Daisalana

Welcome back Tracy!! We need pictures!!! More than just 1! You were gone like.. forever!

I had it too, it's a lot easier than the first surgery. Good luck )

Speaking of books and no time, I got the Water for Elephants book a couple weeks agoish.. still haven't been able to pick it up. Today I've received a call from Africa, Netherlands, and a current customer that is Indian. No one speaks English well. My brain is fried and it's not even noon yet!

You guys sound like you got the lucky malfunction. I had to go off my birth control for surgery, so 1 month pre-op I was bleeding like a stuck pig. During surgery, they had taped a massive maxi-pad to my butt! This continued another month-ish till the b/c re-regulated me.

Ok, we're doin' it then. V's NO SNACKING, NO SUGAR!! If you feel tempted, come here, and we'll poke you with sticks teehee. As for my belly, it's quite disgusting actually.. I'll have to take pics tonight to make you feel better Jane lol. If I pull the skin, it's like a wrinkled deflated HUGE loaf of bread on my tummy.. and the bottom pannis thing, is noticable and not budging. I have to wear restricting panties to hold it in.

Hey V's just checkin' in real quick before headin to bed. WOOHOO MICHELLE!! And thank you guys, I don't recognize myself at all in pics anymore, I'm so excited, I keep asking DH.. do I really look like that?! Denise I like the posing! Woowoo and building a house is so fun! (and a headache at times, yea?) They built this new outdoor mall & fancy schmancy movie theatre, so me mom, dad, and DH went to the theatre.. saw 10,000 BC. I don't recommend it. I give it 2 thumbs way down. But, we got VIP seats, which is up on a balcony, in recliners, 21+ only, has a bar, wine tasting, and a fancy restaurant that serves you in your seats. That was interesting. I had chili before I went, so I just smelled the sushi lol. But the movie, boring.. long.. and boring. Ok let's make tomorrow a good day!!! Are you guys with me?? LOTS OF WATER, NOT LOTS OF SNACKING!

Hey guys, just poppin' in to show you guys my pics from today (my monthly B&A). My face pics, I am amazed. I don't recognize myself, that's not who I see in the mirror. These pics look like I distorted them.. but I didn't!! IT'S ME!

-99lbs. 1 more stinkin pound. Here we go..

Oh Pam I AM SO JEALOUS!!!!!! I have wanted to go to the Winchester Mystery mansion since I was like 8 ROFL. I've watched all kinds of documentary things on it, it looks so friggin cool. Was it as cool in person? Tell me all about it!!

I HAVE to. I went from 26/28 to 15.. 5xl to 1xl! My trick is, I buy clearance items.. I look at oldnavy.com, torrid.com, fashionbug (whatever their website is), the fashionbug store here, etc. I find their clearance, and have found really awesome stuff for cheap (mostly tops). Things from $2-$8.. then use a discount coupon code I find from google for free shipping, or % off, etc. The only thing I am spending a bit of money on is jeans. I have jeans I love, and Alloy.com is only place that sells jeans to fit my body (i have no hips/butt.. and tall). So I buy 3 pairs a month ($40 each approx.) in a new size, and rotate down.

Gah! Get Bobster in there, you're there to beat him into shape hehe. WWJD!! -- I'm gonna actually keep up with the blog in my signature! I posted a new one today, so I can keep track of how I'm feeling. I get so wishy washy!!

Due to my situation, my doctor now places all of his patient's ports in my 2nd location. I was the first person he's had flip the port, so as a preventative. I have spent some time trying to decide when it happened. There's a couple ideas, especially since fills never worked, it means I flipped it early on! The first couple days post-op, I pulled a muscle (was not takin pain meds, held my body in funny ways), and thought I had a blood clot. Went to the ER, and it was nothing, but in retrospect, this pain may have been when I popped my port out of place. Then shortly after I got married, and got food poisoning on my honeymoon. I was heaving something horrible (and was afraid my band was going to slip!). A fluro done afterward showed it was fine-- but fills weren't working. So I think it's one of those 2 times. It could have been something else, but I wondered the same.

Shoes too tight can do that. If you move your feet a lot in too-tight shoes (and exercising could make them swell on top of that) it would cut off circulation. Could also just be poor circulation in general. Try shoes that are more comfortable.

I was shocked Danny was sent home. I haven't liked his singing till this week, and I was wow'd by how he sang tainted love (he does move weird though!). The first guy who sang this week, I don't even know who he is, I don't recognize him everytime he starts.. I am surprised he didn't go home!! I wasn't surprised by the Queen singer going, his voice is limited, although I thought he sounded awesome singing Queen Killer!! The girls have been very forgettable to me, so I don't remember who is who to know if who went home were any good or not.. I guess I'm just surprised elvira is still there.

Aging gracefully is over-rated!

Kat- Sounds fun!! Cirque's are amazing, even the travelling ones. I assume it's Route 66? We wanted to see Carlos Mencia when he came there, it sold out like on day 1!!

