Daisalana

Yessssssssssssss. I use to envy people for crossing their legs. I can now cross my left over right ANYWHERE ANYTIME!!! Right over left still doesn't work for me, but I think it has to do with the curve in my spine.. my hips are off by a couple inches, so one of my legs doesn't bend or move as much as the other. But, I find myself crossing my legs all the time.. at dinner, in someone's office, at home watching tv, etc. Woohoo NSV.

The longest I've ever quit was 2 days.. and it was a BRUTAL 2 days. I didn't want to give up smoking and cause my diet to fail. A lot of co-workers are quitting with chantix.. seems to work for most of them. One of them has gained sooo much weight from it though, he carries chocolate in his pocket. He said his cravings for cigarettes transferred to chocolate, and he's always eating it now. Eeek. Apparently his wife decided not to quit after watching him. I am smoking MUCH more than pre-op, which is a bummer. I smoked 2 packs a day for 4 days last week. DH called me out on it, so I'm trying to slow it down.. but smokes definitely replaced food for me right now, I'm scared to quit

Just so ya'll know, I AM getting back into the swing of things. I'm back on myplate, and bumped my daily calories from 1,400 to 1,000. Yesterday I had 700 calories. Today so far I have had 640 (McDonald small OJ, sausage, egg.. Kudos Peanut bar.. yoplait key lime yogurt NUM NUM) I can have 360 additional calories today...this is our Cracker Barrell night. I normally get some chicken dish with their Wed. veggie of the day.. broccoli casserole. I can never eat much of the food there, so I should stay within my 360, and if I go over a little since I am bowling tonight I'll burn it off. So that's 2 days of doing better. Yay!

I'm getting a fill on Dec. 5th and I'm ready to be tight again. No more guessing about what to do, it'll let me know if I can eat or not heh heh. Wow 4.3cc in 4cc. When I was 'overfilled' it was at 1.5cc. The doc said when he put my band in (the smallest 9.75) that I may not even need a fill, that it was tight to start. If 1.5cc is tight tight (and it is), that made me happy in the sense that, as I lose weight, and less fat is pushing on it, they can keep filling it to keep me filled. If I had 4.3cc in my 4cc band.. honestly I can't imagine that LOL! I wouldn't be able to get a drop of water through. It's funny how different we all are.

Just.. wow.

My only guess would be, the band has made it more like a funnel. The bottom of the esophogus is probably drawn in tighter toward the stoma? So, it's tighter toward the bottom and food scrapes more on it. Just my guess

Michelle- That's great! I'm the same way about Disney World (or Six Flags). It's all magical and I feel all in love and family-like hehe. Glad to know another adult that gets all giddy about it like I do!

Everyone in my family is overweight except my mom (who is now starting to get there). Candy/sweets/fast food were the normal way of life. These weren't treats or occasionally indulgences. My dad would keep those big bags of m&m's, LOTS of ice cream, cookies, etc. in the house every day. Nothing was locked out of our hands, we had free access to whatever we wanted. So we ate candy, cookies, ice cream all the time. Then dad would bring fast food home for dinner.. every single night. Most of the time I had McDonald's for lunch also from age 4-10. I would be picked up from school and dad would get us Happy Meals, then take us to our Nanny's. My mom worked late hours at the hospital so she never cooked. But the weird thing is.. after all 3 of us moved out of the house grown up, none of us kept up with that lifestyle. Like, I cook a lot. I don't keep sweets in the house all the time. Even when I did have some sweets in the house, I'd eat it all in one night, I didn't have it every single night. My bro is broke, so I rarely see him eat.. and when he does, he eats from this hippie place, that is all organic & healthy.. yet he is nearly 400lbs. So I don't know why we remained overweight?

Oh again, good to see I'm not alone. I had about 1 month where food didn't interest me. But it came back with avengance. I'm still waiting for the indifference to 'come back'. Hope it lasts longer for you I still wish I could just go to the 2 weeks post-op, where my stomach didn't want to eat.. I had to force myself to drink protein shakes just for the heck of it. Ah, those were the days.

