Hi Bethieb,
I struggled with the decision on whether to have the surgery too. But, I have tried so, so many times to lose weight on my own only to lose and regain the same 25 pounds over and over again. During my 6 months with my doc (to get insurance approval) I lost 45 pounds. I lost another 15 pounds on the 3 week pre-op liquid diet. I am only 2 weeks post surgery, so I don't have a lot to add for you at this point. But, I am currently down 61 pounds since I went in for the lapband seminar last year and couldn't be happier. I am still feeling hungry a lot, but I know it will take some time to get my band adjusted correctly to help with this. My port is just to the left of my belly button and a bit above it. You can't really feel it, but I know where it is because my doctor showed me on x-ray.
I totally understand how you feel - just make the best decision for you. There are a lot of helpful people on this site too, so visit frequently!!