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OMG, I have been MIA for how long...& the princess has had a fill (not just one, but more....) I lost touch with you & all my online band friends, my bad! I didn't like the change from lapbandtalk.com to bariaticpal.com so I left. I'm snooping back in because I'm up 20 pounds, feeling frustrated, needing friends that understand.

I call mine Yellow Rose. Love roses.....but watch out for the thorns!

You haven't messed anything up. Not knowing your post op diet, all I can say is you don't have enough fill in your band so as the swelling from surgery goes down the hunger will return.

What a great thread. I haven't changed careers but i have received a promotion since hitting goal. Was it related to my weight loss? I think so. Don't judge a book by its cover...... yea right I've never bought that. Everyone sets an opinion based on what they see. Its human nature. Plus when you add the boost in self confidence. Well only good things can happen.

You look amazing! Congrats to you!!!

Not in San Antonio... close Austin. Would be happy to be a buddy for you. I have been at goal for over a year now. I still struggle with things, currently struggling with recovering from a TT. What are you struggling with?

Thanks everyone for your love & support. I really appreciate it. I go back to the doctor on Monday, so fingers cross that we have good news.

Oh yes I milk the drains all the time. I just have a pocket that will not heal. I haven't done anything wrong, it us just one of those odd complications that can't be explained why.

For an update on how I am doing see my blog: http://www.bariatricpal.com/blog/6866/entry-32996-complications-can-happen-to-anyone/

I have not been around as much lately and several LBT friends have asked why…… I was banded in February of 2012, lost 80 pounds in 10 months and have maintained that weight until I had a tummy tuck on Halloween… After the surgery I had 2 drains, they were removed after 2 weeks. Within 5 days, my tummy filled up with fluid and my doctor drained it (this is like drilling for oil with a really BIG needle….. not fun!). Within about 5 days my tummy was full again so my doctor put a drain back in. The next week the area above my belly button filled up with fluid and I had another drain put in just below my bra line. About a week later I had the upper drain removed & that issue was resolved, BUT…. I was still accumulating over 50cc of fluid a day from my lower drain. Doc said the magic number was less than 20cc a day for 2 days in a row, well that wasn’t happening. So on Monday doc flushed Ethanol thru the tubing of my drain into the pocket in my tummy (100cc total). This is supposed to irritate the area between my skin & abdomen wall and cause it to stick together. Today (Thursday) I am still getting 30cc of fluid a day from my drain…… I go back to the doctor Monday. My options are, do the flush again and if that doesn’t work…..another surgery. Ugh Complications happen, I know that. But, how has this affected me mentally? Well, I can’t exercise (every time I do the amount of fluid goes up), I can’t go in my hot tub with my husband (open incision), Have this glamorous drain to carry around in my pocket….. IT SUCKS! And I have gotten very depressed over it. I have disconnected from my life lines (Local support group, LBT wait I mean Bariatric Pal, and my family) Yes I looked to food for comfort. (We won’t even add the holidays on top of all this….) So you wonder….how is my weight? I am about 10 pound over my original goal weight (I weigh between 177-180, depends on the day). But even more important is how I am mentally? I will be honest, I am struggling. I am pissed, why is this happening to me? What did I do to deserve this? WHY? Oh WHY? OH WHY????? Full on pitty me party here!!!! This is my confession, I am not the perfect role model. I struggle, I have pitty me parties, I ask why me…… and so I stayed away from my support. Too many people saw me as inspiration. How can I be inspiration when I am like this???? I am taking my complications day by day. I am not giving up (& yes the tummy tuck was worth it). I just don’t think I can motivate anyone right now.

Two years on Feb 7th. Been at goal 1 year now. Best thing I've done. Love my band.

Happy New Year to all my WLS friends! May 2014 be bright & health for us all!

KL we are here for you. Terry & Arline gave some good advise, the only thing i would add is look into swimming exercises. I have back trouble and cannot do a lot of strenuous exercise but I find that swimming is easier on my back (it's fun & refreshing too). As for the psychological help, I am a good listener. PM me if you would like to talk. This journey is not easy, the head games are the worst. S hit here it is New Years Eve and I'm online.....afraid to socialize? Partly, yes. I am still trying to figure out the social thing with my new lifestyle. You would think being at goal for a year now it would be a piece of cake.....not for me. It's a struggle every day. Anyway, you have my full support & like I said PM me if you want to talk. Happy New Year! 2014 will be a good year!!