Daisalana

Woops I never came back in to announce it I don't think.. I hit twoterville the beginning of this month. And haven't budged since.. argh! But still, I made it to twoterville

Just wanted to throw in there, seems like a lot of us (Except Judy, she's just whizzing past us) have been yo-yoing this month. I think it's just that part of the cycle, we're waiting for good restriction... and from the anxiety of 'waiting for this to work' we get overwhelmed and discouraged that we're not 'there yet'. If it makes you feel better to vent, do so.. but don't lose hope! We're all in this boat together.. don't rock the boat!

My first B&A I feel like sharing with people outside of the violets lol.

Wow your BMI has to be 50??? That's pretty high.. It's 40 for my insurance (if they covered it on my policy). OR 35 with 2 co-morbities.

Grrr! Why won't the forum let me stay logged in anymore.. Morning! Ok yesterday at the dentist, I was on nitrous gas stuff for 3 hours.. first hour, I got a 1 hour break..had a banana for b'fast, so I went home to get a snack to tie me over.. well I was running late, ended up moving the last of our stuff from old house, so I got 1 bite of a 100 calorie pack before going back.. then it was under the gas for 2 more hours.. I GOT SICK! First time in my life.. Was very weird, got nauseated while they were working.. but other then that I survived.. they decided they can't cap my back tooth because my jaw is small in the back and there's no way to get it around the tooth.. so they did a filling in 2 teeth.. said I had 1 more they were going to do but I got sick so they making me come back after the honeymoon. Took advil when I got home and I feel great today. 5 days till 2nd fill!! Mom made another comment last night, she's really discouraging me. They always have cake at their house, from our Sunday cook outs.. and I have horrible will power. I had my 100 calorie shorties cookie pack I brought with me (we were going to watch a movie), I saw the cake and I said "Why do you ALWAYS have cake!!".. I said it in disgust, because I wanted it, but I was having to tell myself no.. I kept walking past it.. then she said 'You don't need cake' and I said "I know, and I'm not getting any, but you always have cake and it always makes me want it'. So then we're going into the living room to watch tv and she says "You worry me with how much you eat". SIGH.. I DON'T have restriction. What does she want from me.. I kept telling her, I have to get filled.. I got filled, now she doesn't get I'm not to my 'sweet spot' yet. So until I get to my sweetspot I'm going to have my mom behind me checking out how much I eat everytime I'm around her. Everytime I make my plate at the cook out-granted I do get more than I can eat, but I don't know what I want to eat till I sit down so I get a little of everything then pick at it.. but she says "You can eat all of that??".. and EVERY week I say "Doubt it". Jenn- Good luck with getting a good job!! Have you checked out monster.com??

Well, for several reasons I need my parents approval when I do things. I've got that kind of personality. Sometimes I do things against their approval, but I have a lot less anxiety in life knowing they support me.. so it was important they were on board with me. I didn't know about lap-band. I wanted RNY.. 3 years ago or so. They said they were completely against it, just diet, etc. So I did.. I lost weight.. gained it back.. then this past December, after gaining another 60lbs on top of my highest weight.. I decided I was getting RNY with or without their support. I was doing research to get information put together to convince them this is what I needed to do. That's when I found lap-band. So instead, I presented them all the lap-band info.. before I could show them anything.. I had to take a deep breath and explain.. I was doing this.. and my mom had seen a Dateline on the lap-band the week before I came to her, so the 'fight' never happened. She said she thinks it's a great idea, they support me. I asked if I could get a loan from them to pay for it (my insurance won't cover it), and they said they would pay for it without it being a loan. So that was that. I'm sure if she hadn't seen Dateline, it would be a relapse of the RNY thing.. how I shouldn't do it, it's unhealthy, I'll get sickly, etc. Maybe your parents just need the educating! Get information on it, show them how it's reversible if it ever needed to be, it's adjustable to fit your lifestyle, etc. Show them the death rate, and complications statistics. It's a no brainer when you get to the nitty gritty. Compared to RNY, where the statistics are scary.. but being the overweight party you're willing to risk it.. even when family is not.

About the seat belts..Up to about 290lbs, I was able to squeeze the belt closed under my big belly roll lol. When I was 300+, it didn't fit anymore.. I always fly with my purse, so I would make them look linked and put my purse over the buckle, so the attendants didn't fuss at me to buckle up.. then once we took off, I would let it go. I couldn't ask for an extension!

I stay away from beers/sodas not only cause of carbonation (and doc said so), but all the calories in beer and soda.. eek. Suppose to avoid all the liquid calories, and 1 beer or 1 soda is double+ the calories I should have in 1 snack.

