Daisalana

Really Judy, you need to send it to me so I can make sure it's not poisonous or anything. :scared:

Our house was built this year (we moved in June 07 WOOT!). It *should* be alright, I do say this because they cut a lot of corners that we're now finding out about (hurrah for warranties). It mounts from a single hook, so I am buying a potted fake willow looking plant that I will hang from it when we don't have the swing up. The last house we rented out in New Mexico, there was a hook in the ceiling in the bedroom. I never knew what it was for, but I hung a lantern candle from it. LOL, so that's what it was for.

I don't like the feel of q-tips in my ear, it really bothers me.. I don't like fabric rubbing on my skin like that (cotton balls). It's one of those things that make my skin crawl, but I do it occasionally. But I know what you're talking about, I use to do that with the shower water.. I remember in HS my boyfriend at the time thought I was a looney toon for doing it. I eventually stopped because I knew that couldn't be good for me. But I'd let the water spray right into my ear and I had eargasms.. hah. It just felt so good.

Are you getting enough water? It could be dehydration. If I don't eat all day I sometimes get light headed also.

My doc probably doesn't watch me eatin starches.. His rules were generic for RNY & Lap-Band. It's the whole low-carb/no-carb thing. Protein first, veggies 2nd, and you shouldn't have room for carbs. No snacking. I kind of made my own rules, not that you should, but I can't stick to Atkins for life. Been there, done that. And when I fall off the wagon, I fall hard.

I say if your counselor isn't keeping you in check and making you accountable, you need a counselor that won't pussy foot around you. I have my moments, and my violet sistas have filled me with all kinds of words of encouragement. One day at a time. Get through THIS day, worry about tomorrow-tomorrow.

About q-tips.. if they weren't made to clean out the ear, what were they made for???? I've heard they're bad to put in your ears too, but they look like they're designed for it.. so I am confused!! I like cleaning my ears with q-tips after a shower, when its all wet and comes out easy.

I counted calories religiously the first few months, when I didn't have restriction and was determined to make this work despite the fact it didn't feel like it did much for me. Now that I am filled to the brim, I don't count calories. I can eat so little, there's no point in it. I know I'm not going over 1k calories!

I never had a 'last meal'. Sometime around being banded, Jachut posted about how the last meal syndrome is a misconception for bandsters. I believed her (and she was right!).I went on my liquid diet without much thought about 'not being able to eat again'. When I was back on solids, I did have 5 months (while fills were not working) where I was able to eat anything, so I was glad I didn't risk botching my liver for surgery with a last meal splurge. Then slowly foods started going away, and I honestly don't miss them. I know some people have mentioned missing them, but I am more fascinated than woeful about the fact that I'll never eat a hamburger the way you are suppose to eat one. I watch DH eat them and I think.. I can't do that.. I hope I never can again.

I don't know what caused "so and so" (actually 2 I have noticed that I was use to seeing) to stop with their pic in their profile, but I was disappointed. That's how I follow their posts, by their pic. And it was most definitely an inspiration for me only being near half-way.. It's nice to see I can make it to goal. So if you 2 are in doubts of putting it back, I really think it helps those of us who aren't that far yet, to see 50% weight loss isn't the only accomplishment with the band.

I'm coming up on my 50% weight loss. I will surpass it! Hell, I can't hardly eat anymore, I DREAD eating.. I don't know why the weight loss would stop. I told my doc going into this, I will break the statistics he covered in his seminar. He said I had the right personality for the band. Not to say I don't have my doubts, and bad days.. but overall, I am determined to beat the odds.

Are you on B/C by any chance? I thought I had a decent sex drive, but I've been on B/C since I was 14 for regulation. I had to go off of it for over a month for lap-banding surgery, and I swear I didn't know I had it in me. I wanted it every day, all day. Then I went back on B/C and it's back to just decent. I asked my gyno about this last week, hoping she had a good fix.. her answer was basically "it happens". Didn't offer any solutions, just told me not to go off the B/C till I lose more weight, she doesn't want me getting pregnant yet (me neither). But I've decided after we have 2 kids, DH going to get snipped so I can go off the B/C.

I just have to say I am in awe of those of you who quit. I wish I could do it. My doc recommended I stop smoking, but didn't require it.. thank goodness, I wouldn't have been banded! Unfortunately, since being banded I smoke a LOT more than I did pre-band. It makes up for the food I'm not eating anymore I guess. If you quit & got banded same time, you're amazing! Keep it up, you've come this far.

My mom agreed to help pay for the LapBand, because I was born obese. Heh. No really, I have been fat since I came out of the uterus! Because of that, for most of my life I didn't know any better. Of course I was made fun of in school for it (and because I was always the tallest girl), but I thought they were just idiots. When I finally realized I was so overweight, and started dieting, it worked for the time, then I'd gain it back + some. I still have no idea what it feels like to be a normal size. I'm anxious, definitely. Until I was about 15, there was no stylish plus size clothes. In 8th grade I went to our homecoming in an old woman's dress. 9th grade prom too. I saw pics of that not too long ago, and I still cringe. I still don't believe I'll ever be a normal weight, that's the negativity, or just hard coding in my head. I can't fathom it. I know a lot of reasons I'm overweight, but they're things I literally can not make myself control. <3 my band.

