Daisalana

((Jenn)) You don't need him to define who you are anyway, so if Aug 1 is when you're ready to let go, make sure you let it go that day. Move on, worry about you and only you, and the rest will fall into place!! Just got out of a long hot bath, spent the past 2 days helping my mom clean up my sister's house.. oh my god. When my bro & his gf did this crap, they were living in my parents' house, so it was just 1 room of junkie crap/mess to clean.. my sister had a whole 3 bedroom, 2 bath, and 2 garage to funk up. I couldn't even explain the garbage, stench, funk, and everything else. We did 3 moving trucks completely full to the brim with trash yesterday, today we hauled out about 15 heavy duty size garbage bags of dirty clothes (I think she has never washed clothes, she just bought new ones).. clothes and funk were stacked everywhere. I am wore out. We went to the visitation today and I have to say.. she's not who I thought she was.. I moved out of state at 17 for college, and by time I moved back (2 years ago) is when she grew up and got into drugs..so the times I thought she was clean, she is a quiet mopey person.. ends up, it's just drugs.. she's been on drugs since I've been back (I knew weed, but apparently it's more serious than I ever realized)..so it was amazing, she smiled a lot, laughed, had things to talk about.. so not the person I knew. I also told her how, *I* was the one to clean out her nightstands and dispose of all her...goodies... wow, the girl has a collection.. plastic gloves and all I had to unscrew them and dispose.. She laughed.. laughed! Poor Russell was helping bag clothes with me and ran into a bunch of used condoms (I don't know/!??!?).. Good news is, after today mom told me since I busted my ass to help her (boy did I, my whole body aches).. she is taking Russell & I to Tunica on their treat.. they always get the hotel and food for free, but they're actually going to give us money to gamble with.. that was nice.. We still have a long way to go on the house though.. lots of bleach.. I'll stop rambling now, I am hungry and tired.. going to go make something to eat and curl up with Pogo & a movie! Miss you guys, wish I could tell you guys about this with a cup of tea & some smokes on the back porch!

((Terry)) Why doesnt mary jo take any insurance? Thats bull crap!!

Good news is I lost 2 of the 3lbs I gained back already :thumbup:)

Yeah Haydee post the insight you get, cause I still can't get up the nerve to go to someone. I am good about not buying the crap most the time, my problem is.. when I DO buy the crap, I can't limit myself! I have no boundaries with it. But before I buy the crap, if I try to talk myself out of it, I normally can. Just like bread with meals, I keep telling Russell (now that he is low-carbing) to remember to tell them DON'T BRING BREAD.. if they bring bread, I gotta try to eat it, then I either get sick or too full, etc.. and it's not something I need to fill up on. I'm an out-of-sight, out-of-mind kind of person. If I make an effort not to buy the gallon of ice cream, I'm good.. if I buy it, I eat it all no matter what my good intentions are. And thanks Pam! I missed it last time, probably skimmed over it. I never eat fish, so this is a new thing to me. I almost bought fish last weekend, but here's my thing.. I love shrimp--only from Red Lobster. I love crab legs ANYWHERE. I like scallops at japanese restaurants & Red Lobster. If I buy crab, scallops, or shrimp, fresh from the grocers, bring it home and cook it.. its crap, I've never once liked it. Even when I do garlic butter, or sautee, bake, etc.. it never tastes like it does in restaurants. So me & fish, I thought about buying it.. but I have never liked seafood I make, would fish be any different?

Awww cute pics Haydee, Russell is the same way, his 'big smile' looks just like that lol. Your sister is doing great!! Your parents made some pretty ladies. Is Juan popping out of his shirt in that last pic?? I just had salmon again for lunch. This time at TGIF's.. yuck. It was old tasting, extremely fishy and 8 wedges of lemon didn't knock that back at all.. I ate through about 3oz just to fill up.. yum yum protein :thumbup:

The WSOP has started airing on ESPN, they are starting with the small tourneys.. my dad said they broadcast the main event (that he was in) starting sometime in August. I'll let you know, I told him to tell me so I can TiVo it.. they recorded him quite a bit, so he should be on there at least some. He ended up winning $42,000 for 128th place. But I should say after he finished, and before he could catch a plane home he ended up hitting some video poker machines for another $10k.. it's good to be him! And because of his earnings, he is actually at the dealership right now buying my mom the new 2009 eclipse.. (she had the 2004, and I have the 2004 convertible version).. now she's 1-upping me again.

