nalasmom

Does anyone else have this problem? I have ALLLLL house clothes. Like clothes you wash your car in because its whatever. I have all my old clothes from when I was smaller but truly maybe only 10 outfits that fit me now. All I do is stay home now. I don't want to shop because Im planning on losing weight, well duh. THANK GOD FOR VSG!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yeah, I found out prior to surgery on 8/1 that I have a complete right sided heart block. awesome. 24 and heart problems.

All my dresses were from Forever 21 PLUS. I was so sad. Of course there was only a tiny section for "thick girls". I hate being called THICK. Only good thing is with more weight my boobs look bigger. Size small B to a bigger B. haha. Why I showed a guy my picture and he said, "I'm sorry but I wouldn't date you. You're kinda fat." I didn't even know this a*****e. But I was crying soooooo hard. Because he was good looking and perfect body.

I thought bandage dresses are supposed to be flattering? Tightening and holding everything up. I bought this beautiful one from BeBe. Yeah I thought at first, without looking in the mirror. "ya ha ha! I look good!" OMg until I saw these super unflattering pictures. Pooch. and love handles. wow. TMI, but does anyone gain weight on their hoo ha too?! dammit. do they do lipo on that section?!!!!!!!!!!

I was fortunate to get a new grad nursing job even before graduating nursing school! In this economy, I could not be more thankful. I wanted to show my family how much I appreciate their love, support, and money. My mom have hardly any savings, retirement funds, and how several thousands to a few people. I paid, in part, for them to go to Hawaii! My parents first time ever=D I never thought I'd come back to hawaii looking like this. I bought baggy dresses and it took me 3 hours to shop for a bathing suit. And even then, I was popping out of it! Freaking water. Somehow it shrinks the bathing suits! I wouldn't even take pictures. To this day, for the past 3 years, their are only tens of pictures of me. I'd say like 50. I don't ever want to remember myself like this. I don't want my kids to ever look at my pictures and see their mom this big.

When I gain weight, not only does it go to my hips, thighs and arms, it goes to my neck, cheeks, jaw, EYE BAGS?! How sad!

I spent 4 hours trying to look for a cute dress to wear to the club with my mom, all her sisters, and their daughters. I had to buy a Jessica Simpson $180 gown. Who wears gowns to the CLUB?! I was so sad and sweaty. I didn't feel good at all. My arms were huge!

I was, at this time, still working out super often and drinking protein shakes and really...obsessed with working out and running. A few months later, I ran the Nike SF marathon. I mean I only made it to mile 22 but really, cmon. that was truly an achievement to me. AND I still got the finisher's Tiffany's necklace because I kept going even past the time limit. Yahoo!

The day before, I went shopping with my mom and auntie. We spent like 6 hours looking for a dress. It was horrible. I was angry and on the verge of crying. I was mad at myself and the world cursing all the stores that didn't carry cute dresses for plus size girls. I went into Black House White Market, which I don't usually go to. And even then the size 14/16 dress would hardly close. On graduation day, I would not even take of the black graduation gown!

I wish my chin was more heart shaped. Itll never be like that though because of my genes. I'm ok with it now. I'll prolly neer be a size 4 but I'm aiming for at least a size 6.

You see the doggy on the left? Thats Nala, my dog. Hence, my ID name. Nala was like me. Eating things (me and my family's fault) that she was not supposed to eat. I spent over $8,000 dollars a week before my surgery because Nala was diabetic ketoacidotic and had pancreatitis. They didn't even think she was going to make it. Before then, we spent $3,000 for the exact same thing. The doctor's had told me to stop feeding her human food. Now look, my best friend is taking insulin shots everyday, twice a day and it breaks my heart to make her cry. I paid a top Cornell vet dietician to formulate a new food for her. Me and nala are going to get healthy. I bet my life on it!

I like this picture of my mom. Hahah she hates when I color my hair too light. I don't care though. However, she did say it made my face look rounder. A few months later, I went darker. I love my mom so much. Part of the reason I want to get healthy is to prove to them that it can be done. I want them to live to see my grandchildren. Moms and dad both have hypertension and heart problems. Both their dads died early. When my mom was young, she was very tall, skinny, and curvy. She was a beauty queen in her town in the Philippines. She gets on me all the time because my body is not like hers. It's like my dads. Short and round. She doesnt even get stretch marks and her legs are still long and skinny!

I look very round here. But I still had really good flexibility. Now when I cross my legs I go numb. Omg, and then its so hard to get up!

Sorry about the nakedness of the picture. I had a sweetheart strapless dress. But here you can still kind of see my collarbone. So sad. In order to feel it now, You gotta press like 1 inch down.

Rice wasn't a super problem at this time. I think this was like 2008/2009. BUt most of the time I ate sashimi and I was working out with a personal trainer.

I think this was still in high school, either that or 1st year of college. Anyways, My arms are like 2x the size of them here. I was in the hospital recently. I was paralyzed but I could here the nurses. Those assholes said, "Wow, this girl got guns". -__- bastards!