Gettinit2gether

My breaking point.. Well over a year and a half ago I started the process with my insurance, at my 5 month of the 6th month requirements I lost job so bye bye surgery. I thought to myself I've lost 60lbs on my own following the nuts program so I can do this! I get to a total of 90lbs lost from my person and another 160 lost by getting out of a bad relationship and guess what, the weight started piling back on! When I started the insurance process I had a BMI of 45 with some comorbities. About a month ago I started feeling really disgusted with myself. I was fat all thru middle school, high school, and now my 20's. In 6 months I will be 30 and REFUSE to keep being fat! I took my kids to cedar point 2 years ago and couldnt fit in not 1 seat to ride anything! How frustrating, and I never really thought I was that big. I always had this thing that if I ever hit 300 lbs I would sew my mouth closed! I got on the scale about 2 weeks ago now, I am 8lbs from 300. I keep repeating to myself that this isnt happening! My bmi now is 50.68. I have had ENOUGH! I am currently researching surgeons in Mexico. No more waiting and no more putting it off! I'm only waiting long enough to afford my self pay surgery and thats it. It's time for me to start living and being happy. I cannot survive like this!! I have reached the point of no return so I have decided to stick with my decision to get sleeved and to start enjoying life, since it seems I have missed out on alot being fat, not having energy, and being depressed...