Daisalana

For her body? :crying:

Funny, it's 80's here.. too hot for this time of year.

*scrambles*

Looks like a mess now Jennifur, but renovations are sooo nice, it's good you're taking B&A pics. I've always wanted to buy an old house and completely renovate it... doubt we'll ever do it, but I love seeing B&A of houses. And I LOL'd about your friend. I'm not going in being brave, I plan to get doped up as soon as they allow it. You won't believe the comment Russell made today.. Childbirth doesn't hurt, because the worst of it is numbed when you get the epideral. Hah.. heh.. men. Oh and Tracy, time for glasses?? And one last thing, tonight is my last cigarette. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow, I'm already getting a kit together of ways to occupy my hands and mouth. I need all the V power!!

She found the heartbeat under pannis (ugh) and into my pubs.. I think I'm deformed from deflation. I asked her where the baby is so I would know--been wondering.. She put my hand there, it's like.. definitely down in my pubic area. She said it'll move up, which is what you're probably talking about. I did buy some stupid $35 thing, baby's first sounds.. it's not dopplar, it's just.. battery operated toy looking thing that at apparently 20 weeks (though when I bought it, it did not say how long you have to wait).. and reviews say it doesn't work, but.. whatever, it's $35 and I'm curious. When are you going back to find out the sex?? I thought it was suppose to happen already...

:crying::crying::thumbup::crying: I want thumps!! They did the heartbeat this morning at my appt. it's at 160/m. She took a while finding it, so I was nervous, then she found it and I made some comment and laughed--so she lost it. Then she had a hard time finding it again, and she was saying he's playing peekaboo (and I thought about your baby hiding its gender hehe). Then she found it again and it was nice and loud and steady..weee. I would normally say at 3 months, I would have been happy and settled about the idea, what haunts me is one of my friends miscarrying into the 5th month last year. She took pics with it, it was a little baby and everything.. her cervix was uhm..forget the technical term, but her cervix wouldn't hold up. Then she was hysterical and blaming the docs for not getting to the ER in time and yadda yadda. I was there for her, and felt horrible.. but now that I'm pregnant, I think back on my friends miscarriages in the past 2 years, when it happened, why, what they went through. They were all so devastated, mentally unstabalized by it. So I feel if I don't get that attached, if it happens to me, I will survive. I told my doc about that today at my exam, she said when I feel it moving I won't help but be attached. So.. I want thumping!! :w00t:

More room to birth babies with :crying: My PT made a comment about my height, he said something about tall women don't show as much. Wah?

If it's any consolation, I decided I was going to do this, with or without support from my family or husband. I couldn't walk anymore and I felt 90 years old. My parents (surprisingly, because they shot down RnY a few years ago and I expected this to go over the same) were supportive. I told my husband in bed one night, that I was going to do this, and would like his support, but obviously I want to know his thoughts on it. He said, if that's what I want to do, "but, you could do it on your own". I couldn't, I'd tried. I have such crap will power, I can't keep to a diet long enough, and when I fall off, I fall hard and gain it all back. So I was beyond that point. Sometimes it's hard to understand. My husband has gained 60lbs over the past couple years, and tried doing Atkins a couple months ago. First time dieting in his life, as he has always been normal weight. Well.. he went in saying 'It's just will power, no big deal'. He fell off the band wagon at every chance he could (he'd find excuses). And now he's not dieting, and still not losing that 60lb. So now I think maybe he understands a little more, but when he was a normal sized guy, he did not understand at all. So it has to be about YOU and what YOU want. There's plenty of support on this forum for anyone who feels they are alone.. you're not, we're here )

Ok you guys post too much over the weekends!! I rarely have time for the computer on weekends... All I read (just a minute ago) is cobber, as COBBLER (Me too LJM!!), and how weird that you guys read my mind because Saturday I MADE A CHERRY COBBLER!! Hahaha.. anything between that page and now is like goo, I can't play catch up. Went to my doc today, she said I've gained 2lbs more than she would 'like'. Woops.. it's the cobbler!! Or my shoes, I normally wear flip flops there, this time I wore big clunky tennis shoes. Yeah, the shoes. Glad my fill is next week!! I need it so my doc doesn't fuss about me gaining too many pounds than her schedule allows.

LOL. My dad & his mom (my gma) keep trying to touch my belly. Very annoying right now, they're just trying to touch my fat rolls!!!! I am anxious for Dec. to find out if it's a boy or girl. Russell pled his case during lunch for me to wait till April to find out, which started the whole delivery room conversation. I am NOT waiting, I want to know today! I told him, I'm respecting his decision not to know, let me have my decision.

