but had too much to do... Last night was wonderful. And so exciting to see all these famous people. We were not mingling with the A or B or even C crowd, LOL but they were within throwing distance. We didn't sit on the floor of the center but on the first row on side of the floor, which afforded us an incredible view of everyone and of the stage. So many great acts in one show. I'll never be able to top it! Oh, worst part of the night though... We took tons of pics! Of us mostly cuz they didn't let cameras inside. Afterwards we were headed to a late dinner when my cousin decides she wants to hang halfway out the moon roof. Well she had the camera in her hand and for whatever reason the limo had to break hard and swerve and in a panic she let go of the camera as she held on for dear life... Nice... We were so upset... so we drank tons of margies to soothe our pain, lol. It was an incredible night and I felt like such a princess. I never would have wanted to go to something like this when I was bigger so I'm so thankful for the band and for your support on here that got me to where I am now. I felt so NORMAL and so pretty in my long gown. Didn't give a rat's ass about my bat wings showing! Okay, i'm off to get my morning cup of joe so I can try to wake up from this fog I'm in.

Sorry pammy, been busy all day today since I'm leaving early... Leaving in 15 min so I can go get beautified for tonight. Limo picking us up at 5pm! Off to the ball..... Love ya violets!

bovine syndrome - is that really for real. i think your mom must be pulling your chain...

About spending... We grew up poor. Both my parents worked two jobs to make sure we had basic necessities. But they were HARD workers and they got nice promotions when I started hitting my teens. From then on we were pretty spoiled. You know, giving us everything that they couldn't affort to when we were small. Anyhoo... my parents are wealthy, I am not even close. BUT, I got accustomed to the lifestyle my parents gave to me. So yes, I buy buy buy without regard to price and then usually find myself scrambling to pay the bills. Not good. Juan is very very conservative about our spending and if it wasn't for him I swear I'd be living out on the streets (or in my parents nice cushy house, lol) so yes Pam, I feel your pain. I shop and eat when I'm stressed. Instead I'd like to clean and excersise. How can I switch my brain?

oh yeah, sorry 'bout that... LOL.... we had waaaayyy too much energy that early in the morning...

Hi girlies!! Busy day over here... Michelle - I avoid the news now... I am this close to getting on anti-anxiety medication because I feel like my world is collapsing all around me... BUT then I come here with ya'll and know that I have the things that truly matter... wonderful supporting friends! I love you girls! Leaving early for a dentist appointment today. Make good choices tonight for dinner!!! kisses...Haydee

Didn't ever check to see if there is a pool or hot tub where we are going this next time. Does anyone know?

KAT!! good to have you home...

Sunshine, I can't throw up either. Only dry heave like you. A couple of weeks ago I also had too much to drink and I dry heaved all night. I would have felt so much better if I had just thrown up and gotten it over with but I couldn't. Ever since I got the band I've never been able to... Suzie - WOW and 04 and it's only got 45000 miles on it and already giving you trouble? That sucks... Mine is an 05 and it's got about 80000 miles on it and it's beginning to give me some problems. Hope you figure out what's wrong with it before throwing too much money at it...

Morning girls! Tracyks - you are not getting fat!! It's in your head. You look just as beautiful as ever... Michelle - If I don't come back on Friday it means I've run off to the bahamas with whomever I was sitting next to... I don't now if they're televising them? I'm gonna make damn sure that I wave to any camera pointed at me though! We are all excited, but I haven't found a dress yet... Ugh. My mom found this floor lenght, flowy chiffon number. I think she thinks she's Gloria Estefan or something. And my dad is wearing his tux. I don't think we're going that fancy... we'll leave that for the seniors...LOL TracyK - I'm not loving this weather. We're doing this huge promotion here in Houston today for Veteran's Day and this rain has ruined our plans. BAD PAM - did you buy me some?? :laugh:

wait, she's been on BC this whole time??

I'm off to lunch! I'm gonna go to the grocery store and buy cottage cheese and some other healthy stuff. Back to square one. Cottage cheese and fresh fruit for breakfast...

our resident flying monkey! aww too cute that we have our own...

I know! I couldn't believe it. And she didn't look like she had ever ever been overweight. She was just so thin and tan. I almost called her a skinny bitch when she was complaining of the SIZE 6 dress being too tight on her, but then I realized I wasn't with my VIOLETS and that language might not fly with just anybody, LOL...

maybe that's what I need? Something cute that grabs my attention? Oh who am I kidding. I'll end up being a cute dust collector on my nightstand...

TracyKS - oh and i wasn't done with you... You know what is best for your child. You have no doubt wrestled with this in your head since Robby first starting showing symptoms of this. You are not taking this decision lightly so don't let Charles make you feel like a bad mother. If Terry were on here she would be able to tell you much better than I can about the weight of this decision. I think she struggled with her son and had to put him on medication. I obviously have no knowledge of what you're going through but can only help you in the aspect of you being an awesome mom that only wants the best for her son. We're all here to support you through this Trace....

oh the shame comes through in the small font pammy

i know! I wish I could do that. Wishing is a part of my life though, LOL. My therapist said that journals are very important. That I needed to write in it every day. Why oh why do I pay hundreds and hundreds of dollars for people to give me good advice and then I walk out the door and I don't do it? Can someone just beat me now?

AMEN! easier said than done though. I struggle with that with Juan too. He keeps wanting to feed me sweets. They make me happy and mellow... But then I feel miserable afterwards... Ugh. Men.

TracyKS - Sorry that Charles isn't being supportive. That really really bites that he's putting this on your shoulders instead of being your partner and trying to figure this out together. That's not the way it's supposed to be...

Morning girls!! Tracy - thanks for my facebook msg. I did make time for ME this weekend but that involved stuffing my face! Not good... Girls, let me tell ya'll about an experience I had this weekend... I went to a dress rental shop on Saturday afternoon. I need a dress to wear to the Latin Grammy's on Thursday (so excited, we'll be sitting with the stars!!!), anyhoo. I was going through and asking the owner that was helping me if they have dresses in my size, blah blah blah. A lady comes out of her dressing room and asks me to help her zip up. She's got on these gorgeous floor length, strapless mermaid gown. It's fairly tight on her but I manage to zip her. She's in her late thirties, fairly slender, about a size 6. She looks in the mirror and then says the dress isn't going to work because her PORT shows. My head just did a 180, wha?? A port? Yep, she was banded a year ago. Went from a size 22-24 to a size 6-8. She went from 240 to 126. So then I had to sit down with her and talk to her. To ask her how she did it, blah blah blah. Well, it's what we've known all along. She drinks lots and lots of water. More than 120 oz. She excersises 3-4 times a week. She keeps a food journal. Even now that she's just maintaining, she says that the food journal is a must. I know that when I was doing even just the water intake and the food journal that I was steadily losing... Well I shared this with ya'll because she really inspired me to get back on track. To start tracking what goes in my mouth, good and bad!

party pooper... LOL, just kidding. Me and Juan go through the same thing every year. We always struggle about whose house to go to... Luckily for us our parents live fairly close by. About a 15 min drive away. So we always start at my family's and end up at his. Sucks for him cuz we always eat with my family but then it sucks for me cuz when the party really gets going we have to leave for his family. We each give up a little bit but better than the nothing...

You girls are silly!

you're staying at your sister's right? HAVE FUN!