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Hi Anne- I am an emotional person any how. But now I think I need to go on Prozac or something. I have been tanning which I do think helps me emotionally. But eating I know I am eating more than I should be or thought I could. Not because I am attempting to push the envelope but I still feel hungry after I eat. Probably not taking enough time and I am so conditioned to drinking while eating it is hard to give that up too. Uggghhhh its Friday I think I will catch a movie hopefully a good one. Have a great weekend Anne and you keep up the good work and attitude. Terri

Really that is great! Isn't it strange that I am happier for you and your 12 lbs than I am my wieght loss. I do think this has been a lousy week. Hormones, funeral, work, my birthday YUK. I have been pretty irritated by just about everything. Well actually the funeral is this afternoon so that will be over today. But your loss is great! I know how much trouble you went through to get your surgery. You are right. I have found my self over eating lately way less that what was normal but more than I thought I should eat. But I still felt hungry? Are you feeling that way???? I have to get some work done before I have to leave for the day. Ann I am so happy for you and your loss! (that sounds strange-but good) Terri

Good luck on your banding! Yay! I would love to come to Florida actually hoping to get down there for Easter break along with all the other snow birds. But I can't go and not take my daughter or there would be a real war. haha. And ooooh 15 year old son at 15 I know what that is .... trouble. Hopefully he will be real supportive for you. My daughter is good most of the time. I bought her some new clothes today so she should like me today and it is my 39th birthday so I suppose she will be nice today. Thanks for the pick me up and I wish you success on your weight loss journey. Terri

Thank you your right I have laid the foundation and I am just her cheerleader now. It is so hard because it is just her and I. I miss her wanting to be with me. And I hate the glares and the time wasted arguing. She is a good kid (to the best of my knowledge) that does not drink, smoke or have carnal knowledge of any one (I think and hope). I would like to think she would talk to me about issues but not so sure about much right now. Except I need to lose weight, make some money and go on a vacation to some where sunny. Those are for sures. Thanks Sue for your words of wisdom. Greatly appreciated. thanks

Yes I know they said that several times today at the doctor. Thank you for taking the time out to boost my spirits today. First let me tell you my mindset right now and the past week. I turn 39 tomorrow. It is that time of the month (I am very moody & irritable) I am a single mom of a 15 year old daughter and she well kind of hates me right now. My family is meaning well but they are driving me crazy. I think they are being too supportive (does that even make sense?) I am in sales which is a roller coater ride all by itself and I feel like I am in a sales slump. So that means no income coming in. And I know it is not a competition but the lady I was at the dr with today and had surger 2 days before me lost 10 lbs more than me. I know boo hoo, healing. I know I just feel really crappy lately. I have lost 16 total pounds since I started this and that is great. I really am happy about that. I think I just need some sunshine and a break. So hopefully after the hormones re-adjust I will feel better. Right now I am just a Bitch. Thank you for your time and comfort.

Hi thank you for contacting me. I should have probably been asking for help and asking others of their experience since my last post. I have been depressed. I feel like I am not losing like I should be. I feel bloated and sad. I am going to the doctor tomorrow for my 1 month check up. I have been beating myself up and struggling with this all. But I will let you know how it goes with the doctor tomorrow. Thanks for thinking of me. Terri

I did not have any idea of what had happened to you. What a ride. I thought you went the day after me. But I have not seen a post recently so I hope you are recovering wonderfully. Yes this site is so wonderful for support. I wish you the very best and I am so glad your insurance came too. I am a week ahead so you can always share with me. Hope you are feeling better from surgery.

But I have not asked any one. I don't understand everyones weight things at the bottom of the emails. Obviously you get it since you have one in your post. How does that work? I am in denial that I let me self get as large as I have and struggle with the idea that I am this large person. So until I am maybe feeling a bit better I don't want to put it out there for all to see. I feel a little selfish being everyone is so out there and supportive on this website/post thing. What ever it is. It is great for mental support. But can you explain it to me since I for some reason dont get it. My guess is. First number is your heaviest/ second your current wieght and / third your goal? but I am not sure. Terri

It is so hard. I can not even begin to imagine not smoking (the marlboro, diet coke, food & carb loving) and being in the same house as a smoker. Even for a short visit. I think I am a minimum of 3-4 weeks away from being around a smoker. Even that might be too soon. I talked with a friend of mine today and we were supposed to meet up to sell some of her property and I asked her if she wouldn't smoke around me. I am in too fragile of a state of mind and body. I have only made it this far with the coke and food because of the surgery. And I guess I have some will power some where because I could smoke but just like the weight I feel it is life or death and miraculously I am choosing life. Watch me kick it this week. That would suck. But I turn 39 mar 3 and by my 40th birthday I want a tummy tuck & new boobs. And a lift or suck here or there if I need one. But I want to lose all the weight I can and get a new lift on life at 40. So big 1 year goal here. I share all of your evil vices and I have made it so far with out any of them since Jan 31. Hang in there.

It sounds like you are talking from experience. I was just sitting here talking to my mom about it and I was a little teary eyed. All of this is really tough at one time. But my reasoning for all of it is I want to live! and I would like some quality in my life. Feeling good, bike riding, water skiing, etc. All of those things I really used to love that some how faded away with layers of fat. I am a bit emotional and have been working in my job quite hard. I had 4 people call me who wanted market analyisis's done. I did them all and they were quite difficult and time consuming. ( I work very hard for all my customers) and every one cancelled on me. I spent a good part of last week and worked over the weekend to have really good stuff for these people and everyone cancelled. It is so tough. I don't think people realize how much work goes into one of those. And unfortunatly seems it was all a waste of time. Oh well that has always happened in this job but everything seems to be bothering me more these days. Alexandra do you think I should be doing protein shakes? At this point. I kind of feel like my body is in stavation mode and hanging on to the fat. Any idea? Thanks for your input and encouragement.

I feel your pain. The agony of the unknown is horrible. Almost worse than the reality. I have been a big time Diet Coke junkie (and I mean junkie) for a long time maybe 20 years! Yikes that makes me so old. I loved it! Probably some what like an alcoholic. Well I drank it like normall right up unil 48 hours before surgery. I suffered for at least a week with horrible headaches ( I think it was caffeine) but I don't really know. Could have been stress, no nicotine too. I am pretty proud of myself. However I have had some pretty bad moments. Where I just want to eat, drink coke and smoke and I feel crazy. I feel as if I have taken it one day and some times one hour at a time. I feel as if I am living on air. And since I quit smoking and had surgery I have had this horrible cough. I don't know if it is chest cold or all the toxins from the nicotine coming out. Well any how I would wean my self off of the pepsi now and deal with the headaches now if you can. But I doubt I could have until they said you have surgery you can never have it agian. That is probably the only reason I gave it up. But I am feeling better about it all. So far I have stayed away from people eating, drinking coke or smoking. I don't think I am quite ready to deal with it in my face. I am in hiding. Good Luck!

I just realized I ahve been posting a new thread every time I try to reply to people. Everyone or any one I am sorry. And Anne thank you we can use all the help we can get. I am going out shopping for some. I will look for it. Thanks! :confused:

Thank you Anne we can use all the help we can get. I am going out shopping for some. I will look for it. Thanks!