My doctor spouted out the statistics (35-50% weight loss). And when he did (he wanted me to do RnY but I was soo hell bent on lap band), I said.. I will break those statistics and make you a believer in the lap-band! (He had RnY himself, and said if his daughter wanted bariatric surgery he would prefer her get RnY). So anyway.. I told the nurse too (who ALSO had RnY) that I am confident I will lose as much as any RnY patient. They said I was a good candidate because I'll work for it. I just need to find that girl again. I'm so lax. I'm making better decisions one step at a time. Yesterday I was so hungry I thought I'd faint.. we didnt eat b'fast or lunch.. went to grocery store on way home from work.. didn't have my first bite of food till about 7pm.. meatloaf & mashed potatos. I ate about 2 cups total of food, slowly. Had a fruit leather for snack around 8:30.. and then had a 1/2 handful of fritos for my late night snacking.. Today started better, DH stopped at McDonalds on the way to work (first time this has ever happened) to get b'fast.. I got the big breakfast.. just wanted sausage and eggs.. gave him my potato cake thing and threw away the biscuit. We have bowling tonight, which according to charts burns lots of calories. Yay.

I look at Weight Loss Programs - Nutrition Facts - Fast Foods and Restaurants - DietFacts.com before going somewhere. I learned a while ago, things have SO many hidden calories, it's disgusting.. and no wonder America is so obese I use to get Chili's chicken fingers.. then found out from diet facts how many calories were in it, and I was horrified.. so yeah, always check it out before you go!!

I hear ya. There's about 12 of us women in the main office (Customer service, and me in sales). They do parties & what-not.. the boss said no more doing this, because they don't do it for everyone, and people's feelings get hurt (me included!!). They don't even know my b'day.. and that's fine, I don't need a cake, but it does hurt when others get it. Well the no-party rule went well for a while. I was married in July. I invited all the CSR girls.. 2 of them I consider good friends.. and they came. The others I go to lunch with and we're nice, but I don't consider them much beyond co-workers. We hired a new CSR girl, a TEMP.. 1 month after being here, she got married. Well, the girls who I INVITED TO MY RECEPTION and I didn't even get so much as a congrats card or a no on the rsvp card.. e-mailed me saying they're all chipping in money to buy the NEW TEMP GIRL a target card for her wedding!! Then they rolled her office, bought her a cake, took digital pictures of a congrats card THEY MADE and emailed it to her on her honeymoon. I was beyond hurt. I got mad, and told one of the CSR's I am friends with that I'll be damned if I contribute, and when they'd come to my office askin me to participate it's all I could do to say.. what the hell happened when *I* got married?! Anyway, my rant.. I hate office cliques.

But just so you know, pineapple juice does not seem to move along chunks of pineapple I've been eating canned pineapple for a snack, got a chunk stuck the other morning (too early for pineapple!), so I tried drinking a little juice.. was the similar affect of drinking water during a stuck time.. oy.

Oh, my good news today. I do graphic art as a hobby, and we're working on our new pricing matrixes at work. They sent it to us sales to get our input.. I played around using Photoshop & Excel to make it look more flashy and professional looking. CEO was impressed, asked me how I did it (I have told them over and over I do graphic art, and our hired graphic artist does a lot of QUESTIONABLE stuff.. so I try to squeeze my way in sometimes), I told him for the millionth time I do graphic art.. so.. long story short, he asked me to do the graphics and re-doing the fonts, etc. for our 2008 pricing matrix. Yay me. I'm hoping one day they'll let me do our graphic art stuff, instead of a contracted person. They don't work in the shop, they are hired on a per job basis.. it's really a waste, I can do it for free. Yeah, I like it that much that I do it for free.. hah.

Denise.. that's how I ended up having my port moved. They thought I had a leak due to the tubing being disconnected, or them puncturing it during fill. Then when they went in, there my port was completely flipped backward so that they couldn't even see the difference on an x-ray! Hope they just accidentally filled you in the wrong place (I now know just how possible that is!), and everything is working fine.

Sears is actually pretty good about helping out.. it makes me wonder just how much stuff is marked up heh heh. We bought a refrigerator & washer & dryer from them in June... We live out of the city they're in (so no city tax), but, we live technically in another county (on County Line road.. so it's literally a 2 lane road that keeps us from being in the same county).. so it was something like 8% extra taxes + additional delivery fee for them to bring it just across those 2 lanes.. My parents live on the other side of the 2 lanes about 2 miles down the road..so we explained to them, and said.. hey, just deliver to them and we'll go pick it up, it's literally across the street.. so the guy put in their zip code, but our address and saved us all that money. Then, when they delivered the washer & dryer.. they dented the dryer by dropping it in the truck.. so the guy told me they can bring another, or I can take it and get a discount. I couldn't even find the dent till he pointed it out to me. So I said we'll keep it. So I called Sears to talk about a discount, and he just goes "how much do you want?". I was just.. stunned. So I said uh.. $100? I have no idea what a dent is worth. He said "How about $60?" and then I said.. "How about $80?".. done! They're nice at the one out here, I always like going by. My only qualm is they have been screwing up my CC with them lately. Everytime we buy from them, we get the 1 year no interest/6 months no payments or whatever. We always time it to be paid off a month early 'just in case'. Well all of a sudden I'm getting interest on $1,600.. not sure why, called, they fixed it.. next billing, same thing.. Called, they said they fixed it, and refunded the 3 interest charges.. this month's bill came, it's still there. I haven't called yet, I'm waiting to see if it'll go away by next billing period. The store= Awesome... the CC= not so much.

