shellbell125

that's good. 5 bites? What do you do the rest of the meal? Watch him, or does it take a while to get those 5 bites down? This is going to be so difficult I think.

what happened? did you get dehydrated? By the way I would have killed him.

What about in the beginning while you were still on liquids and mushy foods. I guess it would depend on the restaurant. Some people went out for Chinese food today and I was thinking what would I have eaten here had it been after surgery?

Christine your words are the words in my head. I don't understand it. I look at a picture and I am in total disbelief... there is no way my butt is really that big. I'm aware that I'm big but WHAT? It's crazy! I hope a lot of things that go through my head change with the surgery.

500 Calories? Holy cow that's not many calories at all. Your "cheating" doesn't mean you aren't ready, I think your body is in shock and you did what you thought you needed to do. Especially at tht time of the month. Ugh... I hope tomorrow goes better.

What was the final breaking point that made you decide to go through with this drastic change? WHat made you decide that "this is worth it"? I'm so scared, but I just don't think I can go on like this anymore. Like everyone here, I've tried a million things and I just need to do something. Is this it? I'm going to one of the informational meetings on Tuesday to see what they have to say. I've been reading this site and I am so jealous of the progress everyone has made. It's just amazing. My biggest enemy here is going to be me because #1 I can't make decisions, #2 - I am terrified... TERRIFIED of throwing up and from what I've read you just better be ready to throw up at anytime for any reason. Is it worth it? I don't know... thus problem #1. Anyone?

at beanzilla and aliandrews... you just nailed my life.

Oh my god I don't know whether to laugh or cry because it's so true. If someone is in the handicap stall at work I get so mad. In the little stall I have to be a contortionist. This really isn't funny is it?

Wow, your stories are hitting home like you wouldn't believe. I needed to hear that the surgery isn't taking the "easy" road but is taking the road to living.

milkD that's funny

yeah, I'm about 2 slices of pizza away from 300lbs. I am missing out on so much. Then when I do something I feel terrible the whole time. I'm 34... no husband or kids like so many say they have the support from. I want all that one day.