You lost 125 lbs!!! I don't know anyone who can call that failure. You inspire me. As for you're difficulty with going back to sliding foods, I bet you're not the only one. Maybe try a support group for ideas on how others were able to manage. Talk to your doctor and/or nutritionist. They may have suggestions. But also give yourself the credit you deserve. Remember when our doctors told us that this surgery would be a tool and it's up to us to determine our success. 125 lbs down. You did that.