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Oh diamond, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! I'm so happy that you're healthy and healing and your surgery was a success, that's the bright side, along with weight loss. I can imagine the first month just plain Sucks, and it will be VERY hard not to just bite everyone's heads off and be a raging lunatic. Not having food to turn to will be hard, and I have a lot of nuisances in a day. Add pain on top of that and stupid tiny sips, I might go stark raving mad. "/so I can't say I know how you feel, I can say tht I can picture how you feel and it's kinda bleak. But, cliche as it is, "this too, shall pass." I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you wake up tomorrow feeling so much better. Are you in pain? Have you tried warmer Water? Warm herbal teas? Other liquids that might be less harsh? I know you know all this, after all, you've researched this longer than me. I know too, that sometimes in the thick of it, it's easy to forget stuff you've been packing your head full of for months.

Alma calls with a mx number.

Lol yes, Amy. I'll be the fat american girl..... Wait!? Lol I think I'll be heading out of the hospital the night you're flying on, so we might get a night to chat. How are you doing afa nerves?

I know! 3.5 more sleeps!!

I'd write in my signature "no Pm's at the moment, blah blah blah" Paraphrased of course.

Thanks for he heads up. I've been looking for a good book fir my kindle, for on my flight to mx friday, for my Saturday surgery.

I've emailed dr. Garcia and he says he uses a 32 on bmi over 40, and 36 on those with a bmi under 40. Is this wht you are talkin about Cindy? If so, that's a verrrry tiny difference in size. I'm sorry you're having a hard time.

Now. I don't *like* posting this because it seems attention grabbing to me, but. Hold me! Now that I realized that I'll be waking in the morning saying "5 more days", I'm starting to feel like I wonder if my feet will even carry me to the airport that day. (Mexico sirgery) thank god I got a script for Ativan for this (first) plane ride. I've never taken anything like that, but this is one of those times. During the day when the kids are awake and I'm busy, I feel fine. When they go to bed an all is quiet, and when I wake up at 4am because I can't sleep, I can't stop thinkng about it. "Am I really going to go through with this? This is huuuuge. " racing thoughts. I bought some calms forte, but realized I can't have herbal meds the week prior to. Sigh. I guess I'll just have to suffer. Too bad the Ativan is so addictive, if take half a day until then for these nerves. Anyway, talk me down please? Tell me stories about your nerves and how it all turned out A OK?? Pat my shoulder and say there there? This is all SO outside of my comfort zone. I'm just a small town woman. I'm a mommy and wife. I barely get out of the house, much less the country. And a plane? Fahgehtaboutit. Lets get on a plane, leave the country and while you're at it, let a stranger revamp your insides. Gah! Lol Deep breaths. I'm not scared. Just anxious about the unknown.

Better. The Ativan was actually prescribed for my plane ride, but I took one today just in case I have any sort of reactions and so that in know what dosage to take. He pills are only .5mg and I think I might need 2. I'm not even positive they did anything for me at all. My nerves are better. I think ive had every emotion known to man in the last here weeks since I booked my flight and today's is "ready to get this over with". If I could go today I would. thx for checking up on me.

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I feel the same way! Have you ever been to a forum that 1)moves as fast as this one, 2) has such supportive people on it and 3) where every single member of the board knows what it's like to be obese? I haven't, and I love it here. I'm so glad the negative nellies have been banned.

How very exciting! This will be me in 4 days!!

I'm going to miss my family. I tear up when I think about it. I know it's only 6 days but I've never even left them overnight. :*(

Saturday.

I'm leaving early Friday morning at 4am to catch my 6:45am flight. Surgery on Saturday, the 2nd. I've requested to be first that day. So excited, and surprisingly, the days are flying. Amanda, you and I have been discussing this day for some time, can you believe how close we are now? Have you decided for sure what you're gonna do? Pm if you rather.

I'm wondering why you're wondering?

Thanks so much for your thorough updated. So glad all is going well for you! Have a safe flight home!

Leaks, pulmonary embolism.

Why not have an all veggie day? Green smoothies are site to get you moving!! Also, chia seeds, soaked.

Orange man? Anyway, lol

I am leaving for mx in 8 days and somehow I was never concerned about this until tonight. I wanna hear about the psychological side of things. What was it like for you?

Thanks for the reassurance, friends. <3 I definitely don't want to be stuck living this miserable life for any longer. Just last Friday I was at the mall looking in a store for a couple tshirts to take with me on my trip to mx. Wouldn't you know, the store I mostly wanted to look in (Missouri tigers shop), didnt have anything my size. I'm an xl or xxl, depending. That makes me feel like a freak every time. I just wanted a hot pink mizzou shirt for crying out loud! Oh it's even better when they DO have your size, but charge $3 more for the extra yardage. Big sigh. I'm tired of missing out on so much because of my low self esteem. Life B starts in less than a week. Kanes mom I know what day your surgery is. We are on the march 1 thread together. Hehe. Can I just get this over with already? Lol

It's SO bad or you. I say you should never drink it again because of that. (Hug)