I went to see Mamma Mia last night, and I can't break the cycle of small popcorn in butter & candy at the movies. Although, I limited myself to HALF of the small popcorn (which is so small, they always go "You realize it is this small?" and holds up a tiny bag everytime I ask for it).. and I did get Junior Mints.. I held out and held out on eating them. Finally opened the box on my drive home, and about 4 junior mints in, came the sliming!! So I was spitting up popcorn & junior mints into the junior mint box (only thing in the car!).. so no candy for me lol. I had figured it in dailyplate before I left though, and even with the whole popcorn and half junior mints, I would be well within my calories for the day (thanks to the salmon!). Haydee you look gorgeous!!! How fun!!! I am bridesmaid in a wedding next March, and her original color was navy blue for us (which is great).. then she emailed not too long ago and it's now APPLE RED. I've been nervous, I don't want to look like an APPLE.. but after seeing that orange color, I see the bright colors aren't as bad as I thought they would be. In fact, you all look gorgeous!!

I had SALMON for lunch.. uhm.. never eaten salmon before (not a fan of fish), but decided I'd make myself like it. And with about 10 wedges of lemon squeezed on it, it wasn't bad. Also had brocc & cheese casserole, and only allowed myself 1/2 of the order. Had 2 bottles of water & unsweet tea so far.

We just had a weirdo come in, and it's on our cameras (may be one of those 'stupidest criminals' kind of thing). Cops just left.. we're in an area that is all businesses-- that don't deal with customers/cash in person, so if you robbed any of the businesses out here, you'd be out of luck.. but apparently they're looking for computers & purses. Anyway, this guy comes in, reception area is empty (her computer is there and her purse is under the desk)..he paces around, looks up and down both hallways, then checks out the desk.. then he sees.. our camera. He scopes around, paces some more, then moves a chair to the camera, jumps up and starts moving the camera. At that moment, the owner comes out and sees him coming from behind the desk.. so she asks him what he wants and he said he wants an application..she gives it to him, he leaves, so she checked the cameras to see what he was doing behind the desk.. and we have him doing everything I just said on camera.. derrrr. And even more funny, he signed our guestbook.. may be a fake name, but still why would you sign in. So cops came out and looked it over, there's been a lot of stolen computers in the area lately and he fits the description. Frankly, if I was robbing a place--- saw the camera after pacing for 5 minutes.. I'd leave. Not move the camera, after it's already seen you. I don't know why this area is getting targetted, I guess since there's nothing out here.. not a lot of traffic.

YAY Haydee!! Isn't that awesome? My first flight after losing weight (Feb, to NYC) I was in tears too.. I used my cell phone to take a picture of me CROSS LEGGED, IN MY SEAT, and LOTS OF ROOM on my seatbelt left over. I was so excited. Can't wait to see the pics from the wedding! I had a fun moment, since we're all women I had a feeling you would laugh too. I have this small customer, who does very little work, and we denied him credit because he runs the business out of his house. It's an old man & wife. I use to deal with the wife, with no problem. I haven't heard from her in over a year, and I have decided she probably left him! Well, to try to make this long story short.. I am his sales, his CSR is a woman, and the owner of our company is a woman. The new CSR manager is a guy. So this guy was being a jerk to his CSR, so the CSR manager (male) talked to the guy-- he was still a jerk to him, but CSR manager said he got the feeling this guy doesn't like women. He isn't paying for a job and we keep reminding him we won't ship till we get payment. He tells his CSR he wants "The owner to call him first thing in the morning". Owner does NOT like to get involved, she only did because she heard he doesn't like women. So she calls him, and he says "I am busy, I will call you back later". He then, immediately emails the CSR and says (in caps) "I TOLD YOU YESTERDAY TO HAVE THE GENTLEMAN CALL ME THAT I TALKED TO LAST TIME"... No, no he didn't. Hah. I'm cracking up. We're going to send him the partial payment back and tell him to go blow it out his a$$.

