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LOL yes it is! Congrats on your NSV!!! Look at that cute little butt! hehe I got into an 18 yesterday...does that count? LOL I also went from a 3x top to a 1x - I bought a few new tops last night because I look like a bag lady in the rest of my clothes!

Kat, I notice that you've passed the -100 lb mark!!! Congrats!!! I can't wait to be able to say that I've lost 100 lbs!! You must be so proud of yourself!!!! :clap2:

I sure wish my doc would "fill me up"!!! He thinks that I'm doing too good for a fill so my next appt isn't until OCTOBER 16th!!! I'll gain back half of my lost weight by then! Depending on how I'm doing, if I don't lose anything within the next 2 weeks or if I see myself gaining, my butt will sit on his door step until he gives me a fill!

Tracy I feel for you...For 18 yrs I never received any payments from my ex for my kids. He always worked under the table, and for whatever reason, they never took his license or locked him up...I didn't pursue it much simply because I didn't care if he was in their lives - my life was fine without the drama. I did ONE time receive his IRS refund of $2500 when he DID work a real job, and I laughed my ass off about it for years after that. I know he had to be pisssssssssssssssed!!!! God I would have loved to be a fly on the wall when he got that notice. Anyway, now that the kids are over 18, all the sudden he wants a relationship with them. Never in 18 yrs did he even call to say Happy Birthday. I don't bad mouth him to the girls, they know how I feel. But if they want to pursue something they can...will I resent the fact?? YES! But I'll let them come to their own conclusions so that years from now they can't say that I persuaded their thinking LOL. So far they haven't reciprocated the phone calls, but who knows? If he's changed (ya right), then more power to him to finally step up and be a dad... He sucks. :eek:

I don't want to talk about calories this weekend...Labor Day weekend and I went camping with my hubby...I was BAD....My doc says I don't need a fill - why can I eat anything and everything??? :eek:

Oh yes, he's pretty damn hot!!!! YUM YUM!!! I like him and for some odd reason I LOVE Dane Cook! YUMMY!!!! Something about the way he struts across stage when he's doing stand-up...*drool* :faint:

- 6 lbs for me...could've been better, could've been worse. It's mine, I'm claiming it and I'm happy!!! :whoo: **update: I weighed this morning (yes it's still in August!)...I'm down 7.6 lbs! I hit 217.8 this morning

Ok I need to get my ass on a treadmill or something...Tracy is catching up!!!! Damn girl before you know it you're going to be under 200 lbs!!! I can't let you pass me up! LOL *hides under a rock*:car:

Speaking of bra's....my ta-ta's are shrinking. :girl_hug:

Terri congrats that you've decided to quit smoking! I quit back in December 2003, which is when I started to put on the weight again. I gained over 100 lbs!!! Quitting smoking, combined with going from a job at the hospital where I was very active, to a very sedentary job, getting married, etc. It all played a part I'm sure... But for you to do it and not gain any weight so far is fabulous! Keep up the good work!!!! :whoo:

Well, the doc agreed with you all...but it wasn't because I PB'd last night LOL He said that I'm doing too well to give me a fill right now...I've lost 10 lbs since my last fill and he said he doesn't want me losing anymore than 1-2 lbs a week (I'm averaging 1.5-1.7 lbs per week). He said that with me doing so well, he's concerned that if he gives me a fill, it may push me over and I'd have to come back for an unfill. He said that sometimes after an unfill, it's hard to get you back to where you were before and because I'm doing well, he doesn't want me to lose my momentum. Plus it saved me some $$ LOL I was a little disappointed as I'd love to lose more. I don't see it the same as he does I guess...I had surgery 4 months ago, and I've lost 36 lbs from the surgery (12 lbs before the surgery)...I'd love to lose faster, but I'm happy. Hell I'm off all of my meds! I didn't put the weight on overnight, so I'm surely not going to take it off overnight. God I just feel really happy and I don't know why. LOL

