a901trecon

I am 49 years old and will be turning 50 in October. I have always been slightly over weight my whole life, well at least I thought I was in High School. I was well endowed upstairs if you know what I mean but only weight 108 lbs at graduation. As I was going through High School my mother constantly belittled me about my weight and compared me to other classmates & friends. In my mind I thought I looked like I was about 200 lbs. It wasn't until I was in my early thirties I resigned to the fact that I was always going to be over weight for the rest of my life and I was just tired of being on some type of diet. I tried every diet programs, pills, hypnosis & exercise program available. My mindset changed and I decided "I am who I am, and if people including family couldn't accept me being over weight that is their problem I'm tired of dieting". I did seem happier for a few years and gave up dieting. I gained a lot of weight over the years but was seemingly happy.

One day I was going through some old photos of me during my teens and early twenties. It was then that I realized that I wasn't over weight at all I just has a well endowed young girl. I actually had a very nice shape and remembered that I was wearing size 7/8 pants, and I wasn't fat at all. I didn't know better I just believed what was being told to me.

I looked at myself after this and realized that I let other people especially my mother distort my reality. By this time however I was at an actual weight size of 205 lbs. which looking through all my medical records from the past 10 years I had maintained no matter what I did. I quit my job and took a pay cut from Capital One bank to go to work for Jenny Craig in hopes that this would motivate me to lose weight because I'd have to live and work Jenny Craig. Well that didn't work out, I started to go into debt from purchasing food with the little amount of income I was getting by working there. I quit Jenny Craig in February of 2010, for a better paying job that placed me behind a desk and computer for 12 hrs a day. My weight rose from 205 to 234 lbs by January 1, 2012.

On January 1,2012 my husband and I weighed each other and placed a bet. The one who loses the most weight by the end of the year will get $1000.00 out of our budget to use for whatever we pleased. I cheated! I decided to go for Lapband without telling him. He wouldn't have approved even if it didn't cost him anything, but my blood pressure was beginning to rise and sleep apnea was getting worse.

My surgery was on May 24th, 2012 and in less than 30 day I have already dropped from 234 lbs to 207 lbs. I am back to where I was 10 years ago. I haven't really set an end goal yet. I plan to set new goals as I go. Right now my goal is just to be under 200 lbs. At 199 lbs I will reset that goal. Doctors say for my height an good weight would be 165 lbs. I will keep you posted as I go along.

Good luck to everyone else that has made this decision. So far I am still happy with mine.