Daisalana

roflmao ME TOO!! When I know I'm slowly losing (it comes and goes) I only weigh once a week.. in the beginning I threw my scale out since I wasn't losing much.. then I hit plateaus and TRY not to weigh myself. Right now I am losing steadily, and my scale is in the kitchen on the way to my bedroom... so anytime I pass, after I poo, after I change clothes, etc.. I weigh. hehe.

This will pass before ya know it. Go out to lunch, have a mushy.. get a bowl of mashed potatoes with gravy and mix it together. Get a bowl of soup, and don't eat the chunks in it. That's what I did! And I personally HAVE to have popcorn when I go to movies, hah.. but, you could just not eat popcorn and enjoy the movie!

We officially are having our first snow of the season. It's just flurries that are melted before they hit the ground. It's in the 40's out here, so not like it's gonna stick and be pretty. But, I stood out there and got snowflakes in my hair hehe.

80% of the time I take tiny bites. 10% of the time I take bites that are too big, but I chew and chew, and only swallow small pieces at a time, while chewing the rest (I've gotten good at this, for things like Sushi where I can't bite through it). And 10% of the time, I am preoccupied, too hungry, etc. and I go back to old habits.. I realized when I was 18 and got drunk with some friends.. and threw up WHOLE bow tie noodles, I never chewed my food!! I just inhaled. So anyway, once in a while I do this without thinking, and the band punishes me everytime. It comes right back up!

Frozen fruit things is a great treat to me. I think Dole makes a brand, frozen strawberry, mango and raspberry cups. I think if you did OJ, would be the same thing, I even thought about how to make these cups myself without all the sugar. But one little cup, lasts a long time because I just shave off the top as I eat, and let it melt in my mouth.. Mmm. I think it's 160 calories per cup. But well worth the indulgence.

I'm so sorry this happened to you, especially since you were happy with it. I feel bad for people who lose the band in general, but sometimes people are happy to be rid of it, so it works out for the best. I LOVE my band and if something like this happened, I would be devastated. You are very optimistic and I hope you get the band back one day!

Awesome, I'll TiVo it!

Thanks for all the info guys! I guess it makes a little more sense, but I still can't wrap my brain around 12 steps for binge eating.. As for whoever said you can't blame alcoholism on anyone else, it has been proven that alcoholism is a genetic disposition. Or maybe it's obsessive compuslive habits? I may be wrong, couldn't point out where it says that anywhere.. But everyone in my family has serious addictions, between food, Drugs, Alcohol, Gambling and Sex. ALL of these run rampant and dangerously through every single person in my family. Everyone seems to be motivated to address the issues in the past year with me losing weight, I'm the first one to make some sort of difference in what's going on. Due to this, my mom & sister are trying to get away from the food compulsions. My uncle is going to rehab for alcoholism. About 8 of us in the family are taking (or will be soon) Chantix to stop smoking. Maybe all families are like this, I don't know. I guess everyone hides this stuff well, but it's boggling when I write down all the things every single person in my family are addicted to. Mine are ultimately food.. and cigarettes.

Yeah when we were thinking about the reception, my original idea was at my parent's house. They have a big manor house on a lake, with a huge pool with waterfalls, etc. in it. So we were going to just go to their house (FOR FREE), and hold a BBQ out back(relatively cheap) let people swim(FREE!), etc. We're cheap like that, and everyone would still have a lot of fun. You DON'T have to spend a lot of money to have fun and make it memorable.

Yeah the song was creepy--but funny-- but if you watched the guy, he LOOKED like he was serious. And he probably is, he looked psychotic. I'm glad Simon got him out of there, stupid doped up Paula is just enjoying the attention.

