Hi there !
I'm going through the same journey as you right now. Having my band fitted at Dolan Park on 23rd! Yikes! My surgeon is Mr Sigurdsson. I've been through the range of emotions you have. At first I was so fired up after my consultation I could have gad surery right thre an then. But of late ive been wavering a lot. I know I have no option andI need to do it as I've a BMI of 37.5 and my blood pressure was 161/93. You name it ive done. Ive venn gold member of weight watchers. Slimming world guru and just about everything else. Still im lost beneath a physical shape that does not do me justice to the person i am. I've also done just about everything to talk myself out of it. Even prepared myself to lose the money I have paid. But I know that for me this is the only way forward. It will require a massive shift in mind set and attitude. My relationship with food will have to change and that there is no point of me walking into that theatre if I'm going to cheat the band or not address my lifestyle issues. Starting my pre op diet tomorrow. Here goes! Good luck on your journey.