I know how you feel.....recently (5/29) I had surgery to have the band put in but due to an artery in the wrong place they couldn't do it. That was my 1st time under as well. I was very nervous but it was a quick recovery in regards that I had surgery but not completely.
I do have to say I believe it was a blessing in disquise. I am nervous to go with a different option but looking forward to getting on with my life in a more productive way.