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and really, it seems like you're getting a lot in - i'm lucky if I can get through 2 bottles of water, a cup of jello and half a mug of tea in a whole day! Maybe your surgeon made you a bigger tummy than mine! I can't get anything more than that in yet.

I was sleeved Thursday and haven't been hungry at all. I'm also on clear liquid diet for a week (no shakes yet), so maybe that's why? ^shrug*

I'm still on clears, but I was getting cramps just on JELLO today, so maybe you need to chew more, slow down and take smaller bites? Your lil tummy isn't used to digesting, after all...

no, but I was thinking the same thing!! people do say they have groundbeef w taco seasoning once they get to that stage, so I don't see why not! I'd love a chicken taco!

I lost my motivation plenty. I had insurance issues from the start, so when surgery finally happened, I almost expected something to change at the last minute! I'm only 5 days post op, but I feel better everyday. The actual surgery isn't that terrible and recovery is just a week or two of discomfort and inconvenience compared to my whole life ahead of me at a healthier weight with a happier outlook on life! Hang in there- doubt is normal, anxiety is normal - but if you know you can't tackle your weight on your own, then it's better to get through the process and start healing asap! Good luck!

You're the only one who can control what you're eating... agree with the previous poster that you need to track everything you're eating and also avoid slider foods. What are you snacking on? If you're eating poorly or lots of carbs/sugar, that's going to leave you feeling hungry, no matter what you eat. You could also have reflux, as suggested, but it sounds to me like you've just lost control with the constant snacking/bingeing. Start tracking your food, make healthier choices and this could also resolve the hunger pangs and the reflux (if you have it). Schedule an appointment with your NUT, and consider doing the back to basics routine of going back on shakes for a week. Retrain yourself! Good luck!

I would start with youtube. look up "yoga for beginners" and there are plenty of videos. That way you can get some basics down before plunking down the cash for a class!

I'm 5 days post op and feel like I'm turning a corner... feeling better everyday! I'm glad you're seeing the positive changes through your whole family, you're definitely setting your kids up to make responsible, healthy choices for their whole life!

Oh! Well, best of luck to you. It's important that you feel comfortable with your surgeon. I didn't like the first one I saw AT ALL and ended up getting a 2nd opinion which set me back a few months. Totally worth it for me, I'm glad I saw my surgeon when I was post-op because his bedside manner was great and he made me feel like he cared! So write down a bunch of questions so you don't forget anything and really feel the surgeon out. They should want to help you as much as possible and put you at ease!

What are you doing tomorrow? *confused*

congrats!! you look great (love those shoes!)

Those are all the right things to do to prep for post-op life. Many people want to rush the process along (I was one of those people!) but it really does help to focus on your habits NOW, to get into the habit of having smaller portions and cutting out the things you won't be indulging in for a while post-op. It requires effort - the adjustment after surgery is still a challenge for me, and I did all the same things you're describing! I don't feel hungry, but it is weird to be sitting here for 20m with the same Jello cup and only be about 1/4 of the way through it! I NEVER CHEWED JELLO BEFORE! lol Time will fly - take the time now to get your finances in order, get your diet in order, start exercising and don't forget to give yourself a meal or two where you can enjoy your favorites before they are out of your life for a while. My fav thing pre-op were gyros and it will probably be months before I can tolerate meat again, and even then it will be one or two bites and that's it! I'm looking forward to it - but I made sure to have a couple pre-op, but only once every other month or so. Everything in moderation is my mantra! Good luck to you!!

