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Can't do cookies!! They're my trigger food and drug of choice.

I did the 3 month option and it took two full weeks for approval. My insurance covered at 100% but that's bc my company plan covers at 100% after my deductible. I have exceptional insurance though. Most companies only cover 80/20 after deductible.

Thanks girlie! I figured out why I'm wanting to eat emotionally...I have my follow-up appt tomorrow with my surgeon. I've taken the scale out of my house so I only weigh at the doctor's office and I get very anxious anticipating how much I've NOT lost. How's THAT for irony?! I want to stress eat bc I have to go weigh. That's pretty jacked up, eh? :/

For some reason (I've got to think on it), I've been "hungry" all day; in quotes bc it's not really hunger, but "wanting to eat". Being able to put a label on and identify each was a big, fat epiphany for me. Clearly I'm not in need of food bc I've eaten at the same times and in the same amounts that I have been for the past 2 months. I'm dancing with my demons today. But you know what? I'M LEADING! I haven't given in. And for that tiny miracle, I am grateful and proud.

I just bought 2 brand new dresses (tags on them!) at Goodwill, one from Gap and one from Lane Bryant. $4.99 a piece!! No luck with pants there though. Old Navy is having one of their crazy sales and I got shirts for $3.49, $2.99 and $.47!!!!

I kept my surgery a secret from my mother and inly told her after I'd had it done bc she always makes everything about HER and how she feels. I needed all of my emotional energy and had no extra to spend on her! She *seems* supportive but gives back-handed "compliments" and still points out that she's a couple of sizes smaller than me. Over Xmas she brought a BUNCH of junk food to my house knowing I'd struggle with not eating it. Know what? I DIDN'T EAT IT!!! I just try to remember that it's HER problem, not mine. Although sometimes I really want to strangle her!!

I buy Bariwise protein bars and I really like them! My favorite is Caramel Crunch, but unusually buy a box of those and a variety pack just to change things up.

I go back to the doc tomorrow and I'll find out how much I weigh. I'm both excited AND really nervous...

This is the 1st time I've posted a picture as I'm only 12 weeks out, but my friends keep saying they can tell I've lost. I guess I can't bc I see myself every day! lol Pic on the left is at my heaviest, the right is from last weekend.

I've had a pretty uneventful recovery! I've tolerated every stage well and I'm able to get my Protein in pretty much every day now. Still working on getting ALL my Water in, but that's just bc I get busy at work and forget to drink. I don't weigh I'm between doctors appointments so I'm not sure how many pounds I've lost to date (I was down 22.5 at my 6 week check up) but I'll find out on Tuesday and I'm nervous!! I'm down from a size 24 jeans to an Old Navy size 18 skinny jeans!!! I got choked up in the dressing room. I'm such a dork...

You have the most gorgeous skin ever! It's perfect and I'm jealous!

Not to sound like a complete idiot but how do you measure ounces of meat?!

So don't use a food scale?! Crap...

Thanks for the support, ladies. It means a lot. Sometimes this food thing is a lonely place to be. I'm trying to be brutally honest with myself and my crazy, unhealthy behaviors. I'm ready to give up my excuses (alcoholic father, mother married 5 times, moving so much when young, blah, blah, blah) and take responsibility for my CHOICES. Food was always there for me; a constant in my crazy life and the way my grandmother (another constant) showed love. Eating something yummy (read: bad for me) made me feel good and being full (stuffed!) made me happy. I struggle every day, but I've been to enough AA crap to know that all you can do it take it one day at a time. And some days, I can only take it 15 minutes at a time! But I'M DOING IT!! I have to. I have three beautiful, young children and an amazing husband who NEED and love me!!

I'm guilty of seeing how far I still have to go instead of how far I've come. I've got to work on that bc I'm doing well!!

I couldn't agree more!! And the media saying "alleged shooter" really burned my ass! >:[

Good lord I love this thread. I am a binge eater and a secret eater. If I picked up food for work or home, I always had something "extra" to eat in the car on the way back. If I had to stop at the drugstore, I got a candy bar and ate it before I got home. I'd sit in my car and eat lunch after driving through somewhere bc I didn't want anyone to see how much I ate. And when I'd get donuts on the way to work, I pretended that some of them were for my coworkers, but they were really all for me. It's such painful behavior and it's both humiliating and liberating to admit it. My BFF and I (both with troubled childhoods and difficult mothers) "joke" about our addiction by saying, "Well, lets just go eat a hug." I've always HATED myself for having no willpower and feeling powerless over food. I'm about 3 months out from surgery and my appetite is returning to a certain degree. It terrifies me. To date, I have not "cheated". I'm proud of myself for choosing well so far and I have an amazing DH and circle of friends cheering me on. I know I'm one of the lucky ones. I'm trying hard to deal with my addiction to food and it is like dancing with the devil. I come my a family of addicts and worry every day that I can't do this. I told my DH, "It's like telling an alcoholic, 'I know you can't handle alcohol, but you'll have to drink it every day of your life and it's up to you to make sure that you drink only this certain type of alcohol and only in moderation.'" It seems almost impossible! .

I started a BR area thread so we don't hog the NOLA thread! lol

GOOD for you! lol

I *knew* you'd get back on track!! Gods for you!!

Lived in Central for years! Moved to Prairieville 3 years ago. We should have (a very tiny) lunch sometime!!!

I'm using the ENS shakes (vitamins in the shakes). A tub is about $60 and lasts me a month. WAY cheaper than buying the vitamins separately, and like someone else said, I'm saving a small fortune not eating out!!

I was never one to drink WITH a meal, but I struggle with the urge to drink right after a meal. I just can't keep a drink nearby. I forget sometimes when I'm away from home, but I'm trying hard!