Update - Now my daughter doesn't know if she wants to come home or not (I haven't even told her my stipulations yet!). So until she decides that yes she wants to come home, I'm not even going to discuss anything further with her. She's staying with some guy that I've never heard her mention before, which really bothers me, but she's 24 and I can't live her life for her. I think I need a TINY fill, but I doubt the doc will do it. I'm leaving in 10 minutes for my check-up. I'll tell him about the stress level and my episode last night...see what he thinks. I've been so busy at work today that I didn't even have time for lunch, so I ate a chocolate chip cookie that someone brought me. Sooo later I enter it into my Calorie Counter Database - Free Online Diet Program log and it tells me that this little damn cookie just cost me 370 calories and barely any protein!!! I think for dinner I'm going to do a protein shake and some steamed veggies....drink lots of water today and call it good. lol Hope everyone is having a great day!!!!:hungry:

TracyK - I haven't cried about food yet, but I've sure do CRAVE it most of the time!!!!

Ok I'm in a dilemma here...well 2 of them. Let's start with #1. 1) I'm supposed to have a fill tomorrow, and I've been able to eat just about anything that I want, and in more of a quantity than I should be able to. So I've been SO excited about this fill coming up, and what happens tonight at dinner? I PB for the first REAL time. I've gotten stuck before, but this time I actually hurled in the toilet and stuff came up (along with some brothy slime - sorry TMI!) So now I'm not sure if I need a fill or not....I'm thinking because I'm so stressed out today (and yesterday) that I'm just much tighter than I normally am....has anyone else had this dilemma the night before a fill? I don't want to get tooooo tight either. 2) Second dilemma. My daughter called wanting to come back home tomorrow. I asked her why not come back home tonight (because I wanted to know the answer), and she said because she's going to see "some guy" tonight. I'm not sure what to do. My head tells me "Denise stick with it. Tell her that unless she is willing to go back through rehab, that she's on her own". My heart says "let her come home Denise, you don't want her to think that you don't care about her. You don't want her to walk out of your life with the possibility that you may never see her again". I should have went to an Al-anon meeting tonight. I printed out the schedule but then got off work and the meeting started 40 minutes ago...Any advice??? Thank everyone for your words of encouragement too...I've had such a rough 2 days, and I have a feeling I'm in for more! :think

Maybe they should try 2.4cc!! Just be patient and don't get discouraged! Congrats on your band.

To add to my depression tonight, I'm posting my pics LOL... Well there's only a 6 lb loss since the last photo, but my damn hubby can't get the picture from the same distance each time so it's closer and I look fatter LOL ahhhh sometimes you have to joke about life and not let it get you down...I miss my daughter, but I know that what I'm doing is for the best...and I know eventually I'll see her again - when she needs something lol... Here's the pics...I don't see any change from the last photo, but I sure do see a big difference from the first pics. I can't wait to get my fill on Tuesday!!!

I was upset when I made her leave...she's 24 and I've been dealing with her drug/alcohol abuse since she was 17. She's done a few outpatient rehabs and was kicked out for using. Then she just completed a 6 month live-in program, in which she graduated in May of this year. She got out, found a job, got her license back (she had a DUI March 2006 which is the only time she's been in trouble). Now she's hanging with some of the girls that graduated with her and they're all using or drinking. She's been clean off the meth for 11 months, but continues to drink. When I found out today that she had been drinking (and driving the car that I bought for her), I finally said enough is enough. I told her that if she wanted to live that lifestyle to go stay with her friends that she's partying with. She said "I'm 24 and if I want to have a beer or whatever on my day off I can". I said great, do it without my help then. I don't want you to call me, contact me or have anything to do with me until you straighten your shit up and want something more for your life. Until then pretend that I'm dead. Now I feel like shit for saying that...but I truly think that the only way she's going to snap out of this, IF she will snap out of it, is if I cut her off 100%....we're very very close and hopefully it will hurt her as much as it's hurting me. Maybe then she'll see what she's doing to her and to her family...maybe not. We'll see....either way I can't stand here every day and watch her drink her life away. It makes me sick to look at her when she's slurring her words and being clumsy because she's drunk. I called and turned off her cell phone (I was paying for it), and tomorrow I'm taking her car off my insurance. Before she left I told her to make sure this is what she wanted to do because once I take her car off, she won't be able to drive. She'll lose her license (she has to have insurance and an SR22 for 3 yrs from the DUI or lose her license again), she won't be able to register her car again in February without insurance, and if she gets pulled over, they'll impound her car. She's only working part-time and no way can she afford gas, cigs, insurance on her car, food, etc without some help. But she still chose to leave....I just can't help her anymore until she really, really truly wants the help for herself.... It feels like I'm watching her die in front of my eyes and it's killing me.... Thanks for everyone's cyber hugs and wishes....

