lapbandit777

Hi everyone, Newbie here from Australia, haven't introduced myself - will do eventually but just had to reply to this thread. I can't believe what some people have said to you all, it's amazing how cruel other human beings can be, they need a good lesson in manners! Luckily for myself, I haven't had to deal with a lot of comments to my face (although I am sure they are said behind my back), which in fact is quite surprising because I'm 138kgs (I think thats around 303lbs), and being only 17 (18 in June) and 5"4 it's massive.. I have, however had a lot of problems with my dad. We have never really been close and I find it very hard to talk to him as he doesn't really interact with me, I know he loves me but he has a VERY hard time showing it. Anyway, one time I decided I wanted to try and lose some weight (for the 100th time, lol) and I asked my dad if I could borrow my grandparents exercise bike so I could get myself fit (my dad ALWAYS goes on about exercising) And he kind of went funny and said no and had a little go at me. Well, that made me feel like ABSOLUTE crap and I went home and cried to my mum about it all (my and dad are divorced). I felt so angry and upset because he goes on about exercise and when I finally try he has a go at me. Anyway, my mum ended up talking to him later in the week and he told her that he didn't want me to have it because he thought I would break it! When my mum told me that it made me feel even more crap. I did end up getting the exercise bike and I can proudly say it has NOT broken!!! :woot: Also with my dad, my brother and I will go for lunch, and I will dress myself up (I may be obese but I can still make myself look as nice as possible) and we walk in and they go on and on about how well and fit and wonderful my brother is, but of course won't pay one tiny complement to how I look, not even that my clothes look nice. I know dad's don't really do that all, but even his girlfriend doesn't. All my dad see's is the fat, and once I am thin the complements will come, but I will NEVER forget how he has made me feel for basically most of my life (but mainly since I was about 12) Another thing I hate is sitting infront of people. It's not that I hear if they are talking about me, but I feel so insecure and whenever they laugh, I think they are laughing at me. I'm yet to be banded but I cannot wait and I am hoping for a good self esteem boost as right now I have none, lol. Anyway, I will introduce myself in the introduction section soon, but I just had to post in this thread as a lot of people seem to have trouble with their parents, and my dad is just terrible. He does it out of love, but he doesn't understand how many tears I have cried because of the comments and stares... :woot: Lauren.