I've heard people mention putting rolled quarters in your pockets/shoes..and wearing heavy shoes. I am always weighed without shoes, so depends on your doctor. What a silly requirement!

It's true that food tastes change.. I didn't believe that would really happen.. I am an extremely picky eater as well.. and I'm finding more and more lately (even without restriction right now), there's a lot of foods that just taste bad to me now.. some of my favorite foods! I don't get it, I don't see the link.. but it happens.. and I have developed a like for food I didn't like before.. particularly bananas.. I could take them or leave them pre-op.. now it's my favorite snack, and I find myself craving them a lot.

First class has become my new rule for flying.. About 1.5 years ago we flew to Vegas from new Mexico.. it was only like a 1 hour flight, but we were in the economy class.. I was middle seat (no idea how that happened, since I'm tall I always make sure to get an aisle so I can stretch my legs out).. But anyway, I actually had to APOLOGIZE to both people on each side of me, because my side fat was overflowing onto the seat handles. I was having to cross my arms and suck myself in the entire time..and still was imposing on the other people. It was so horrible. A year before this, I HAD flown first class, and it was wonderful.. extra wide seats, large arm handles, and I wasn't sharing my arm handle with anyone. So.. since the time when I had to apologize to the people beside me, I WILL NOT fly unless I can fly first class. It is worth it. Flying to Vegas next week, first class. On the other hand, I can't wait for the day I can fit into one of those normal seats.. aisle of course, for the legs!

Good morning! I'm here :clap2: Well, we moved in Saturday&Sunday.. :faint: They haven't finished our fence, they have the wrong hardware in both bathrooms, they cemented all under the flower beds (so plants won't root!), the shower head in mather bath sprays everywhere (they have to put plumber's tape).. I think that's it.. Lots of stuff they have to do.. The fence guy told me yesterday he will have it finished by noon today.. but, they left the spot for a gate on Friday.. and we went out today, he left another spot for a gate (2 different companies are doing it, it ended up getting subcontracted out). So we were hoping to see him this morning before we left for work to make sure he realized they already made a spot for the gate.. no luck. I go to the dentist today for cleaning & root canal :help: We had our internet hooked up yesterday but I was busy unpacking and didn't have a chance to get on the computer. Living room is unpacked and set up.. we went by la-z-boy and bought our very first ever set of recliners! They are the same micro-suede material as our couches, our couches are green, but the recliners are beige.. oversized for my comfort They aren't delivering them until we get back from the honeymoon. The scales have been packed up for 5 days now.. so no weighing.. it makes me nervous. I'm afraid I'll go to get my 2nd fill on July 2nd, and be the exact same weight I was on June 5th.. how sad is that?! When I was getting dressed this morning, I don't know what the difference was, but looking at myself in the mirror in underwear I looked like I'd lost more weight.. Maybe I have? Clothes aren't fitting any looser and I still haven't gone down a size.. Our dog has her own 'room' everywhere we've lived.. We get 3 bedrooms.. our bedroom, computer room, and dog's room. We keep a big crate in there for bedtime, she sleeps in there (she's a boxer).. fiance has always begged me to let her sleep in the room with us.. so this weekend while moving, he asked if we could put her crate in the bedroom. I said NO! He was moping about it, so I finally said.. put her big pillow in the bedroom, and she can sleep on the floor in there.. we'll see how that goes (I do NOT want her on the bed). Well, it went fine! She went to sleep and didn't get on the bed all night. When I woke up this morning, she was sleeping on her pillow.. So it looks like the dog is now officially going to be sleeping in our room. I picked up my wedding dress and my sister's maid of honor dress yesterday too.. gosh.. try taking 2 big full dresses, with trains and everything in a tiny convertible...and trying not to get wrinkles on it As soon as I got home I had to run in the house to hang them up and attempt to smooth out any wrinkles. I'm getting my haircut Thursday by the lady who is the only person I've ever let do my eyebrows.. she said if I'd let her cut my hair, I'd feel the same way about my haircuts.. so I told her I'd give her a try, but she has to remember I'm getting married next weekend!!!!!:whoo: Busy-ness isn't over just yet. We go to Vegas in 9 days! Married in 11! I haven't had a chance to catch up on posts yet, I will do that after I post this. Hope everyone's doing better than I am with the weight loss!

I was scared to try my first popcorn, so I passed on it when we went to a movie a week or so ago.. then fiance went to movie with my dad a couple days later, so I asked him to bring me home a small popcorn. I wanted to see if I could eat it in the comfort of my home.. Since I have had very few problems with ANY foods so far.. not surprisingly I had no problem with it.