No kids here. I have always been round... manly figure, top heavy.. but my big boobs would give it away hah hah. I am for the first time in my life, getting a WOMANS figure, I am having curves on my hips, my waist is no longer bigger than my hips.. Slowly but surely. I am a little sad that my skin is not tightening up like I had hoped. They say genetics plays a part.. my mom was a size 0, had 3 kids, and was a size 1 and wearing a string bikini after giving birth to the 3rd. And looking fabulous. With no saggy skin. So I was hopeful. So far, I have a droopy tummy.. and it puckers up all wrinkled and gross. I hope that it's just fatty in there still and as I lose more weight, it tightens up more. And my upper arms are disgusting. But honestly, I don't care! I'm still ecstatic to be this thin, wearing size 17 jeans.. never in my over age of 13 life have I been this 'small' hah hah. If I end up with gooey arms and tummy, I still look damn good in clothes.. and DH thought I was pretty when I was well over 300lbs, so some saggy skin isn't going to turn him off.

I know it's been said, but you need to go in there, and get that fill. Don't be emberassed, ashamed, or discouraged. You're making the step to get to work with the band! My doc would praise me for acknowleding I needed the fill, and following through. How easy it would be, not to get a fill and just keep eating what you want.. food is so comforting, right? However, if your doc is one of those (I have heard about) that is basically a shithead, and does try to make you feel bad for slow progress, or not losing weight (even though you need a fill!!), let it roll off. Screw them, get your fill and go home. I have to say, I had a rough start with the band, I thought it wasn't going to work. When they revised me, and fills finally went in.. it's working like magic for me. I don't think it'll last, I think once I get closer to goal, I'll have to work at it, like I hear a lot of people say they have to work at it. But in all honesty, I'm losing 2-3lbs a week steadily since my last fill.. and I eat everything I use to, just smaller quantities.. I did cut out drinking cokes all the time, but I still have 1/2 can of ginger ale once a week. And I got rid of Snacks that go down real easy (ice cream, chips). If I don't have those things, I find a better substitute.. if it's in the house, I'd eat it all. So anyway, little work on my part at this point and it's working great. A good fill goes a long way. In the beginning I was fighting for 1lb a month, counting my calories, etc. Now it's just easy. A few months from now, I'll be on here whining about how I can't get past XXXlbs, and I'm too lazy to work-out. :smile:

I have had 1 cup of coffee.. does that count? I'm eating lunch, DH was spose to take me to lunch but now he's busy working.. so I ran to Steak & Shake.. come girl in the office had it, it smelled sooo good, was killin me. So I got a chili with cheese & onion.. and a shake. Shh.

I like Haydee too. My stripper name is D-Day Karter.

I went to school with a Cliche Star.. and Tequila Cherry. Born given names, not something they made up.

I got a kick out of someone who names their daughter Temptress. May as well name her slut, hussy, etc..

Wooo, today is busy at work for me. AND EXCITING. First, a customer I've been working a deal with for months, of million-sized runs (which means over $100k per job, and I make commission!).. called today and said the job is live! 6 months of lots of extra income. WOO..friggin..HOO! Then.. in my sales meeting, I said my goal this year was to be more aggressive with the 'big dogs'. Well, I've been practicing it, with good results. Today, I got the 3rd largest company in Cali (that buys our stuff) to talk to me. He said they've heard good things about us, he's interested, needed me to quote some stuff, yadda yadda. WOOT. The downside, another local customer that didn't like me.. cause I gave her X pricing, and then her CSR gave her another pricing.. and so she thought I was ripping her off. Long story, but she thought I was the bad guy, cause my pricing was right and I made them stick to it. So she won't even talk to me, but she called the CSR and said she's coming in today to get some quotes. CSR told me she'd handle it, but I was like damn you may as well take the account, if she won't even talk to me, I shouldn't be making money off of her. I get tired of these local people.

I ordered mine from SnackAisle.com -- Your Online Source for All Natural Snacks (I also got some froofroo organic food there) It's Seapoint Farms Lightly Salted. They're roasted I assume, they're crunchy and remind me of eating a pistachio with a better texture. This is my new b'fast, I normally have coffee or frap for b'fast, but the protein in this is so high and they're easy to eat.

