shellbella

Did I get crazy the day after surgery?? oh yeah!!!! In the hospital i had great anxiety. Then I put it all together and realized I was having a normal reaction to the pain meds that make you very anxious , jumpy and serious jitters. That along with the fact that I was uncomfortable and sore, lacking sleep and feeling scared about the inability to change what i had done.. Big fears

My diet journey began when I was in 6th grade, when I felt I had some weight to lose. Weight Watchers has made a fortune from me over my life time. My weight was a constant issue in my life and I always was looking for the one answer. I had many sucesses along the way but my inability to keep he weight off made me feel like I was unable to change my situation. At 53 and my health beginning to deteriorate with 100 extra pounds to carry around along with the effect on my mental well being and my difficulty in doing my job well as a teacher.As a Canadian , gastric surgery is only available in my province to people with lots more weight to lose and more severe health problems. I decided to look on line to see if there was any place that would do the surgery for a reasonable cost. I was thrilled to find out that I could have the surgery in Cancun Mexico and began to gather information about the process, the safety issues, concerns re follow up in my own province etc. I found a Dr and away I went. I didn't tell many people because I didn't want to hear all the concerns etc. and frankly it felt like a private thing to me . My husband travelled with me, we stayed for a few days after surgery to ensure that i was past the worst time and I went back to work within 2 weeks of surgery date. I had no issues in my recovery, just what one would expect after a laproscopic surgery. The most difficult part has been the emotional adjustment of being unable to enjoy food in large quantities. My body surely does not want the food but somewhere inside of me I want to eat for the familiar experience, especially when I am with others. I have lost 60 lbs and am feeling great and energetic. I am so glad I took the chance to be brave and went ahead with the surgery. No regrets. Still some work to do and need to keep focussed as I have a desire to eat sweet things and feel hungry at times. Its not an easy decision to make but it was a decision to help myself, to live the rest of my life pleased with how I feel and look and with the energy and desire to enjoy living.