Yeah, I don't want a party in there. And I agree Pam (And so does Russell), he does NOT want to see the vajaja going through anything traumatic hah hah. I probably won't want to watch either really, I've seen many child birth shows and stuff and it looks pretty intense.. not sure I could handle seeing my vajaja doing all that. Tracy you mentioned seeing my bump, I took this pic today cause on a pregnancy thread we were talking about who is showing. So I am 12 weeks this week (2 more days I think), and here is my NON bump. Because I have some lumps, I had to show the before pic.. its 30lbs ago, but I have this ledge that forms on my midline from flabby loose skin, and then my panis which I tuck into my pants. But you can see the only thing showing I have is the ledge up top which I had anyway.. the only difference I can FEEL is my panis is harder, which makes it harder to tuck into my pants, thus I am uncomfortable.

Here's my now belly. Since it looks like maybe I had a belly, had to show my last non-preg belly pic I took, I have lost about 30lbs since that pic, but the way I am deflating, I always have this 'ledge' on my mid-belly that hangs, and then the pannis. So in my not-pregnant-looking-belly any sort of hump is actually just my flabby rolls. My flab rolls are just getting harder on the bottom, thus the pants not fitting well.

Baby Gaga: Pregnancy & Parenting Social Network & Resources This is the website I look at.. careful with entering your due date and 'learn all about your pregnancy' , it never takes me to the right week. Whatever week it takes you to, go back or forward to your week.. then it says what your baby is doing, what you're doing.. and on the left hand side it shows a 'week whatever model' and if you click on that person it has a bunch of people in that week you can look at. Huge ranges every week, some people definitely look preg, some people just look overweight and slouching (which I can do) which makes you look preg, and some people look like me.. no signs of pregnancy at all! Here's some from my week (11) (Someone made this comment-- this is what i look like and im 11 weeks today! but i heard you get bigger faster with your second child and this is my second one. And im deffinatly bigger then i was with my son! i didnt show till i was like 6 months with him!) Here's some week 8 models---

Well that's what my mom said, she doesn't think everyone should be in there because it's important for the bonding.. she said with my uncle when EVERYONE was in there, he's a shy guy so he was off to the side while everyone else was holding the baby, etc. She said if I did allow her in the room, she did not want to be participating, she wanted to be in the corner just to see it. I still don't see his mom actually wanting to be in there, but Russell doesn't think it's fair that my mom can be and his can't. Blah. Oh and the cream cheese splenda thing, I always found the brown sugar splenda to be best in it.. tastes like icing..

It's because it is your second pregnancy. The website I get info every week on my pregnancy from, they have 'models' for that week.. and some girls looked 6 months pregnant at only 6 or 7 weeks!! Then I found out, if you've already had a kid you're more likely to have a bigger belly really quick.. I'm guessing because your uterus has stretched out before, or something. I originally thought due to the loose skin, but I have tons of loose skin from weight loss and at 3 months you would not know I am pregnant if I didn't tell you. I wish my belly would show up, my clothes don't fit comfortably but I do not look pregnant, just frumpy. I want to wear maternity but I can imagine the eye rolls when I'm walking around in maternity clothes with no iota of a bump. heh.

Wow I didn't know you had a 16 year old already!! That'll be fun I have a friend who just had a daughter graduate college, they got pregnant with their son right when she was graduating high school. Their 2nd kid is like the perfect kid, it's amazing. He doesn't cry, he doesn't fight, and he never has to be told twice. I don't know why but I always thought it had to do with him having a much older sister.

They said Csection will be dangerous due to my out of place kidney, so they said they don't want that to be an option, and then told me don't gain a lot of weight.. if I get fat, baby gets fat and harder to do vaginal.. so I'm talking hypothetically about vaginal. I do NOT want it recorded.. His mom is a quiet shy type, I don't think she'd want responsibility. Again, I don't think she'd WANT to be in the room, but now I wonder if I'm obligated to extend the invitation..and what if I do and she feels obligated to go because I asked.. mom said I need to uninvite her in the room, so there's no rift if there's going to be a problem. I sell gold on Ebay actually.. if it's gold coins.. whenever I've sold gold coins, I do better on Ebay because if you go through gold dealers, they tack on a fee (8-10% I think) and Ebay only has the $4 listing fee and people buy gold on there a lot. As for jewelry, there should be somewhere in town for you that melds gold and buys it that way.

