Mamamia59

HI, I just joined because I need some help to work thru all this. I am at 230lbs and have been overweight almost my entire adult life. I considder myself a huge "foodie" having worked in high end restaurants for over 20 years and just simply appreciating food as an adventure. I am not a junk food eater. I am having a hard time really understanding what life will be like a year from now. Will that whole part of my life be gone? Also, I was told by my doctor's group to stay away from the internet forums because I'll read scary things that the chances of them really happening are very low. I'm not sure what to make of that. I'd appreciate honest feedback as to the way lives have changes, any regrets, any things that have happened that were unexpected and such. I have found that since I turned 50 (I'm 52 now), I have this internal focus that this is now MY time. Almost like a "when does my life get to start?" mentality. I really want to move forward but the doubts nag and nag. I have done everything I needed to do and am just waiting for my insurance to OK, which I am very confident they will. I could have the surgery in the next 6 weeks or so, which will go by fast. I don't want to let the fear take away what may very well be my only chance to have the life I want. Thanks! karen