I expect this to be a challenge for me as well. When I was much younger and could shop at Lane Bryant, I also live w my parents back then and had more expendable income to afford whatever I wanted! My plan is to shop sales as much as possible. NEVER trust what you see in the mirror, take pictures, take a friend, at first I don't want to shop alone! Forever 21 has plus sized clothes that are pretty and inexpensive, so do Old Navy, JC Penney and Kohl's. I'm very high BMI so I actually look forward to buying plus size clothes (sad, huh?). Shop sales and sign up for their email offers. Buying a look off a mannequin isn't a bad idea, either. I know for myself that my wardrobe has been very limited because of my size and lack of options, so I'm sure once I can build it up, it will be easier to coordinate a "look" for myself. Good luck!

chewing something and spitting it out is an eating disorder as well... it's something anorexics and bulimics do. I don't think that should be the solution, you're just finding a way to give into your eating addiction... just my 2 cents

4 days post op today. I'm doing better overall, but I'm having pain in my belly button that's more like a burning pain and very uncomfortable. Yesterday, I came home from my parents house, and I cried the entire way home. Why? I have no idea. I was nervous to be alone, yes, but there was something else behind the tears - a lump in my throat that wouldn't stop... I think I'm just reaching my limit to keep a smile on my face through all the pain and discomfort that post-op brings. And to top it off, I've GAINED 2lbs since surgery. WTF?! And I'm not talking about surgical gasses or fluids - I weigh 2 lbs more than the day I left the hospital, and it's devastating. I was an emotional wreck this morning when I stepped on the scale because I can't help think WHY did I do this to myself? WHY am I going through all of this just to GAIN WEIGHT!??!?! I can handle being a "slow loser" if that's what I have to be, but I'll be damned if I have the strength to go through all this and know I'm not losing a F--king ounce. I'm angry, and sad, and frustrated... I feel like a fool thinking this surgery was gonna help me at all. I'm just hoping this is a low point and I'll be back on track soon enough... I can't believe this is happening. I didn't cheat on my pre-op diet. I lost 18lbs in one week, then was taken off my bp meds and Water weight crept back on prior to surgery, so I already felt horrible. And then I put on another 7lbs from surgery and now another 2 since I've been discharged... I can't handle this. I am not emotionally prepared for failure. And it hurts my tender belly to cry. :*(

thanks for the encouragement. I'm gonna focus on recovering for now. I didn't anticipate the pain to last this long - it's making it very hard for me to get up and walk like I'm supposed to... and I'm constantly tired... just wanna feel good again.

Much better today!

It was scary learning that someone died... my parents were in the waiting room and my surgery had already gone over the "one and a half hours" quote my surgeon gave them. I was about 3 hours in surgery (not sure why, surgeon said everything went well), and while my parents were waiting for news, they had to witness this family hearing the worst and dealing with the shock and surprise of it. Very overwhelming. I felt guilty because all I could think was "Thank god it wasn't me" ... I think lots of pre-op'ers focus on the weight loss aspect ONLY, and while that is the desired goal of having this surgery, you simply MUST consider all the alternatives. As someone who had gall bladder surgery at a weight this high with no complications and who has never had heart problems, I did NOT anticipate that I would have bradycardia and hypotension after surgery, even with pre-op clearance, you just can't predict how your body will handle surgery. It's a life changer, and not always for the better! I am fortunate, my bp and heart rate went back to normal 2nd day post op. I'm so grateful for that!! I hope it all stays normal!

Surgery was 12 hrs ago. Just got out of bed for 1st time - ow!!! Morphine is my friend tonight!

Came home yesterday! Feeling soooo much better this morning. Ended up staying 2 nights in hospital because of my low heart rate, but things improved. Took my first shower since surgery and feel more like a human now!

I completely agree that calling this a tool is oversimplifying the surgery. But if you don't call it that, people tend to think this is a miracle surgery that requires no effort on their part. It is a major surgery, one that could kill you. I had my surgery on Thursday and one of the other patients died on the table. My heart rate slowed to 40 with my bp being 80/40. I'm thankful I made it through, but it could have just as easily been that my heart stopped. I didn't consider these possibilities too much when I was pre-op! Now I'm just thankful to be alive and that every day is getting better. But yes, there are many risk factors involved with this, few of which were discussed. Patients want to lose weight, surgeons want to make money, and while they try to minimize complications, the fact is that fat people are very, very risky surgical patients. I'm glad to be one of the lucky ones.