Shelleymb

No, my boyfriend and I are getting banded together, we are self-pay. There are a couple of factors on why we are waiting until December (trust me, if I could I would do it today) He is leaving July 2nd for San Diego until the middle of December for work, and we both have an 11 day break for the holidays from work at the end of December, so it just works out. We want to have at least 10,000 in cash and finance the rest. But keep me updated on your journey. That would be awesome to do it together. Ty (my boyfriend) and I have our consultations on the 29th of this month. Right before he leaves

Im sitting in the dressing room at Macy's feeling defeated. All I needed was a pair of jeans for work.... I wear yoga pants at home because I'm so fat, but I work on a shipyard and I have tO wear jeans. You know the moment when you pull the jeans up to your knees and you instantly know they aren't going to fit? Or when you finally find a pair that you can pull up the whole way and manage to button up and you're working wIth muffin top, camel toe, or they are so wide in the leg you can't see your feet? I pretty much hate myself right now. I hate buying jeans based on how long it will take me to tailor them to my body. Good thing I'm a good seamstress I guess. The next six months can't fly by fast enough.

Thank you! I know it's a silly thing to want, but I like seeing the counts.

I was listening to the radio with my boyfriend the other day and we heard this story about how no matter how much weight you lose, the people around you will always see you as "fat". They will see you currently, but in their minds it will always be a thought of, "they used to be fat." and it's true, I'm guilty of it. There is a guy in my shop that I talk to often that, after researching for my own lap band, I'm 99.9% sure he had WLS of some sort, which is great, because he is so much healthier, but whenever I see him, the first thing I think of is, wow! He's lost so much, he used to be so heavy! Does this ever bother anyone?

Why can't you get another fill until you feel restriction?

I need something to do while waiting for surgery... I keep gaining!! I just don't know what to do anymore. Any time I get dressed or eat or something, I feel like bursting into tears. Ty told me today he has lost 5 pounds since he stop drinking diet soda.... I NEVER DRINK SODA!! It isn't fair!! I'm over this! I hope everyone has a good week. ~Shells

Do something with your hands. Learn to knit.

I found that I don't like any sort of exercise by myself. I'm so group oriented it's rediculous. Maybe a class with others around or some sort of team would help. I can't wait to join a master's swim team. If you like swimming look for a master's team. Swimming is the best. In high school when I was on a swim team year round, that was the only time I have been at my healthiest. Conrats on 40lbs!!

Ty and I will be married when we are our goal weights! We already know we will be married, I just can't wait to have the biggest party of my life (reception) in the dress I can only imagine myself when I am at my goal, and he said he was ok with waiting if I was.

That's hillarious!! I'm so excited!!

How do you prevent yourself from accidently taking a drink without thinking about it?

For those of you who already practice this, what do you do if you go out to eat? Have them remove the glass from the table?

Ty is the best man for me! Today after we both had to work 10 hour overtime shifts at work (yuck, but the money is to good to not go in) wehad to drive to a near by city to drop is car off for work. It was about an hour and 15 minute car ride, so we had time to talk on the way home, and I asked him what he wanted me to do with the appointments. And he asked me what I wanted, and I told him the truth, that I wanted to keep the appointments and for him to come home in december and for us to get banded in December like we originally planned. And then he said no matter what, we would be banded in December! He said that if he gets extended, he'll just fly home and take a bit of time off, then fly back. My night has been made. I know that this is short, but I'm just so happy! Have a great rest of the weekend everyone!!

This was how it was all planned out: June 29th--Ty and I go in for our dietion appointment and surgeon consultation July 2nd--Ty leaves for San Diego for almost 6 months All the time in between would be us saving to put as much down on our surgeries as possible December 14th--Ty comes home and we see the surgeon again to start our Pre-Op diets December 26ish--We get banded... Well all of that has a huge chance of changing, Ty might have to stay in San Diego until February. He then told me if that was the case, I might as well go to Japan for 6 months starting in November, and have the surgery when I get home. That way we won't have to finance anything, we would have saved enough for both surgeries. As much as I like the idea of not having to finance anything, I hate the idea of having to wait a year to get banded. I'm having a hard enough time waiting 6 months, let alone a whole year. Ty doesn't understand. He just keeps saying, "What's another year?" 1 Year = Me hating what I look like for another year Not being able to do all the activities that I want for another year Feeling terrible about myself for another year Not fitting in my clothes for another year Running the risk of gaining more wait for another year Giving up on everything and not wanting to be banded in a year Depression. This whole situation is depressing to me. So now I don't know what to do. Should I cancel the appointment that we have on the 29th of this month and wait the year or keep the appointment and hope he doesn't get extended. All of this makes me sick to my stomach. Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.

the whole adding of friends on this website. Is it like facebook? And do people think you're weird if you try to add them because you really don't know them?

I just thought of another thing, if you didn't used to work out before and you just started a new routine, your body is holding on to water to heal your muscles. It's very normal. And when you are building muscle like that, your muscles swell due to tearing. I wouldn't worry about it.

If you didn't normally exercise before you could just be gaining muscle. I would messure for inches lost. I worked out for 3 months, and only lost 10 pounds but I drop 3 pant sizes. If you are walking a lot of hills you could just be gaining muscle mass in your legs.

That's actually a genius idea. What if you blended lots of fruits together, then froze them in ice cube trays? And fun fact, Cucumber water is so refreshing because there is a chemical in cucumbers that slightly lowers your body temperature. Thats where the says "Cool as a cucumber" came from.

LoL, when I went to the DMV last the lady asked me if anything had changed and I said yes, my address, then she looked at me funny and said, "aaaanything else?" and I thought it was weird but I said, "Um, nope," she just shook her head and printed it up, when I got to my car and went to look at the picture again, i finally realized what she was trying to get at, my license said I was 150lbs.... that's how much I weighed when I was 15.

Oh my god! I thought you lived in my town, the trainers at my Crossfit are named Jeff and Jason! That was crazy. #69. Wanting to be naked. (that's important to me. lol I love being naked, but only by myself, I always have to cover up in front of my boyfriend)

Mio is really good.

I went to my first seminar a week ago today, and it was so informative and exciting. It makes you happy to even think about choosing to look into lap band. There is so much useful information and the surgeon was ready to answer everyone's questions. I had a ton!

My boyfriend weighs about 30 pounds more than you and is a little taller, but he is just starting the journey to. He seems excited

Does everyone else panic a little when the website is down? My first thought was, "What am I going to read about all day at work?" I checked frequently through out the day. Anyway... Today I filled out my medical history for the surgeon. Each step forward makes me smile bigger. I just need to make sure Ty fills out his. I think I have made the decision to not travel for at least a year after I have the band put in december, which breaks my heart because I was most likely going to Japan for 4 months at the begining of the year, and I love Japan. I just doesn't make any sense for me to leave for 4 months after having surgery. I won't be able to get any fills and what if there is a complication? It just makes me sad because that was how we were going to pay off the care credit card, I would have made 16000 in perdiem. Tears me up. Anyway, I'm almost off work, better pack up. Until next time. ~Shells