Teehee, I was just reading. Did dishes, took one of my mid-terms 82%.. I'll take it! Got 2 more to go. I'm about to go to my parents for Survivor. Me & Dad have made a tradition of it. He said my g'parents are coming and bringing dinner so not to eat, meanwhile I'm starving.. so I'm eating 2tbsp of peanut butter out of a bowl.. num num num. Kat- Yeah I'm still checking some info, they said there is no correlation with pregnancy problems 2 months after being off of the drug, which of course, is my main concern. I want to 'start' next year. Brochure says 1 month after taking the meds, the doc said 2 months. Giving birth was actually one thing I worried about these things with. They ooze.. and I had seen some birth show where the woman had an STD so they had to do special stuff to protect the baby.. They are highly susceptible to bacterial infections aren't they? And I think ultimately whatever is wrong with my skin is a bacterial thing, which is why the less invasive treatment is antibiotics (that don't work for me!). Just a train of thought, I always worried they would make me do a c-section because of my hideous nether places. I really have my hopes set on natural! Ok gotta run!

Wow, I never shared a dessert pre-band. I'd give DH evil looks if he wanted to try it. :eek: Now I forgo the dessert and taste his

The stitches aren't dissolvable. The port has little holes at the base, for them to stitch it to your muscle. My guess is when it flips, you popped a stitch (i would think at least 2 would need to be broken)and the port twists around. In my case when he moved it, he said he 'put extra stitches'.

Honestly, none of the girls did 'it' for me this week. Normally, I don't care much for the guys, but love the girl's night. This year I don't have any girl I particularly like, and none of them wowed me last night, opposed to 4 guys that really wowed me.

Adding 1/4c of really strong black coffee or expresso makes those even better hehe.

Anddd I been MIA. Last night, oy. I was so tempted to call one of you guys, I was so distraught. Through sleeping I've calmed down so not going to get into it now. I went to the dermatologist about my issues.. She gave it a name.. Hidradenitis...and it's "more common than I think" (however after googling it only affects 1-2% of people.. that's pretty damn low). She said it has to do with my sweat glands. Anywho, the weird part, the drug she wants me to take for it, I have to take for 4-6 months. But to take this medicine, you have to comply with this government program, called iPledge (Committed to Pregnancy Prevention). Apparently if you get pregnant on this drug, it causes birth defects.. she was saying babies born without heads, without brains, without eyes, etc. There was such a problem with women getting pregnant on it, they made this program.. gotta go for 2 pregnancy tests every month just to get 1 month prescription, sign a contract that I will use 2 forms of contraceptives while I am on it, etc. It's kind of freakin me out. They wouldn't let me leave till I peed on a stick (My first test, next one is when they do labs..which has to be when I'm menstruating to prove I'm not pregnant sheesh). I peed on one pregnancy test, but didn't have to go, so wasn't enough to make it work.. then she gave me a glass of water, I was trying to down it quick, and my chest was hurting.. then I spit up a whole cup of water.. I can't do that stuff in the mornings! I finally was able to pee enough to turn that thing into a negative. I think I'm going to do this drug to try to fix my issue, after 4-6 months on it I should be 'better', and a month or so later It's ok to get pregnant again. Then me and DH took his car to get an estimate for the accident we were in, DH kept thinking it was gonna be $100-200 and I'm like uh it'll at least be 1k.. he didn't believe me. $1,400. I was right!

DH who is an atheist sent me this, I thought it was neat.. and interesting since he & I debate science vs. religion all the time. "Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ." The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand. "You're a Christian, aren't you, son?" "Yes sir," the student says. "So you believe in God?" "Absolutely." "Is God good?" "Sure! God's good." "Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?" "Yes." "Are you good or evil?" "The Bible says I'm evil." The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment. "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?" "Yes sir, I would." "So you're good...!" "I wouldn't say that." "But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't." The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?" The student remains silent. "No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax. "Let's start again, young fella Is God good?" "Er...yes," the student says. "Is Satan good?" The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No." "Then where does Satan come from?" The student : "From...God..." "That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?" "Yes, sir." "Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?" "Yes." "So who created evil?" The professor continued, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil." Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: "Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?" The student: "Yes." "So who created them?" The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. "Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. "Tell me," he continues onto another student. "Do you believ e in Jesus Christ, son?" The student's voice is confident: "Yes, professor, I do." The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?" "No sir. I've never seen Him" "Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?" "No, sir, I have not." "Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?" "No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't." "Yet you still believe in him?" "Yes." "According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?" "Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith." "Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith." The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. "Professor, is there such thing as heat?" "Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat." "And is there such a thing as cold?" "Yes, son, there's cold too." "No sir, there isn't." The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain. "You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it." Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer. "What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?" "Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn't darkness?" "You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?" The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. " So what point are you making, young man?" "Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed." The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed? Can you explain how?" "You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains. "You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it." "Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?" "If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do" "Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?" The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed. "Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?" The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided. "To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean." The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?" The class breaks out into laughter. "Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?" Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. "I guess you'll have to take them on faith." "Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life," the student continues. "Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?" Now uncertain, the professor responds, "Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil." To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light." The professor sat down.

When I first saw it, I thought she was measuring her boob and comparing it to an apple.. I don't know why she'd be doing that, but to this day when I don't know where to go read and I am looking at her pic, I still wonder what the heck she is doing!

me me! I never felt restriction, so by 5 months out they decided I had a leak. Back into surgery, they realized the port had flipped 180. It was right above my belly button.. they moved it to between my boobs (you can see the locations in the pics in my blog). I'm much happier with it there honestly, no one but me & dh would ever see it, cause boobs canopy tops out, so even if I get skinny, it won't protrude. It doesn't move at all anymore.. I can easily feel the entire thing, which means my doc can get right in too. And lastly, when I move and do weird stuff with my body, my port is sitting in one spot, not jiggling and heaving with my stomach.