I have chronic reflux (before surgery, since I was 10), so I take Prilosec one a day. So, I don't get reflux from anything.

(((All my violets for the encouraging words!))) I know it'll pass, but now.. right now, in this moment in time, it feels like I have to just hang my hat, this is another diet that I'm failing at. I didn't have a GREAT day yesterday, but I didn't binge eat, so that's a start. Made chicken for dinner, even though I'm eh about chicken. Pounded it thin and fried it with italian bread crumbs in EVOO. Chicken Pitatta I think it's called? But I didn't make a gravy for it. Had crystal light all day, 1 fruit leather (45c). Came home from work, had 1/2 banana, and 1/2 can of pineapple chunks. Ate 1/2 a chicken breast (pounded real thin so it looked HUGE) (also made canned squash with this, and I never realized canned squash is NASTY.. gimme fresh please).. so no squash. 1 big glass of unsweet tea w/sweet-n-low..Then when we went to bed, I had another fruit leather & 1/2 banana & 2 meatballs. I didn't binge.. whew.. but I still could have kept from having that late night snack. I was in bed, avoiding the late night snack.. DH came to bed with snacks. I just started tallying calories in my head and decided a little snack won't hurt. I wish I could get a reign on my night head hunger. I'm suppose to hang up x-mas lights.. someone tell me, I know this is sad hah.. I have no idea how you hang them up!!! My parents always hired landscapers to do their lights, so when I decided to do lights this year, I bought them and I looked inside.. no directions. I have no clue how to hang these up? Are there hooks or something, what is the best way to hang up lights that you have found?

I know, it is in my head, I know I can't possibly be this hungry, I don't know what's triggering it!! My fill was for Dec. 17th, but I had them push it up. I need some reinforcement. There was a point when, if I ate all that, I'd be PBing like crazy. I'm working on a good day. I fail miserably in the evenings some reason. I wonder if now that I'm not over-restricted, it's like I'm trying to make up for lost time. Stupid me. I am still exercising, but very down-trodden about everything right now.

