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Keep Lying!!! You are only responsible for yourself and if you don't want to tell you don't have to! Next time you are eating just a bit tell them you are taking prescriptopn appetite suppresants and are not very hungry.Make sure you find a name on the internet. Can you eat salads? You can always bring one if you think they won't serve it.Again since they think you are on a 'strict' diet, they'll think you are amazing for only nibbling the other goodies. Have a big salad and 2-3 oz of steak and you'll be good to go.

You know how people always bring muffins,donuts,homemade chocolate cookies and such?to share... well pure torture for me i figure 'just one' and then end up sneaking in 2 3 4 and so on! So today with my new resolve i sliced cucumbers and cut up a large tomaotes into chunks and put those on the staff table with a bowl of fat free dressing.Every one loved it!!! and i could go into the kitchen several times guilt free!!! Chantal

well !!well!!! I am in the 80's!!!!!ok 189 but still i am sooooooooooooooo happy.It's been 189 for 3 days so i guess it will stick.Just a few weeks ago i was 195!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!

Welcome Karen! Glad you are here:) Chantal

I put on my runners this morning at work and walked uphill for 30 minutes.Jogged for about 2 minutes twice in that 30. Breakfast 3 slices of tomato with 3 slices of (premade)canadian bacon.If i can eat all of it.I am working on the first slice right now. 2 glasses of water so far and a large coffee.It's 9 am. Me walking...you would have known!? If i can put on runners ANYONE can!!! I am also planning on going for a walk this eve while HUBBY "the enforcer"puts the 2 year old to bed cuz she has me wrapped around her little finger and i can't be tough!! Chantal

Holy Crap!!! 50 pounds!!! That is awesome work girlie!!! I know you sometimes freak out cuz of your binges but you are doing soooooo good! With all the trouble you've had and all to boot! I am proud of you and ecstatic on your loss! Bravo bravo bravo... and even if i don't know you ... KISSES!XXOO Chantal

I wanted to order a wig from a company called Wigsalon.I found the site on the internet.Has anyone heard of this company?It's in Florida,miami. The reason i ask is because when i called it sounded like a homemade message and then i sent an email and got a response in only a few minutes.No one returned my ealier call though. Also i asked about money order from Canada and the response was to make it out to paris btq (and not wigsalon).Is this weird? I have a paranoid problem anyway but don't want to send 120.00 to just anyone ya know? Is it safe to order stuff on th internet like this? How can i make sure they are legit? chantal

Congrats and happy birthday!! Chantal

Honestly if you only need to lose 50lbs and already don't eat large portions maybe this surgery is a waste of money. I wasn't a big eater and struggle very hard to lose. For me it was kinda of a waste of $$ because really it's my choices and exercise that i need and the band does NOT do that for you. Yes, i eat less than before but i don't lose unless i modify the behaviour...that's the secret to weight loss. Of course if someone eats a huge plate full of dinner and feels hungry enough to eat a second and then snack after, this is a perfect solution! Not so for me...

You look great!...keep up the fabulous work!!! Chantal

Beaucoup sexy!! Chantal

Well... some of you might remember i was pretty desperate a few weeks ago.Not only with my eating behaviour but also my personal life. I had a consultation with a therapist for my marriage/self esteem/stress/eating issues,went back on Effexor and also signed up for parenting classes to get new ideas on how to manage the stress kids come with!(love doesn't solve everything!) I have been taking the meds for 3 weeks now and the difference is astonishing.I used to wake up and wonder if i would have a 'black' day or a happy day...no in between! Now i feel like i am on an even keel and i can manage stress better than 3 weeks ago. I find the eating craziness has stopped as well.I don't know if that has to do with the meds or if it's just that i am less stressed but i'll take it. Since i feel better it has had a positive effect on my marriage.I feel closer to him and since i show him more affection he does too. My doctor said it could take up to six weeks to have signs of improvement so i hope it's all uphill(downhill for weight though!) from here. Chantal

Hi! Ryan is 5.He is going to be 6 January1 and Renée is 2.I love them to pieces! The effexor has some side effects since i am only in the first few weeks but hopefully the tiredness and headache will go away! I have to convinvce my self to eat that is the only good side effect and i hope it stays!!!Too bad we can't pick our side effects! C

I sit right by the kitchen at work and as i write this the girls are compalining about how HUGE they are."I used to fit in the 2's but NOW i have to buy 5's!!!! All i have to say is BOO HOO!Eat a cookie!!I might bake some tonight and bring them in for a treat tomorow!! Chantal

HEHE! No! cuz then i'll have to take all the clients since they'd in the washroom... Good thing they are nice people and i like them!!! Chantal

hehe! My husband has a thing for rubbing my hipbone when we cuddle in bed. oh! oh! and the ribs too! Makes me feel proud! Isn't it the best motivator!!Good for you Carmen! Chantal

Donali! Love the pics...you look awesome! Congrats!