Haydee- Yes I got it, I'm going to send you an example of what I have to do this week, and see if you're able to help me out I get the assignments every Monday and they are due the following Sunday. GOOD LUCK JEN!!!!!!! I'm getting toward the end of my 5 days no BM, and stomach hurts. Our home builders had to come by this morning, our kitchen door leaks water (has since we moved in).. this is 2nd time they've come to 'fix' it. I watched White Noise 2 with my mom last night. Anyone seen 1 or 2? Uh.. 2 had absolutely NOTHING to do with White Noise, not like they portrayed White Noise to be in 1. So the 2nd one is about a guy with a near death experience, that can see when someone is going to die, and saves them.. and it ends up on 3rd day satan posseses their body and they kill lots of people. It was a decent movie, interesting story line.. but had absolutely nothing to do with White Noise, so I am confused why it's.. White Noise 2. American Idol was a hoot!! I started it at 1am (way past my bedtime), and got about 1 hour and 40m in, before I passed out. So I still have some more to see. Poor Temptress. And who the hell names their kid Temptress? Did she name her sister Hussy? Slut? Skank? Crazy people.

Well here's my dilemma. Each week there's like 20 assignments. About 15 of them are words in the book, or assignments online, where I can use the translator (online) to get an 80% or better. Then there's a handful of assignments each week, where you have to LISTEN to something in spanish. Oh dear. I couldn't even pronounce this stuff if I tried, much less understand a single word they are saying. So you listen to the audio, then have to answer questions (responses, or observations from the audio) in spanish. And therein lies my problem. It's asking me if Maria did yadda yadda, and I didn't even hear them say Maria in the audio!! So confusing. Anyway, I need someone to listen to the audio and translate answers for me on the audio stuff. POR FAVOR!

LOL. I didn't realize that.. too funny, I always thought it was cause Texans are tough and scary :cool: Well.. supposedly.

Way to go Suzie!!!! This is for any fluent spanish speaking v's, but directed toward Pam just because I know you're on a lot and I'd be able to contact you.. Anyway, I have a proposition for you.. (I NEED HELP). So if you could PM me if you want to help me with Spanish? :cool: I'll pay, although what I'm offering won't mean anything to you with your BMW lol.

A couple years ago I had an abnormal pap, they said it was pre-cervical cancer.. According to my mom, that meant I had an STD. According to the docs, it could be HPV.. but they said you can't test for it, so they don't know. I had to do a biopsy and blah blah.. 6 months later it was gone, and has never come back. So I don't know what it was, or if it was HPV, but from my understanding, if that's what it was.. it would come back occasionally. I was not promiscuous, so I was really in disbelief that I had an STD. My husband is the only person I have slept with in 5 years. This was about 4 years ago.

Good tip!! I should be wearing red.. I'm wearing a very frumpy outfit today. A pair of jeans that are too big (with a tight belt), and a sweater.. I call it the 'boyfriend sweater', I stole it from my brother when we were kids, I wear it as a PJ top. It's size 4xl TALL.. so it swallows me whole, and it's Ralph Lauren. And my hair is pulled up in a messy bun. Anyway, I look dumpy today, I hate being in between sizes and running out of things that fit. I notice when I get discouraged with clothes, I lack the ambition to fix hair & make up. I don't have walk-in customers on a regular basis since most of our clientel are out of state.. but of course, today when I'm dumpy.. someone walks in, and she was so put together in her dress and fancy hair, nails and jewelry. And then there's me. I keep making an effort to look nicer at work, but then all the 'nice clothes' stop fitting, and nothing looks worse than a fancy business attire 2 sizes too big. Well of course, dumpy jeans & 'boyfriend sweater' don't exactly scream 'got it together'. I was 249.2 last night. DOH! All my snacking is catching up to me.

Hah hah, when I did the foreign exchange program to Australia/New Zealand.. it was 20 kids from Alabama, 20 kids from Texas. And boy, did we both represent. Our group was all rednecks, and the Texas group was all cowboys!! They had the big belt buckles, tight jeans.. it cracked me up. And I have a magnet on my fridge one of them gave me "Don't Mess with Texas!", that's the state motto isn't it?