Stelina

So no one seems to have any clue what's wrong with me but for the past week I've been CRAZY sick. Not only can I not keep anything down but every time I eat I feel like I'm gonna die... ugh sharp pains, hot flashes, can't move... blah blah blah So I've only been consuming non carbonated beverages for the past week.... Ready and SILVER LINING 1)I've lost a few pounds ssss red hott over here!! Yeah!!! and (my main point) 2) it wasn't as painful as I would have imagined!!! I thought to myself "come surgery time... I'm totally kicking this liquid diets ass!!!!" I got this in the bag.... ohhhh yeah! Ok I'm tired and rambling a bunch of nonsense forgive me. But still... YAY!

As part of my preop program I have started to quit overeating and smoking. Both of those habits usually go into over drive during stressful times. I think finding out my mom needs a heart transplant, that I have to somehow manage to pay more for my surgery than I originally thought WHILE being unemployed, just the simple fact that I AM unemployed, oh and the fact that I spent the better part of last night talking to the woman the love of my life has been having an affair with for a few MONTHS counts as stress don't you? It's already a battle to quit those habits and they're calling to me even more now that I'm stressed beyond belief. Now is not the time for all this drama.

Ok so here's an update. I found out a couple days ago that I apparently have several torn disks, and the ones that aren't torn are bulging. Because I've gone so long without the diagnosis my spine has begun to deteriorate. Finding this news out... I couldn't be happier... you're probably thinking I'm crazy but hear me out. I've been going to Drs for years to figure out why I'm in pain. And Dr after Dr told me its because you're overweight its because you're overweight it's probably just stress... you know you're overweight right? When this Dr looked me in the eyes and said "Stelina, I know why you're in pain. I understand how hard this must be for you. We are going to do everything we can to fix it." My whole body gave a sigh of relief! We know! Now we can fix it!! When he stopped and actually said the words "it's not in your head" I damn near cried... I've been hearing that my whole life and he told me I understand and its not in your head. That was one of the happiest moments in my life. I know I may sound strange to y'all but for the first time in my head, I'm on the road to recovery as opposed to just treating the symptoms with copious amounts of pain killers and muscle relaxers. IM GOING TO GET MY LIFE BACK!

I am so happy I decided to post my situation because your words help immensely. Honestly I'm reading it over and over telling myself they're right. I can do this. I'm a strong woman. I will get through this. Your words are very empowering. Thank you for listening and for your advice and support.

Its so nice to hear "you're strong to be able to deal with this" (as opposed to oh that sucks but dont let it get you down... uh how am i supposed to NOT let it get me down..!?!) and to know that others have gone through similar situations and the universe isn't singling me out and ganging up on me!

I didn't take any offense to your comments. I really appreciate them. And no I definitely do NOT plan on taking him back. I look forward to everything you said and that lying cheating scumbag can eat his heart out when I'm through. I need to remember everything you said when I crave a cigarette or a Carb overload. Its all for the better. I can do this.

YAY!! Good luck. Here's to a speedy recovery and making dreams come true! *positive energy*

Hello all! My name is stelina and after research I have just decided to go through the VSG surgery. I came across this site and like the idea of meeting and talking to people that have gone through and/or are going through the same things I am. I am just beginning my journey and am in the stage of picking a surgeon. This decision was not made lightly. While trying not to set my expectations too high, I am hoping the weight loss will help with my chronic, CONSTANT pain. I have no problem mentally working out. Physically it's a different story unfortunately. I am in so much pain it's hard for me to even get out of bed let alone hit up the gym or even swim which is supposed to be a great low impact exercise for me. Yet it's just another activity that I love that I must add to the list of things I can no longer do. So here we are, beginning a journey with high hopes. I hope to be able to meet new people on here to share with, ask advice from, and hopefully be able to give something to in return. So there it is, a little about me and my first post of many while going through my journey to a better, healthier, happier me..... Hugs kisses and positive energy Lina