TracyK- didn't you post not too long ago you were back to 200lbs?? Now you're at 182 already?? Did I miss something?!?! That's right TracyM, being fat was a defining thing in my life, and with that gone sometimes I feel like I need to do something. Everyday I was gorging on candy, I wasn't stopping, but I would try to figure out why I was doing it.. I thought, maybe I'm about to lose another pound and my body is in resistance.. maybe I like losing weight and since I've slowed down, if I get fat again, I can go through it all over again (what kind of messed up logic is that??).. or maybe I just had crazy sweet tooth cravings, nothing was getting stuck in my band, and I just wanted to EAT. Maybe I'll never know, but who is with me to take TODAY one day at a time?!?! WE CAN DO IT YEEEEHAWWWWWW!

Oh and the candy did catch up to me, I'm at 224lb.. now up 3lb in 3 days.. heh.

I am back on the daily plate, logging info. I 'calculated' what I need to eat to lose 2lbs a week, it says 2010 calories, but I'm aiming for 1,700. I had ribs and corn at Cracker Barrell.. and HALF of a root beer float.. ate the corn and like 1 bite of the ribs.. so tallied up in daily plate and I did about 1,400 calories. Good day for me. Motivates me to see it written down, that I did ok. Tracking makes me accountable, maybe some of you struggling should try doing it (or doing it again if you use to) to see how it could help. Talked to mom tonight about sister going into rehab, apparently it's worse than I thought.. she's been snorting oxycoton and heroin for months, so she's actually going through the withdrawals, etc.. they have her in detox right now.. she'd broken her hand several times in the past couple of months, apparently so she could get pain meds. Crazy stuff, mom put my name on the small list of people allowed to 'call and leave notes' for my sister, and can visit on Sundays.. so guess I'll call tomorrow and leave some inspirational quote.. she said they write it down and post it on the bulletin for them. I still am amazed my sister got into drugs after watching our brother go through this. He got off the hardcore drugs (or did for a while anyway, I question it these days) and he went from a smart funny guy to literally like.. an imbocele (sp??). He's just plain stupid now, he literally fried his brain.. and its a sad thing to see.. rambling. LETS MAKE TOMORROW EVEN BETTER YA'LL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To those of you asking (aw, makes me feel speshul), I am still here.. but I am having problems with my last semester for this degree and 3 weeks to go.. and work is entering busy season.. so I have been MIA.. I only pop into my monthly group right now, and that's not even often.. So if you need anything, PM me!! Otherwise, I'll be back to haunting the rest of the forum in August :thumbup:)

3 bottles of water, 1 glass of unsweet tea, 1 cup of broc & cheese soup, and about 5 bites of chef salad. Tonight is bowling (whew, some exercise) and Cracker Barrell night.. going to go with something not so bad, I normally get the blueberry pancakes and eat 1/2 of one.. going to go for more protein and less carbs. I WILL DO IT!! And no special candy from their store.. use to be I allowed Wed. night to be my special treat, either a dessert or candy from their store.. but I gotta quit with the sweet tooth crap!!!

MMMMMM cupcakes!!!! :smile: :thumbup: My brother keeps calling me "hey skinny"... but apparently according to his fiance he refers to me as the 'beanpole' now. YAH HAH.. I'm a friggin beanpole.. and I don't know what's changed lately, like the asking how much I lost, making compliments, etc. died down for months (understandably).. and I'm not losing anymore at the moment, just maintaining (and maybe gaining), but the past few days I've had a lot of people say stuff.. 2 people asked how much more I planned to lose, when I said 40lb they said "No way, you don't have 40lbs to lose".. heh! People have been goign "WOW, how much have you lost?!", And then bro's fiance told me today I need to start eating. Not sure what's changed lately, I'm not going down sizes or losing weight.. so.. uhm.. ?????

I'm committing to taking today 1 day at a time.. about to order lunch and I'm going with a sensible chef salad!

Hey V's.. I solved the problem, I ate the last of the reese cups and snickers last night.. :/ Dumpster=my mouth! I'm still working on my Anatomy class every free moment I get, doing online study tests and taking a crapload of notes. I'm finished with all other classes homework/quizzes for the week. My last day will be Aug.1 --- day before JAMAICA. I have to take all 4 finals that day, they're suppose to be while I'm in Jamaica but all my teachers agreed to open it early for me. Just got some shitty news on work front, one of our old big customers (they do CD & DVD manufacturing) installed their own presses. A lot of our customers print with us, then ship to them for assembly & disks.. well, this old customer is now actively stealing our accounts from us, some of our best accounts (they are in NY and a lot of our business is up there). The only thing we can hope for is they fall on their face because CD manufacturing is a lot different from printing, and the busy season starts in August so they'll be overwhelmed. I just hope this happens. I'm so mad, I have had customers calling all morning giving me the pricing they've got, how they like us and want to stay loyal but pricing blah blah, plus they wouldn't have to ship from here to NY. Grrr. Damn people.

