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A size 16 jeans. I want to remember this day as I am not sure I ever thought I would wear anything smaller than a 20.

Alex just sent me a message wishing me a Happy 1 Year Anniversary on the forum. What a difference a year makes.

Bandster Hell! Ugh!

Bra shopping today. 2 sizes down and a whole cup size. Not too shabby!

Crossing off some professional goals from my list! New year, new body, new attitude?? All of the above has helped me and has been the ingrediants to catapult this success!

Dear Scale, we need a break!Our morning rendevous are no longer serving me. I really need to cut back to once a week. I appreciate your role in my life as necessary. But everyday is not! See you again on Friday.

Even though I have already made a lifetime committment to this process. A wedding I will be attending in August is a good short term motivator! Bring on a hot dress!

Got my first fill today! Woo hoo!

Hit the Big 50 pounds today! I am a happy camper.

I am amazed at how the lapband has not only transformed my body but more so...my mind!

I am cranky today. Makes me want to eat. Just living in cranky. Not sure why I am cranky! Blech!

I am cranky, cranky pants today. Not sure why...just am!

I am feeling very good this week. Happy and successful!

I am pretty sure some fluid came out of my band during port replacement....I feel like I am in bandster hell again. Thank goodness for my doctor's appt this Fri!

I am pretty sure this last fill put me in the green zone! I am pretty happy about that. Whew...what a difference!

I hate clear liquids after fills. I know it's necessary and I follw the rules....but I hate it. Hoping this puts me in the green zone!

I love rewarding my efforts with toys! My hubby bought me a new Smartphone yesterday as he is so proud of my efforts! He is the best!

I think I hit the 40 pound mark today!! If the scale says this tomorrow...I will change my weight tracker. Woo hoo!

It is hard to eat WELL while camping! I see a very clean eating week in my future!

It's not about "perfect". It's about effort. And when you bring that effort everyday...that's when transformation begins!

Just when I am getting frustrated with myself I have a day like today where multiple people raved about how good I looked! I needed that!

Lately, I have been struggling with the attention my weight loss has brought on. The..wow's you look great....or OMG you are wasting away. My mind is grateful for the compliments but my "old fat girl self" is so sad that I must have looked terrible to get this type of reaction. I want to hug that girl and apologize to her.....tell her that I didn't mean to get her that way. Such a psycological transformation!

Not feeling well today. Just very tired......achy....overall blah!

Not too far away from "onederland"! Hopefully by next week (if all goes well) I can shout that from the roof tops! It has been years since I lived in "onederland"!

Pain meds, swelling from my port revision surgery is not helping my scale this week! Ugh!