Ooo ooo.. I actually have a good answer!! I had these a lot as a kid.. the charlie horses in my calves, and it would leave it bruised for days. I woke up in the middle of the night screaming.. My mom was a nurse when I was a kid and she taught me a trick that has worked 100% everytime! First, when it happens, pull your foot straight up (toes towards knees). It feels like it's about to get worse, then it instantly stops. To avoid them, eat a banana. Low potassium causes it.. and 1 banana a day will keep you from getting them.

Thanks for the extra encouragement.. I just have to remind myself I will feel restriction eventually, and tough it up till then!!! We close on our house tomorrow morning, I'm nervous and happy.. our hvac unit froze up because workers put it on 50 before freeon was put in, so it leaked all in the ceiling, the floor, the walls.. the master closet smells HORRIBLE like mildew. I was really upset about that.. they said they're going to fix it all and 'air out' the closet.. but knowing that water was in the house now, bothers me.. 10 years from now when the wood is rotten, etc.. anyway.. They had forgotten quite a few things of the house too, and I'm afraid I may have missed more.. I went from memory of things I know they didn't put in. Joys of building a house I guess. Been packing some more.. I'm tired.. Finished everything for the wedding now.. except mother of the bride outfit. Mom won't wear a dress, and she's tall too and can't find the pretty elegant pant sets in long lengths.. so we ordered her 2 different ones, and crossing our fingers one has a long enough inseam.. if not, she's going to buy pants to go with one of the tops. It's a cruel world for tall women!!! I will not have time to let the hem of my dress out so it's long enough, since they won't be getting the dress to me till the 25th.. C'est la vie. I'm wondering if lack of protein is my problem then? (After reading the comments lately). I get about 30-40g in a day.. should I go for more?? Tell me that will boost my weight loss lol! Today I had pulled pork bbq with creamless coleslaw (vinegar based).. small plate, without eating the other 3 sides (baked beans, pickle, french fries). Wowee! Then I had a small order of chicken fries from BK.. kept me full all day pretty much.. had a ham chef salad for dinner about an hour ago.. and an applesauce for desert. Felt like a good day, I'm not gonna find out the nutrition in those chicken fries and get upset hah. My wedding band came in yesterday..as did fiance's. Mine is gorgeous, I love it..and since it's a guard, I won't have to resize my engagement ring for some time.. I had to take off the sizer thing to see what it looked like with the guard, so now it keeps falling off.. had to move it to my right hand. Fiance didn't like his ring, so had to send it back and ordered a plain solid yellow gold one. We had gotten him a yellow filigree gold band, with a white gold band in the middle (so it would match my all white gold).. but AFTER WE ORDER AND RECEIVE IT.. he tells me he just wants a plain band. MEN!!!! Could have saved some $$ if he had told me this before. Oh welllllll... I'm so tired right now, I've had a hard time sleeping lately with all the excitement going on.. fiance has too oddly enough (I never see him lose sleep).. yesterday we both passed out around 6pm.. I woke up at 10pm, had my 'dinner' and went back to sleep.. he got up at midnight and was up till 1.. then we both slept in a little late this morning.. I am ready to hit the sheets!! His brother is coming down from TN on Saturday to help us move, and then on Sunday the truckdriver from work is going to come help us move all the big stuff. Weeeee. Hopefully by Sunday I will be officially living in our new house! Fingers crossed tomorrow they fixed everything in the house and nothing will have to be stipulations in the contract (makes me nervous thinking about that). Good night, good luck, and be good Kity that sounds fun! I've never been to MA..

chica- just glad I'm not alone!! My scale went UP from 298 to 304 for all of last week.. I stopped weighing myself for about a week.. weighed myself this morning, thank god I'm at least back to 298.. I think it must have been from the PMS.. but sullen about not losing anymore weight.. that means I've been at 298 for about 2 weeks. And this is when I've been working out. I know muscle weighs more than fat, but I am not losing inches so bubkus (sp!) on that. I hope my next fill helps, I'm starting to wish I had RNY. Just to see weight going away!! Then I hear the stories of those around me who had RNY around the same time and they're just now getting back on their feet, in and out of hospital, sick all the time.. Ok nevermind, gah I'm just so frustrated and afraid this isn't going to help me.

