So after 2+ years of thinking about this surgery EVERY day and the commitment to change, I have finally scheduled the surgery. I feel a sense of relief that I have made the decision and can now move on. I guess you can't call me "impulsive."
I now have a sense of fear and desire to eat everything before the big day. I am not planning on doing that, but needed to get that out there. Just typing those words helps take out the power of them.