mckenna11

In February 2010 I had my lap band surgery and for the first time in my life felt like I had control over my weight. I have always struggled with my weight . I would lose I would gain I would ride this rollercoaster for most of my life. Finally at 42 years old I sat down with my primary doctor and we discussed my options. I told him how I had researched the lap band and how everything I read said I had to be at least 100 lbs over weight and since I wasn't I wouldn't be eligible. Thats when my doctor told me that might be true but unfortunatly you have more than 5 of the comorbidities that also qualifiy a person for the proceedure. My family history was not the best, my mom had high blood pressure, diabetes, open heart and died of a massive stroke . My dad history wasn't much better, he was a 2x open heart, high blood pressure, and arthritius severe. At this time that my primary and I had this discussion I was diagnosised with Type 2 Diabetes, I was 75lbs over weight and my BMI well it wasn't great. My daughter was 10 years old and I wanted to be healthy for her and for myself, so I had the proceedure. I went from my heavest 243 lbs to what I am now 2 years later 187lbs. Unfortunatly I had to have a band revision last November which didn't go well. I was in pain for months after the surgery, I need the help of a Physical Therapist just to get through the day and be able to function taking care of myself and my daughter. Just when I started to feel better I started to resume my pre-revision workouts and exercise. Not even 4 weeks into to it my band breacks again. i am looking at another revision or having the whole thing removed. I don't know what to do, I feel confused, worried and scared of what might happen this time around. i don't know if I could stand going through all the pain again, the physical therapy and being laid up for most of the summer, but the alternitive is worrysome as well if I have it removed what will happen, will I gain I really don't know what to do. I have been thinkign about this for weeks now. I pray God will let me know what I should do.