Thanks guys! I also wanted to share that the 10 pounds i gained from those 3 weeks are gone!Just like that. Instead of thinking i was a failure like in the past and go on to gain 50 more, i shook myself off and went back to eating right and voila, 10 pounds go bye bye!!! I guess i have learned alot since being banded! I am back to 190 and feeling great! Now....if only i could actually get exercising!soon ,soon. Chantal

Wow Penni!! Congrats! I am soooo thrilled for you and can't wait for the pics!

I'm in Canada and don't have a computer so i can't talk directly with you either...sorry. Can you have a healthy snack an hour before and LOTS of water? Maybe that will curb your appetite before dinner enough to help you make good choices. Thinking of ya! C

I was watching a show the other night about people with anorexia. Halfway throught he show i started substituting the word MO with anorexic and in my head it's the same condition only in reverse. (Basically) someone with Anorexia CANNOT feed themselves.Because of something in their mind,they will not put enough food in their bodies to help them live. (Basically)someone with MO CANNOT eat less food to nourish their bodies.Because of something in their mind,they cannot eat less to help them live. People feel sad when the see an anorexic,medical people rush and want to help them.There are thousand of centers and treatments for anorexics.People KNOW and ACCEPT that it is totally a brain issue and REAL medical condition. Why can't people understand that MO IS THE SAME THING? One eats too little and the other eats too much (quantity or quality)both hurt themselves and cannot help it! Just because we don't look as fragile and delicate as someone dying of anorexia? Maybe i am just screwy but i honestly felt they were talking about me but in reverse.... C

I am done!I feel like just quitting! I scheduled a fill but Dr has no appt's until September.This set me off on a MAJOR binge. I tallied up the total for yesterday and it was 2719 calories. In the last three weeks i have gained almost 10 pounds.Of course i quit smoking(again)3 weeks ago as well. Why do i do this? Sometimes i eat and the food does not even taste good.I eat it anyways.I KNOW i am full but i sip Water slowly and then eat more! I feel like just giving up. I KNOW that i need to do the work but i just cannot change these bad habits.If i could, i would have done it without the band...right? Is it really easier with a good tight fill?Just becuase i KNOW i am not tight it seems like i eat just cuz i can. I have a 11cc band with 1.8cc.last fill was in June and my next one is not until Sept. Why can't i let myself be successful?Why can't i be normal?It doesn't matter what i know,whnt i read my brain reads it,understands it but then does the opposite! Sheesh.

Thanks guys... Sue i don't have time to look at the site you sent but added it to my favorites for later and i am super excited to read it! I sorta know what's going on.i eat cuz i am stressed about my marriage,bored,i eat to pass the time,alone alot in the eve and then it 's a free for all,i am a secret eater,the problem is how to control myself ,how to WANT to control myself.I tell myself i shouldn't be eating with every bite.One side of my head says "whoa! stop now! you can do this!you are stronger than the urge!"The other side says "SHUT UP i win!!"and the food slides down my gullet! I also feel like it's IMPOSSIBLE to reach a healthy weight of 130.That it won't/can't happen to me. It's never gonna happen,why bother changing anything.I don't know why i cannot believe it.What makes me think i am different than any one else who can lose weight.dunno. I have had a consultation with a phycologist who agreed that i am in considerable distress in alot of aspects of my life.The problem is that i won't have an appointement for the next several weeks! In the meantime,Can you guys be my shrinks??!! C

Ya...I just read all 5 too!You should write a love story and incorporate some of your true life stories...let me know when it comes out! C

When i start looking for munchies around 8 pm i have started making decaf coffee.It's warm so it feels in my head and belly more than a snack as opposed to plain cold water and more interesting too! So far so good. I have been totally off the wagon for the past 3 weeks.Eating anything my head desires and as much as i want.I need a fill but the earliest appt is Sept!!! I have to get back on track. Come on September. C