Pre-OpLoser619

So... here I am at 1:00 in the morning. Reading VST as always, lol. I go for my second pre-op dr's visit on Monday the 9th. I have a 3 month waiting period before I can have the surgery so I think I am looking at Sept/Oct for surgery. I really think this surgery will change my life for the better in so many ways, but man am I have second thoughts. I guess the thought of possibly dying and leaving behind my baby girl (she's almost 5 but still my baby) and my husband and family is just...