Hey V's, just popped in to confess. It's killin me, I need someone to tell me to STOP! With class problems (I've never failed before, I'm on self-destruct mode).. and then PMS hit like a sonofagun.. and ends up sister is going to rehab for drugs.. jeez. Anyway, been a heckuva week.. I bought a BAG of snickers & reese cups. Let me tell you what I ate yesterday: B'fast: glass of milk Lunch: Chips & Salsa & Chips dipped in broc & cheese soup Dinner: About 8 reese cups, 7 snicker bars, a whole movie theater size box of bunchacrunch, and a small popcorn with enough butter to drown a small child. Medium Mt. Dew (ack?!) In Bed Snack: Peanut M&M's and more reese cups --- Night before, I actually ate so much candy I got SICK.. and it was more than yesterdays list. 20 minutes after gorging on candy, it wasn't band talking, I actually just got nauseated and heaved for a while... It's gross, I don't know what I'm doing?!?!?!? I keep saying, I am going home and tossing the bags of candy, this is ridiculous I lost all sense of will power.. DH didn't say one word because as I bought the candy I made a comment about killer PMS so he's not going to try to stop me. Ok what is wrong with me, why am I doing this? :eek: :w00t: I actually weighed myself last night, 222lb. 1lb (so far). ARGH. Stupid me, stop stop. I have 3 weeks left till the composite test for this last anatomy test.. last week was Urinary System (then I take a quiz.. made a 70).. this week is Digestive system--which thank god actually makes more sense because I read about this stuff with diets, then a quiz this week.. next week I don't know what we're doing yet (it's not released till the Monday), then a quiz.. and beginning of August is the last composite test over these 3 systems.

Moon- Maybe that's why I had never heard of Malipur before!! He must have changed his mind, when he was at the hospital when I was in the ER, he was trying to get info on how much I liked my current fill doctor, etc.. and I told him I was happy where I was. If I didn't love my Anniston doc, I'd be going to Malipur.

(((Terry))) Sorry about your mom, and I don't have anything to say about it, I just am sorry. My Granny, though it was funny for a while(we just call it Granny moments) I think she's got Alzheimers and she's going downhill.. we're having her doctor check on her next appointment, she's starting to do the scary things, and it's just sad to watch.. especially when you remember a time when they were a firecracker! I've been MIA because I'm STUDYING for this damn class. I have had a headache for days straight. The good news is, I am going to DARK KNIGHT tonight.. I am very excited. My sister is in one of her funks again, I told ya'll how she moved in with her new girlfriend in 24 hours.. the girl moved from TN to live with her, sister has been missing her ex.. lots of fighting and crying, sister is back to suicidal. I keep telling her, she needs to love herself before she goes getting engaged to every girl she meets. She always ignores me, but that is her problem. She relies on someone else to define her with relationships, couldn't spend a minute single, and so when relationships are bumpy or don't work (as relationships often are!) she has nothing to feel good about. She needs to get a job and find her self worth.. Anyway... I'm at work, long Monday!

ohhh denise they got it up so quick!! it's GORGEOUS, i love it!!! And look at skinny you!!!!

Haha Michelle!! First time in my life I was in a phone store today- AT&T..Russell is getting the new Iphone for his b'day.. but I always pick out what I want and someone orders it for me (phone goes through the company) How ironic though you went too.. We go in, million people, we put our name on a list and sat around an hour till someone helped us, I was like "So uh is this how it always is?" heh.. that sucked, then they don't have it, we had to order it.. wish they told us that when we walked in!!! And Michelle I'll get back to you on the PM, I have been thinking about it since you asked earlier.. and for the length of the strap my current fav. purse is perfect length, should I measure it and let you know? Would that work?

Derrr Astronomy.. hah yeah my mind is moosh.