I can really relate to what momlambert is saying. I will be paying for this myself, too, and I would feel really guilty if I don't make it work. I keep thinking the same thing also, why can't I just do it without a $15000 surgical procedure? I feel so weak! I have been on every diet known to man, and I can lose weight, but I never keep it off. I bought Dr. Phil's book, but I have not completed reading it. I keep telling myself I should just read his book and follow the recommendations, and I'll lose weight for good, but then I wonder who am I kidding?