Ohhh my goodness, I could post stories here for days. First, I never realized just how bad Wal-mart was until about a month ago. Since I moved out on my own when I was 17, I always went to Wal-Mart for everything. I've always lived near a 24/7 one, so it was extremely convenient. So that's what I do. I bussle through the crowds, and stand in hour long lines at check out, with the horribly slow and doesn't-give-a-shit-minimum-wage-paid-employee. And they can't be bothered to bag your stuff anymore. I've come not to expect much at stores. A month ago, we went to Publix on the way home from work because it was on the way. It was very busy. We go to check out, and there it is.. 2 open lines. Open lines, what is that?! I've never seen such a thing. I think, surely they are express lanes..and my big buggy wouldn't be welcome. But no, they are just normal lines. Wow. Just, wow. So now, I go to Publix for groceries. They not only bag it, but offer to take it out for you. Ok, flash to the DAY BEFORE T'DAY. Yes, my mom is one of those people.. that forget something till the day before. So we go out to Publix, with quite a bit in her cart.. and we're in line.. 2 people back, but that's really not bad compared to Wal-Mart. The manager actually walks up to us and says he'll get us on the next line. Wow. Now onto nightmares. DirecTV actually gives me anxiety when I get their stupid flyers in the mail. We had satellite, signed the year contract. We had 3 new receiver boxes (free with contract). 1 month into it, our boxes stopped working. It would just be pink screens, green screens, etc. We called them, they tried walking us through some stuff.. it fixes. 2 weeks later, starts up again. Now mind you, everytime we call you have to go through the tiers. Repeat the whole story every time. They decide to send someone out to work on it (about 3 months into the contract). He shows up, says WE were suppose to receive something in the mail from DirecTV for him to work with. No one told us. Called them (explained story over and over), someone finally says they're sending it now. Have to reschedule with worker. They come back out, and essentially he can't fix it. DTV now says, they'll send us new receivers.. but it's $200 each. I got SO mad, I told them how THEY sent us messed up receivers, *I* am not paying for more. All this time, our boxes keep messing up, and we spend HOURS on the phone with them, they literally would hang up on us when we asked to speak to someone higher up, we'd call back, sit on hold, get hung up on again, etc. They finally said they'd send us REFURBISHED receivers for free. Kind of sucked, the display was bad compared to the new ones that didn't work. But I got over it. By the time they fixed it, we were about 7 months into the contract. In 5 months contract was up, and we were getting rid of DTV for the shit customer service they had. I let them know too, I wrote corporate and told them the entire story. Never got a response. Anyway, 5 months is up, and we are moving, I call to cancel it.. and they said, when we sent the refurbished boxes they renewed our contract for another year! THE HELL THEY DID! I said, I knew long before we got those that I was never using DTV again in my life, I would have under NO circumstances EVER agreed to renew a contract with your POS company. I said, I never signed or agreed to anything. After some more talking to people, they finally agreed to cancel the contract for free. But low and behold, we got a cancellation bill a month later. I called and said I refused to pay for it, of course that conversation was not logged into our account, etc. etc. I ranted some more, they finally dropped the bill, and I am never in my life getting DTV again. So I get these flyers in the mail now to get DTV and I get angry all over again! And World Moving Services AKA National Relocation Services. Shame on me, for looking up movers online. I was getting quotes. They were mid-priced. They kept calling me (2 months before our move), and we were moving near a holiday.. so we went over the timeline. Our house was rented, the guy was moving back from Japan (military) and his family was with him, they needed it on the 1st. So I told the moving company (one listed above) our stuff had to be out NO LATER than the 30th (planned to clean on 31st). I was talking to a supervisor named Steve (damn Steve). We went over the dates they had available. He said 21-26th was open. Perfect! We'd just live on the floor till we decided to drive from New Mexico to Alabama. I told him even if they miss 26th, no later than 30th. He guarantee'd I'd be out of there by the 30th. So I pay him the deposit (nearly 2k). 21st comes and goes. I call them, they are closed for the holidays, 22&23 was a weekend-closed. 24th (monday) comes.. no word. Call them, they said they're trying to find the movers (apparently they contract it out, they actually do NOTHING but rip you off more money). 25th comes. Then the 26th. Now, it's the 31st. Just to say, we did get the contract a month prior, and the contract says "Pick Up Date: 21-26" So.. 31st is here, I'm panicking. We have to get out, we have to clean, our lease is up, the owner has his family flying in and needs to get into the house. Moving company says.. their mover is in Arizona, and will be there tomorrow. I am so mad you wouldn't want to be anywhere near me Steve was unavailable of course. But, they said "If you read the fine print, no dates are 'IMPLIED' or 'GUARANTEED'". No friggin way. 1. Steve GUARANTEED the date. Otherwise, I would never have given him a deposit. Steve was never able to take my call again. 2. The CONTRACT has dates on it, at the VERY least that is 'implied'. So.. they're just a horrible scam company. I ended up calling the movers that were in Arizona myself. Local UHauls couldn't give us a truck on such short notice (we were going to load it up and take it to a parking lot so we could get out of the house), called movers, no one could accomodate on a 1 hour notice. So the movers in Arizona, said oh yeah we're behind.. sorry we're tired. We said.. we will give you an additional $500 if you can be here TONIGHT. Wouldn't you know, even though we were paying 6k to move, $500 is what they needed to actually show up, now 5 days late anyway. They arrived at 1am on the 1st, were out of there by 3:30am. Then had to bust our asses cleaning the house till 6am, and then hit the road for a 24 hours drive to Alabama. We had paid extra for things like mattresses to be in a sanitary box, etc. They were to unassemble, and reassmble on delivery. They did not reassmble ANYTHING. It's in the contract that we paid them to. When I asked him why they weren't reassmbling (and he didn't know English very well I may throw in here), he said it's too dangerous for them to put stuff together. Uh huh. When I reported them when it was all said and done to the BBB, I also complained to the main company about how they screwed me on pick up dates, but $500 BRIBE got them there. The driver said it was his 'Tip'. Heh yeah, I was gonna tip..before they did anything.. when they were 5 days late and putting me through hell. So there you have it.. don't ever use this company, I found out (too late) they're all over ripoff.com for scamming people. Now that I posted a mini-novel That's just my 2 worst stories.