I'm waitin for restriction kick in.. hah yeah right.. next fill July 2nd.. I need it Mom keeps makin the comments about how much I can eat, and tonight I was eating brie on grapes and my sister goes 'how come you can eat so much?' I hate hearing this. damn it why can i eat this much? :(

Have fun Tracy! We'll miss you and BE GOOD

Just checkin' in real quick before goin to parents for father's day.. Sara, when doing E-bay the best thing you can do.. if you find a charm you like on the topish right side click on the seller's feedback..check their track record. If they have too little feedback, or negative feedback (lots.. not 1 or 2 over 5 years for example is just stuff happens). That's the key to finding good items on e-bay. You can get ripped off by people who have 5 feedback, or lots of negative feedback, etc.. But some people have full shops that are legit on e-bay.. recognized by 1000's of feedback and 99.+% Positive (I'm an e-bay addict!)

Well, I started taking fiber 4 or 5 days ago, I've been eating healthier (than I was last week, making sure my calories aren't too high), and working out past 2 days.. and scale is sticking to 302-301lbs. I'm frustrated. Where'd my twoterville go?

And in case you're wondering.. I DID take pics of me in clothes also, which I planned to use for the bulletin boards, and my semi-nudes were for personal comparison.. but.. as it ends up, the clothes I keep wearin stand out so far from my body, you can't tell a difference (yet!).. so hopefully when I lose more I can revert to clothed pics lol

Ok no laughin at my bubbly body.. I finally got the courage to post some before & after... (That's my boxer Cassy on the bottom right, she was tryin to keep me from takin her bone.. I guess I look hungry since I'm losing weight haha )

I think it's a great idea! I know the Shrinking Violets (April 2007) would make good use of it

The past couple of games we watched on TV I have told her "see all the people sitting down in the seats? We have to stay in our seats too or the people will make us leave, and we don't wanna leave, do we?" "no ma'am" she says. LOL TracyK.. if only it was that easy huh?

Me and my coworker are going to the gym in an hour..Day 2! I guess I didn't work out as hard as I thought I did, today I woke up and the only thing that ached as my upper arm. But I did machines that work the butt, thighs, calves, lot of ab things, chest, arms, did eliptical and the treadmill.. I felt like Jello all day yesterday but no achey today I did do something stupid last night. I had a trashbag with about 80lbs of stuff in it we were throwing out for the move.. and normally I make fiance do those things, but he was busy and I was tired of clutter, so I took 5min draggin it to the door, then dragged it down the steps, pant pant, but to get it in the trash bin, I lifted it up and heaved it in, and I strained what FELT LIKE my band.. last night I had a hard time sleeping, I was having those pains around my band like I did right after surgery. Not sure what that means. I took advil, even though I know NSAIDS are bad, but I knew it was a muscle thing. This morning the pain is gone, but last night I was miserable. Had my morning banana.. got a potential new client today I'm running around for.. fingers crossed! I also have a v-8, I don't think I've been eating enough veggies, so thought this would be a good way to get some in..and this bottle is only 70 calories.. I didn't realize v-8 was so low in calories! If only I had worstershire sauce, pepper and maybe some vodka! Hah! Wedding plans are great, EVERYTHING is taken care of except getting my sister's bridesmaid dress (we are going Tuesday), her shoes.. which we'll get then also, and we pre-rented the tux in vegas for my fiance, but we have to pick it up when we get there, and fingers crossed I measured him right. He was uppity when I did it, he wears size 36" waist pants.. but upon measuring him, his waist (where his pants fall) is 40". And he said, put 36", that's the pants I wear blah blah.. and I was like, they didn't ask your pants size it asks your WAIST size! So hrmph. Then we measured his 36" pants, and sure enough they were 40". I'm confused why that is now! He's been making an effort to eat better lately. Like I said before I did surgery I was drinking half a case of normal mt. dew a day.. he drank the other half. he was still guzzling them up until about 2 weeks ago.. he said something about liking water just as much, so I said lets keep cases of water then and no one drink cokes. Around same time Kroger had a crazy sale on Dasani water (one of my fav)..24pack case for 3.99. We bought 5 cases.. then mom saw them, thought of me and bought me another one! We're down to our last case..eek. He has gained like 60lbs since I first met him (ahhh he was so muscular, he worked on his parents horse farm..now he's flabby). Last night we went to cracker barrel for dinner.. I had grilled catfish--anyone know if catfish is as 'good for you' as normal fish?? I don't like fish, but I like catfish.. --and he didn't get his usual-- one of the breakfasts, with extra gravy over everything and sweet tea.. He got the country fried steak with normal amount of gravy, potatos and a WATER! I didn't even have water, I had unsweet tea lol. I asked him why he got water, which is a first for him at a restaurant.. he said "I'm trying to eat better".. aww. And like I said before, when I cook, I've started serving him smaller portions.. still more than 'normal', but a lot less than I use to. Maybe one day he'll join me in the gym... maybe not.