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The thought of waiting another 3 months for surgery has me feeling really stagnant. I'm a SAHM and because of my weight, I have social anxiety and I get panicky. (I know the social anxiety is directly related to my weight because I've lost 60 lbs before, putting me at 176 and I was on cloud 9. Still a little socially awkward but not panicky. ) I'm planning on getting on new anti depressants and I know three months will fly but man it seems like forever away. I never go anywhere, I have two shirts I can wear in public and can't (and don't really want to) buy more, so ya not like there's much I can do to pass the time. Honestly, I've already skipped halloween, 2 family birthday parties and I'm not planning on doing thanksgiving or Christmas. I really dislike myself when I'm not thinner. And the depression is 10fold when I'm heavy. I was doing weight watchers for the last couple weeks. Two nights of screwing up put me a lb up this week from last weeks 6lb loss and I just feel worthless. Dh is doing his first diet EVER. All those diets I've done and he didnt want to eat healthy then but the last few months while I wasn't doing well, he decides to lose. And lose he has. He's been 260 to my 233 for a Lon time. He's always been bigger than me. Today? I gain that lb and he's 2 lbs under me. I want surgery yesterday. I'm so tired of this merry go round. And now I want a TON of chocolate. I probably won't. I think. This post probably makes me sound like a kook. Please keep in mind that I'm in the thick of it. Sigh. I know I'll just have to suck it up and get over myself but this is where I am today. I guess I'm looking for virtual hugs? Or maybe been there done that stories.

Did you get another surgery? How come you are still here? I'm just curious, not being snarky. I thought the grehlin hormone came back over time?

Thank you SO much for he kind words, and I would t wish depression and self hatred on anyone but its such a joy to be a member of a group of women (and men) who know what it feels like to be obese. Man I hate that word. I too feel like everyone is stating at me. "Look at those cellulite thighs" sigh. I feel a bit ashamed to say though, that I'm 240 lbs. I was going to say "only" but that puts me at a bmi that says I'm MORBIDLY OBESE. I'm disgusted. I am so excited. Well nervous, but excited. Yep, I'm getting my head in the game already. My husband made a comment about self control today and it hurt my feelings. He didnt mean to, you know how men can be, but it still stings.

Rofl To the poster that don't understand he quote. I *think* ISH means sh*t. As in skinny sex is the sh*t. = great.

So, since you are still here, it is safe to say that you're still planning on getting sleeved?

I'd love to see photos of your trip to Mexico! Did anyone take any?

I like you Amanda Rae

James 1:17 comes to mind. All good gifts are from God. Wls is a gift. And I pray that god guides my surgeons hands during surgery. Maybe your friend will come around in renown time.

Decisions! I feel that either surgeon is perfectly skilled and wonderful but now I'm down I these 2. I think. Lol I like the idea of puerto Vallarta though. If I go there, how do you get across the border? Do you fly or does the driver drive you that entire way? Seems like a very long trip. Also, What hospital and hotel are in Puerto Vallarta?

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Does anyone know if there is a sleeve surgeon across the border of TX that is around 5-6k? Dr Rodriguez does, and he and Aceves were recommended to me by Susan, who works with dr Alvarez. Confused yet? Dr. Rod is 7,500 though. *banghead* I really should probably just pick one and go, really. I probably don't have a choice but to deal with layovers.

Oh I'm not Comitted to alma. Lol. Can you renind me who your coordinator is, and do you have contact info for her? I don't know that there are any straight flight options for me. I'm in MO and I have to fly to Dallas, I believe it was, and then San Diego. Do correct me if I'm wrong!! Maybe a Monterrey or Mexicali dr are more suitable for me. I'd much prefer a straight flight. I can't have surgery until we get taxes. We're broke now. Lol

Gah! Here's also any surgeons that work out of Mexicali or Monterrey, That would mean a much shorter flight for me straight from Missouri to Dallas I assume, Instead of Kansas City to Dallas to San Diego. That would make me feel awesome, since this is my first time flying. Im a mess. Im getting disgruntled trying to choose. I wish I was like those awesome people who can make a decision and stick to it.

Alma@Ready4Achange She has an after hours email as well, but I didn't save it.

Aproximately how much should I expect to spend on Protein powder, Vitamins and all other necessities in the first few weeks? I'm trying to get as close as I can to what everything might cost in the end. Thanks

Can't say much yet, but I want to get this up now. I can't get surgery until feb or march, but I'm doing weight watchers until the. Or that's the plan anyway. I'm not doing any set workout right now, just trying to get a little more active.

Is that the norm? It seems steep. "/ I'm jot trying to sound negative, I'm actually cleared for surgery w Garcia, but for some reason, I'm second guessing my choice. Gah!! I can't even pick out socks!!!!

Does anyone know how many surgeries Dr. Garcia does in a day?

Thank you!! It was a beautiful day when you went!!! That place where the tires are, is that the "view" from the Marriott? That's a little disappointing.

Thanks, I'll search her.

Yes. Yes it does!! Sweet tea, I think I remember some videos of the Marriott and the hospital on YouTube. I plan on looking after the kids go to bed.

Thank you Lilly!! That's exactly what I plan to do, Marriott with Garcia. I'd love to see more!!!! Ps, your legs already looked skinny.

Me? No? I was saying that 20 lbs in 5 weeks is fantastic!! Weightloss surgery is awesome!!