My DH tried to join the bandwagon with me when I started out. He gave up cokes too. 7 months later, he drinks them, but we don't keep them in the house (for my sake). So he just buys bottles and drinks at work and at home whatever is left over. Still less than he use to. He also eats whatever I make, or wherever I can go (I don't eat fast food anymore unless it's Wendy's chili). We were eating fastfood 2-3x a day before. So naturally, he was losing a little weight. He has gained weight since I met him (use to be washboard, now it's a little tire ) Went from 30 waist pants to 36 now. I have GENTLY said something every once in while- mostly due to me having to buy him new pants sizes. He doesn't care, doesn't take offense, but he doesn't see the weight gain. His brothers have called him 'fat' at a family gathering once (imagine how my 300lb+ self felt at that time.. I was sitting there). But anyway.. guess my point is, see how he feels about it. Maybe bring it up casually about him exercising with you (I tried this, he's wishy washy about it). Tell him you worry about his Cholesterol and see if he's willing to eat better with you. The worst he can do is say no. Don't be judgey or mean about it, just casual In my situation, things seem to just be happening. He has told me 2 times in the past month (he weighed himself) that he is losing weight. If your DH is eating with you or where you go (like mine), he's going to tend to lose weight due to better food choices. If you make dinner, don't make you your good healthy food, then make him his 'regular' kind of food. I only cook 1 dinner, and if he doesn't like it, he doesn't eat hah hah! Portion is another thing, of course, but if it's a ton of healthy food instead of a ton of fat and calories.. see where I'm going? Good luck!

I just wanted to say, I always thought the same thing. Those shows, and crap, 2 more shows I watched all the time.. lily is the daughter, hrm hrm.. this buggin me, gonna go google before I finish this post.. But, then Roseanne.. she didn't get a buff sexy man did she? Well, after she won the lottery and got lipo, a more put together man liked her, but we find out that's all a dream anyway. Then the George Lopez show.. they definitely don't look to be like a realistic couple. Ok looked up one: Grounded for Life The other one, the guy is not only overweight, but balding and ugly.. and his wife is a bombshell.. they have the redhead daughter who is a drama queen, and 2 sons. Crap, I give up.. can't remember names of people to google it. And I have to say, guy on King of Queens does it for me. DH is not overweight, but Doug looks like he could keep a girl warm.

I drink a lot of tea (w/sweet-n-low), and an occasional coffee w/ creamer & sweet-n-low. Dehydration thing, suppose to drink 2 glasses of water for every cup of coffee or tea.

Well it's all me, I am just eating & eating & eating. Within an hour, I'm 'hungry' again.. but I know I can't possibly REALLY be hungry, so I eat & eat & eat.. and I feel pressure at the band, I'm worried I'm screwing it up, but I'm not stopping myself. It's like a drug addict who knows they are overdosing, but they're happy right then, so who cares. I need to get my head around this, I keep asking myself WHAT is triggering this?! I can't figure it out. It's not t'day. I actually did good on t'day, ate little amounts of a lot of stuff. I stopped when I felt full. I did eat more dessert than I should have (funny how that goes down with absolutely no problem or feeling of satisfaction in the stomach). But it was ok, it was t'day and life goes on. Some family members literally ate about 6lbs of food that day! Egads. But then the past 3 days, eat eat eat.. I don't know why. 2 BIG bowls of cereal, and 8 meatballs, then 4 kudo's bars (all in one sitting). I can't believe I can even do it. Maybe the first day (3 days ago) when I realized I COULD binge eat, it triggered a 'relapse' heh. I'm ashamed, I'm mad, I'm sad, I am doomed to be the fat girl forever. I called and scheduled a fill for Dec. 5, hopefully Jan 1 comes quickly and I'll get that new year's resolution kick and go on a strict diet for a while.

Hey guys! I've been reading, just too bummed to post, don't want to be the downer. I'm at 271 and not moving. I'm eating bad, really bad. I'm able to BINGE eat. I need a fill, I've had 3 days of binge eating. I feel horrible, band sucks, I wish I'd gotten the RnY. Now I'll stop being a downer. You don't HAVE to mail by Dec. 1, I don't know where I came up with that number. You know when X-mas is, make a good estimate of how long it'll take to get there I bought my person's thing online the other day and had it shipped directly to them (I am HOPING they do a gift receipt, I made it a gift, but I've never ordered gifts from them before, so..) Should be there by next week.