Ugh, well I see that I still want to eat when I'm upset or have had a bad day...good thing I'm tracking my food or I would have sabotaged myself today. I had to make my adult daughter move out today...breaks my heart because I see her going down such a rough road. We've done the in-patient rehab thing and she did so well, gets out and starts hanging with the group she went to the program with and starts drinking again. I've enabled her long enough, it's time she stand on her own two feet...but it still hurts to do it....:rain:

Terry I got my beautiful bracelet today!!! I LOVE it!!!! It's so pretty and colorful...I can wear it with just about anything! Thank you SO much!!!! Oh, and I explained to my hubby, Joe, what WWJD meant....he laughed and said to tell you it should mean "What would JOE do??"...I said "Right, if that's what it meant, I'd be 500 lbs!" He is SO bad about food...and could care less if I'm fat or not...he loves me either way, but *I* want to be loved AND healthy!!! Anyway, thank you so much...it really means a lot to me. I'm wearing it as I type.

Woohoo! This is sure a long thread...we're almost on page 400!!!! Wow we're a chatty bunch....

Thank you Tracy!!! I need to take one a little closer so you can actually see my face....everyone else is showing their pearly whites, it's my turn! hehe Are you going to do pictures on Sunday seeing it will be the 26th?? If I'm not being lazy that day I will.

It's funny that you mention that because someone just commented on me this morning...lately I've felt like doing things for myself. I've gotten my hair cut and highlighted, I've gotten my brows waxed, painting my toenails, etc. I think it's because I finally am starting to feel good about myself again and believe me it doesn't go unnoticed!!! Apparently everyone I work with and my staff have all be saying how great I look! I'll tell you what, it makes me feel good and keeps me motivated! :whoo:

Ok talk about getting stuck.... So I ate my hard boiled egg for breakfast this morning, and then mid-morning I usually have a piece of fruit. Well this morning a gal that I had interviewed for one of our nurse consultant positions (and turned us down when we offered her the job ) brought me by a gift of Trader Joe's coffee, Rasberry/chocolate stix (I put those where the staff can devour them before I do), and a bag full of almonds (which I kept). So I'm sitting here and decide to eat a half of a handful of the almonds - about 10 almonds and I start sliming!!! I chewed them well too...serves me right. On a good note, I'm at 219.4 this morning and I go in for my fill on Tuesday. I'm really excited to get more restriction again. I'm hoping to be under 210 by the end of September!!! :clap2: By the way, does anyone know a nurse who wants to relocate to California? I'm down 3 nurses and it's killinggggggg meeeeeeeee....I'm so tired of working 12 hours a day to keep up... :help:

I'm going to ask for a fill on Tuesday...I'm just worried - I'm at 2.8 in my band...what happens when I get close to 4 and possibly need more fills??? Has anyone seen this happen to anyone? I've seen it once on a board and they said that the doc said no more fills.... Tracy I say GET MARRIED!! If you both are happy and you're doing it for all of the right reasons, who cares if it's in secret...?? Nobody will know but the two of you! That way you can celebrate 2 anniversaries!! hehe

Usually, unfortunately, I can eat just about anything. I've gotten stuck 3 times since I've been banded: 1. On chicken in a Lean Cuisine - I think I ate it too fast. Usually I can eat chicken as long as I go slow and it's moist. 2. After about 2 ounces of a Ribeye steak...it was pretty tender too! 3. After 2 bites of a sandwich....the bread was pretty dense so I'm convinced it was the bread. Otherwise I can eat just about anything...rice, bread (small amounts), torillas, moist mean (had grilled pork steaks last night). Yes I think I need another fill...I can't eat as much as I used to, but I don't think that I have proper restriction anymore. Next Tuesday hopefully that will change!