monkeysnana

Hello,

My journey began in March 2009. I had researched weight lose surgery for quite awhile before choosing to have the lap band. I wasn't really a candidate, according to most, for the gastric, so this seemed like the most logical choice.

I had my surgery 3/9/2009, weighed in at 211 lbs and am 5'1" tall. I was pretty short, so I was pretty round. I didn't have any major complications, most everything was right on track. I lost quite a bit of weight in the first 6 months, by 9 months I had been down 63 lbs. I felt great and I looked great.

Then, all heck broke loose. In April 2012, my husband was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer. He began chemo and then in November under went a stem cell transplant. We basically lived in the hospitals most of the year. With all the stress and chaos, I began having severe blockage issues, and things were not going well. I had been suffering for awhile, severe heartburn, so they had to remove all my fluid and recommended that until things settled down, not to refill. I was risking damage by things constantly getting stuck. Living in the hospitals didn't have the best nutritional options.

So that was in May 2012, and since then I have gained back all but 11 lbs that I lost. I feel miserable, I look awful and I am not happy. I am scheduled July 9th to refill, and I am scared because of all the issues. I tried to wait until life "settled down", but that doesn't look like it will ever happen. Hubby was in remission, but we just found out this month he has relapsed. There aren't a lot of options for us in his cancer, so I guess there's no good time. I have a hard time being motivated these days. I have a lot on my mind, but I know they way I am now is only bringing me down further.

My hope is to find others here that I can relate to and find support and motivation with. Well that's my story. Thank you for letting me share.

Wendy