Hi UTGall99.
I also joined this site recently in my efforts to learn all I can before making the decision to have (or not have) weight loss surgery. Some things about the surgery do freak me out, but some things that I'm predicting for future if I don't have the surgery are just as worrisome.
So, my goal is to gather all the facts, speak to my various doctors for their opinions, learn as much as I can from those who have had the surgery, go to my hospital's information session about the surgery, and then make the best, most informed decision I can make.
Strictly my opinion, but I don't think you should do the surgery until you're absolutely sure and not afraid.