AmericanHoney

hi so it wasnt until about 4 months ago i started thinking about the land band, someone who i know but not to well got it almost a year ago i believe we are close in body type i might be a little smaller but i also feel given my weight gain in the last 3 years ill be another 10 pounds heavier by next year. i saw her on Sunday after not seeing her for a month and she looked like she had lost another 10 pounds! i feel like its so unfair, i work out 6 days a week and lose nothing! ive been doing weight watchers a month and ive only lost 2 lbs. i had my blood work done its not my thyroid. the doctor told me to count my calories better and it was my genetics i would always have this problem with my weight. i have gained 35 pounds in 3 years, i seem like i cant control a diet strict enough to lose weight i already work out more then most people i know. the last two years of my life have been a constant battle with my weight and every day i am constantly feeling self-conscious about my body, disgusted and saddened with how i look. while on vacation 2 months ago i felt this the worst i ever have. i was so uncomfortable i didnt get to enjoy the beach the way i should have. i couldnt wear shorts nor a swim suit i was constantly trying to cover up while the other girls in family ran around in there small outfits i was sad. so here are my questions. is this right for me. i am 31, 170ish pounds, 5'2 with a bmi of 31. the Quest for lap band grew even more stronger in the last few days when lauren manzo came out about her surgery, for the past few years i felt i related to her best we have so much in common including career. i think she would wonderful with her 30 pound loss, i would like to be 40-50 pounds lighter without the constant yoyo of weight loss and gain.

i actually watch the show and have since it started and over the years i have related with lauren and her struggle feeling the exact same way, i got a sudden push to look more into lap band for myself because of her. i dont know why i worry so much about what others say but having lauren go public sort of gives me a better feeling about doing this as well.

I also believe i am the healthiest fast person i know LOL when i say i work out 6 days a week i dont mean im walking i do boot camp, spin and run my workouts arent mellow workouts there instense when i bring my skinny friends with me to my workouts they cant finish a few have even thrown up, so its not the lack or effort in my working out i kick my butt! my problem is i like food and i never can stop when its enough, the only time in my life when i have been thin is when i starved myself. i dont eat chips, Cookies crackers pizza burgers or drink. i watch the carbs, and sugar rarely even have a diet coke. i eat about 5 meals a day and weigh my food when i can, my doctor told me that because fat is in my genetics this is just me and to watch my cals better which i have done my entire life. no im not eating WW food, im eating natural foods low carb low sugar. i also do not have insurance so if i decided to do this, it would be out of pocket. my thought the lab band would help me with the problem i have food control hopefully helping me with my hunger.

thank you! ive been browsing around for the last day or so but with the links it will help direct me to some more of my answers and reading what others are going thru will help push me in the direction that fits me. thanks again!