I did have some NSV's yesterday. Despite being fat, I've always felt sexy and presented myself as such.. but when I started dieting, it dawned on me how big I am.. and it kind of bursted my self-esteem when it comes to the opposite sex (since April when I got banded!). Well, yesterday I know for a fact 3 guys were checking me out at the mall. The guy we got food from for lunch was hitting on me. I watched him after we left to see how he interacts with other women, and it was different. He WAS hitting on me! Then we went to hockey game, and 3 guys who came from Canada to support their friend who is on the hockey team, ended up sitting near us. We saw them outside on smoke break, and I confidently was talking to them (they were smokin' hot), and they didn't act like I was the weird fat girl. They were flirting with me and all. But on that note, I thought of something deep & moving, but can't really express it when I go to write. There was another girl out there, in the corner, not talking to anyone. She was fat. Very fat. Probably a little younger than me. She had glasses just like mine, black hair in her face, wearing frumpy all black (looked like mens) clothes. I've been there at some point. She didn't smile, she didn't make eye contact. She just sat there quietly in what looked like self-loathing. I thought, I was her at some point. Now here I am smiling and laughing with the hot guy strangers who are flirting with me. I love that DH and I aren't the jealous type, because I love the attention I'm getting. I think he's happy for me that I get it, it puts a bounce in my step for the rest of the day. I know DH notices me, but it's always nice to have the re-assurance of someone who didn't fall in love with me for my personality, ya know? I've said it before, DH doesn't 'like' fat girls, he still will point them out and act oblivious to the fact I'm overweight. Anyway.. woo. Do I sound silly?

I always shop from the same online stores for clothes, because I know exactly how they fit (I HATE trying on clothes in the store).. but also, I hate malls. I hate the crowds, and screaming kids, and crappy sales people. But we went to the mall for lunch yesterday, and I was wearing my new size 19 jeans (which are junior size!) and my ass was lifted and seperated.. I was wearing a designer blazer and had my stylish leather purse.. so I had this new air of confidence.. and I loved walkin in the mall hah hah. DH thought I was being silly, but I promise there were 3 guys that I noticed that wanted a piece o' this! It felt good.

Num num, send the fudge this way! I'll get rid of it for you so you won't be tempted! mwhaha

I think it's normal, we all got cold feet. I know a lot of us were in the surgery prep about to get wheeled in and it was almost too much to bear!! Luckily they gave me some doped up meds while I was waiting, so I started to think "Ah who cares." hehe. Just know you'll be fine, and try to think happy thoughts right now :scared:

LOL! No, not trying yet.. we're waiting till end of 2008 to start, hopefully I'll be a 'normal' weight by then. I figured out how to hang it, says to attach to a joist in the ceiling, that's a man's job.. he'll have to figure out how to set it up.. but I decided to wrap it and make it a gift to both of us for xmas!

I love shoes & purses. I am ALWAYS buying a new set of each. However, I don't have designer taste, I just buy cheap stuff! I just bought a new one last night from Overstock.com..called a peanut satchel. :scared:

Ew.. my dad has several friends like you're talking about, they are my 'uncles' essentially. I would just DIE if they ever hit on me!!!!! That calls for a long shower with lots of scrubbing. Maybe some floss too.

LOL Judy! I find it fascinating how we all use this forum as a type of journal. It's a combination of a lot of women's journal in life, good & bad, and the lap-band :scared: I got a clump of Christmas cards from you guys yesterday also, it's filling up my wine rack in the kitchen. I liked the note you wrote Kat! We were running late today, hockey game was last night till 11pm, and if I'm not in bed my 10pm, I can't get up in time in the morning. So we're an hour late. My body is like clockwork with that! Got my slimfast, num num. Yesterday I had an episode.. this is the 3rd time this has ever happened, I don't know what causes it, and it's very bizarre..has anyone else experienced this???? I have a normal slime episode and spit it out.. and then all of a sudden I'm extremely nauseated.. And I started actually throwing up, like sick with the flu throwing up. Last time the smell of chicken made me nauseated. This time, I just kept puking.. and I kept heaving, was throwing up water from hours ago.. Both times I take the anti-nausea meds (Emetrol) and it stops. But it hits me suddenly, and it makes no sense. And gosh, nausea is a miserable feeling.. I absolutely hate it. TGIF!!!!! We leave for Florida in the morning.

UHmmmmmmmmmmm I Just made an impulse buy!!!!!! :paranoid This sex swing was on super duper sale for only $72.. and it said it has 1 attachment to the ceiling that easily disconnects for storage.. so I said OK!!! Now, since it was impulsive here's my question.. it says it holds up to 400lbs without some other attachment (that's good enough for us!!).. but will my CEILING hold up to 400lbs? How does that work?

Just to throw this out there in case anyone has one and can convince me of a good place for it.. A Sex Swing.. I saw it first on an episode of Sex in the City and I have always wanted one. DH is all for it, but we joked about how we'd have it hanging in our bedroom and when people visit (parents included) they'd flip out. Anyone have one and have a good location for it?

Hm... must look into this exercise ball thing.. Although I bought "The Bean", and popped it on my own!