When I did atkins, I mixed splenda in cream cheese.. makes like a cheesecakeish.. kind of.. sweet mix. (EDIT: I like to add red grapes and/or walnut pieces to it.. NUM NUM) I need info from you g'mas!! I'm not sure protocol and my mom isn't either. Well first, just got back from obgyn, baby is happy & healthy ) 160 beats per minute, all my blood work looks good, I don't have any STDS (not surprised, but heh), and found out my blood type! She said I did have more protein in my urine than I should, but told me she's not worried about it. Just because I took that horrible anatomy class, I know that means the kidneys aren't working properly.. but if she's not worried about it, I guess I won't be either. She also said I gained 2lb more than she wants me to have.. oops.. so at lunch I had salmon & broccoli.. hehehe. Anyway, Russ and I went to lunch, talked about the birthing part.. my mom wants to be in the room, which I am fine with. He said his mom will probably come down for the birth, and I said absolutely I expected her to.. then he says, well she may be busy with show season blah blah..and I said ok, then she is invited, but I did expect her to come (he was asking me like, can we invite his mom down heh). Then he got into, if my mom can come in during the delivery, his mom should be able to too. This is a weird concept to me, I don't think she would WANT to, much less be there.. We are trying to think of people we know who gave birth recently and what protocol is.. my mom wasn't in the room with my niece when she was born, but she said it's because they weren't married and they were in the process of breaking up during labor so it was just akward.. otherwise, she doesn't know if she'd have been in there. My cousin when he was born, ALL the family (in laws, sisters, cousins, etc) of them were in there. Just seems odd to me. I only said my mom could, because she asked to be there and she's my mom. But his mom, I can't imagine her wanting to be in there... were any of you in the room when your daughter was having a kid? What about daughter in law?? Ohhh Kat I miss the balloon festival, when we lived there it covered the entire sky for a week.. driving around town, going to work, etc.. was really cool!

Any of you watch it tonight? Gabby & her kids are fat.. I watched it with my mom, and I felt so akward. I wanted to make comments about how the daughter ate half a sheet cake, and she's suppose to be 4, etc. I was that kid, so I was mixed with emberassment, and was wondering what my mom was thinking, so it was just akward all around. Like her trying on the princess costume-- that was me. My mom had to hand make my clothes, and alter clothes we'd find in the store so I could 'fit in'. Just made me cringe. Then I thought, these girls really are this fat.. in real life. What are their parents doing about it?? But, what did my mom do about it? :biggrin:

I felt like that for about a second. I was approx. 30lbs from goal.. and was moving steady right along.. I am back to 220lb and have been bouncing between 218-220 for weeks now.. for literally a minute I dwelled on it.. then I let it go, the band will be there after the baby We can do it on the other end!

Aww congrats Terry, it's always so fun to bring home a new pet!! Don't have much else to say...my arms ache, keeps feeling like I dislocate them. I'm in sad shape, hah.

Tracy is officially a skinny minny!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOO PAM!!!!! I know your pain, I was up working on stupid school shit the night before we were leaving for Jamaica.. Today is family cookout, I am taking fresh asparagus.. I like to roast it in the oven w/ olive oil, garlic salt & papper.. until it's burnt and crispy and it's like eating seasoned french fries.. one of my favs. Revamping my store in SecondLife.. my friend built me a new store, and I'm working on ideas for the interior.. thinking of making it like a mix of The Gap & Frederick's of Hollywood lol.

((Haydee & Tracy)) OMG Denise, he is so cute. Yes, I am anxious to see if my kid has blueee eyes or browwwn haaairr.. hehehehehee. Russell has brown eyes, but he has a blue gene since his parents have blue eyes (he's a freak of nature to have brown).. and I have all blue eyes, so it's 50/50.. And Russell's dad called yesterday and wanted to talk to ME (I've never talked to him on the phone), and he's like 'So you going to give me a little girl???'. Apparently he's more excited than his mom is, which blows me away. I told him I'm doing my best hah. Then Russell said "We'll know in April" and I yelled "*I* will know in December, and I will let your parents know." Russell doesn't want to know, so he'll be the only one surprised come April. Congratulations Tracy on 209!! I hit 220 a couple weeks ago, and I'm not budging from it--either way, so I take it as a good thing. Trying not to obsess about my weight right now, but I am getting a slight fill on Oct. 15. I meant to tell you Terry, I went and looked at your jewelry yesterday, I love the oxidized look. I would totally buy some of that if I wasn't allergic to that stuff. Looks very trendy! Because of looking at that (I am guessing) I had a dream I was looking at jewelry that was made out of rare coins that had been oxidized (as the pendant).

Just wanted to pass it along, I ordered from there (first time ever obviously) because they are having a sale.. I guessed I was an XL, but their sizes seem to run a bit big.. Anyway found some really cute shirts & a cardigan for the winter.. all for great prices. They came today, and though I'm not showing they're great for now & later. They're just longer shirts than normal, and I'm tall so it works out. I did buy some summer super sale ones, since I'll be really pregnant by time it gets warm next year.. some tank tops & one that says "Kicking 24/7" hehe. This is my first experience with maternity shirts, so I wanted to support the company I bought from since I liked the price for what I got.. Motherhood Maternity: Hot fashion, low prices!

I just don't want my hooha hurt. To hell with feelings.